Hello world.
Life has been pretty exciting with a break from assignment and dates-packed schedules to follow.

Met up with yuhboh last wed for her 21st pre-celeb( the actual's TODAYYYY :)) ! I've been praising coffee club quite a bit after i've tried their banana frap or something, erps i forgot the exact name but they serve nice HOT COFFEE. Now, i want to say, they serve very nice main courses tooo! Bitching with yuhboh's just awwwww - love.

Digressing a bit, i've quit using the word- awesome. Everybody's using it it's not cool and nice to me anymore. It sounds irritating to me now actually.

Next, i met kazzie to bring ash for grooming before he flew on sunday night and now my buds' busy swapping flies in melb. I'm secretly praying that both he and joe'll be back in time for my 20th. THEY'RE ALWAYYYYYYYYS MISSING IN DEC. no xmas no birfffdays MISERS STINGY MISERS.
I met ced and jacq for dinner tooo! but i forgot which day it was.

Yesyesyes.

This was yesterday i was dying to meet cone and rannnnnnt. Such familiarity talking to her every single time. But i practically went home with nothing. No mags no accessories no clothes no nothing everything.

Met eben for a short while this afternoooooooooooooon tooo and i had so much food i'm exploding.

OK. I HATE KIDS.
I was forced by mom to help the little one shower this evening, i'm pretty sure he ended up with more than 50 slaps on his arms. Companies should stop stop stop improving dvd players and everything, stop creating dish washers and come up with BABY WASHERS. Then moms won't have to bathe their kids anymore! Just throw them into the machine and they'll be nice smelling and clean in 10minutes. Throw in some POWDER SPRINKLER and maybe CLOTHES HELPER so moms won't even have to dress the kids! THIS IS FEASIBLE believe me, ten years down the road, when half the population's consisting of working mom's, you'll see how great my idea is. GENIUS. Kids are very irritable ok, maybe adorable at times. Like... when he's singing thomas and friends.

I've got only two lectures next weeeeek this is such a joy.
Shopping with the brother tomorrow, can't wait!
I'm so broke omg it doesn't help when BC's collections are all so gorgeous.

TV AND BNA NUT CRUNCH!



Old friends know best.
<3

I, can never do with insufficient sleep. Like today, is totally ruined. On a sidenote, i have pretty free days in november so dates can start calling in on me! But i'm broke so date me only when you're intending to treat me to meals. hahaha.
This week's exciting i have a couple of things lined up!!!

To be frank, I NEED TO VENT MY FRUSTRATIONS TOO.
cone.. :(

I won't be so stupid to say everything here will I?
Some things need to be done discreetly sometimes.
Little secrets open the path to success.

Alright! I spent the whole day at home today... erm sleeping. Until dinner with the parents.
The two males at home are obsessed with hairgrowth. My dad just spent a bomb on some shampoo from japan while the younger one is looking forward to a bob i guess, and believes that some random solution from japan kobe aids in lengthening at a faster speed.

I need a new hair colour. The roots are showing yucks.

Ok. The boys recommend durians later.
YES DURIANS!!!

I NEED TO SHOP.
Last sat, jaeeeechan and shaeeehuang and i scanned the town for hours but found nothing to buy.
nothing.
no clothes.
no shoes.
no clothes.
no shoes.
I'M GONNA WEAR RAGS TO SCHOOL SOOOOOOON!

ok i love food.
and earlier this evening i was supposed to meet zyz for DESSERTS and i ended up with curry rice instead now i have a big round tummy which goes pokpokpok! I LOVE ZYZ YOU KNOW AIGOOOOOO SHE'S SO CUTE OMG I LOVE ZYZ LIKE HELLO I'VE LOVED HER SINCE I WAS FOURRRRTEEEN.

SEE. WASIBI BEEF SANDWICH AND ROASTED DUCK WRAPS WITH SMELLY PURPLISH SALADS. AND ALL TIME FAVOURITE CLAM CHOWDER. i should go be a member with soupspoooon!

IT'S SLURRRRRRRRRRRPPPPY IT'S SLURRRPY and sexyy pouts!

alright anbi's pretty funny.
goodnight!

Made up my mind to get the blueberry and apple flavoured one too. I'd be willing to just munch on this for breakfast lunch dinner supper. Such nice cereals with grain clusters that means oats! Actually i kept picking and digging for the grain clusters to munch on.

People, i need my social life back.

It's ironical how my bo (bimbo) hates the weather over at her side and how she dislikes almost everything there while some people who wants her place so much never gets it. I just came out of the shower and so did she, so we suggested sending each other out-of-shower photos since i've never seen her w/o makeup before!

HAHAHAHAHAH.
Ok. People don't believe me when i say i have uneven eyes with uneven double eyelids and i have uneven eyebrows when i don't have make up on. BELIEVE ME NOW.


" i'm trying to help! you'll lose all your friends if they see you like that, NO EYEBROWS AND BIG SMALL EYES!!"

Stupid bimbo's fuckin proud the pupil enlargement and grey eyebrows she drew.
kns. Haiyer i miss her i want her to fly back now as much as she wants to.
and i love my doraemon singlet okkkkk! chanjaeyoo stop mocking at me.

ANYWAY.
I was reading BT's blog she's so pretty leh so pretty so pretty omg so pretty. She has some sort of resemblance to fannn!

okayyy.
I'm seriously considering switching to lj.

goodnight.

Blog it!

as jaeee chan suggested.

Ok, i just received a letter from UOL Board of Examiners to congratulate me.
Seriously considering to throw this letter into the turban lecturer, N's face, show a smirk and tell him i'm heading down to town!

:))))))

Need to start recognising faces. I've been having people wave and smile at me, of course i return the courtesy, but at the same time, i'm trying hard to recall who they are even though they look familiar. I find it pretty fun though, it feels like you're waving to strangers.

Okay basically i spent the day with kaz today. I was at his house by 8 for my swim and i swear i'm aching all over now, OLD ALRD REALLY. Waffles over at some nice cafe in northbridge and desserts in the evening. Kazzie was literally my chauffeur sending and picking me up from assignments today i love to be driven around, don't ask me to drive. On the way home, i was telling him that i'll sleep early tonight like at 12 and i'll wake up earlier to curl my hair to school and if i screw the curls up i'll scrunge my hair up, still a good old jun. HAHAHA. Yes i love my being superficial like that. Ashley attempted to attack me, because i was commenting that the caviar dog food she was gonna have for lunch looked delicious. Dogs understand human language really, and this is the response when you try to snatch their food. HAHAHAH OHYES. JOE TAN IS FREAKING AFRIAD OF DOGS. lol. well, actually i think boys are the cutest when they're afraid of dogs. HAHA really damn cute.

I'm still veryvery obsessed over the lam fung song i think it's on repeat mode like 100times per day.

And i learnt that people can be all heartless and cruel, without warnings or signals.
I've got a fuckin headache

如果可以恨你
全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非想放下你
还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲

I finished reading the article.
I could read a million more times.

So extravagant, yet so simple.
So attention seeking, yet so discreet.
So surreal, yet a reality.

I TOOK A QUIZ ON FB.
AND IT ASKED ME TO MARRY A FARMBOY.

what crap. where do i find a farmboy in sg? boys who play farmville they mean? hahaha then i know whooo! it's a sign. lol wtf.

someone has to help me cuz i can't stop craving for sweet stuff to eat, like really sweet stuff and i broke half my nail today and spent two bucks (which i could jolly well buy a packet of nice strawberry stuffed marshmellows from muji) on toto after jas told me about the 9million prize. But on the other hand, i met kazzie for a chat after what seemed ages ok i realised i'm so busy i don't have time for almost anyone except jas? lol basically we're meeting everyday we're turning into a couple. I keep promising to meet this and that who everybody but i just don't keep to my promises i'm gonna become friendless if this carries on. Then again, friends should understand that, right now, money and sleep is more important to me. Oh yes, i've been trying to unlock my maingate with my ez-link card. Like put it there for 3seconds, then " oh i should be using my keys!" trance.

ok i'm tired of punching holes and stringing up the notes. I didn't mention that poa is a bore and the lecturer is rlly bad, did i?

oh whatever. i'm going to dream about the happy marriage with my farmboy now.

Don't you think that eyes that shines and shimmers even behind those glasses are amazing?
Yes, indeed.
Glasses are cool, in this case.
And whiteee teeth straight teeth..
Maybe it's in the canto blood.

On the other hand, i have small puffy eyes now i've never been more tired.
Okay but i still have perfectly nice teeth.

Great. Incoherent.
Goodnight.

She's gorgeous.Everything everything everything faannnnnn is a stunning woman.

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Finally i've got rid of my shrub i have soft fluffy hair now.
And i snipped it off so that it's significantly shorter.
Ok part two's coming tomorrow.
blond brunette redheads.

恨铁不成钢
This is seriously worse than studying for myself.

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On a sidenote, Mr Phoon is laughing madly at Jas and my convo right now.
" jie! you see her hahahahahhaha, reminds me of how she laughs! So funny! HAHAHAHAH!"

Kids are an amazing lot. Today, monster cried because she was hungry. Actually she was sobbing. Then she came in with a BOX OF BISCUITS, and started being real chirpy and happy. So simple i love simple happy people.

Jas just left. Ok that was two hours ago it's 2am right now.
I need to archive my notes and make some space for new ones, stop procrastinating since it's been 4months since the hols started. Suddenly it seems like i'm rushing for time.

Okay.
I need to trim the shrub a little i don't know what to do with it anymore and my hairbands scrunchies keep going missing i'm in a mess.

I am craving for that indian white beehoon thing in one piece like beehoon pancake? The one that you eat with orange sugar and coconut. And kueh lapis. And tissue prata. And onehoneh and ice milo. I suggested for kazzz to buy me some from near his house then we can make do with sitting at the cafe alfresco, but it's been half an hour and he hasn't reply me.

I shall sleep and tmrw morning i can eat my indian beehoon pancake.

" for god's sake you need to stop munching on bread. "

He left out banana cakes.
I LOVE BANANA CAKES NOW.

Holidays are coming to an end so you feel secretly happy because you miss copying notes and then feel a bit depressed when you think back about how good life has been for the past months.

Life's good when...

You get to roll in bed and snooze the alarm for 35 minutes then go back to sleep and decide when you want to really wake up. Then you sit down and munch one 4 different kinds of bread because there's this new bakery down the street and they make really nice bread, flipping through magazines at the same time and switching channels like nobody's business.
Two hours later you feel so tired you go back to bed and wake up after a 3hr nap to eat and watch tv again. And keep smiling to yourself then count the time until it's time for you to come online at night!

Or.

You get to spend so much time swimming to the extent you can memorise which lifeguards work on which days and who they pair up with. Then you feel like you're super lucky when this really stern looking female lifeguard smiles at you and you want to laugh because you never knew that she had braces and while swimming your laps you keep wondering if she didn't want to smile because she was inferior about having braces on. While swimming your laps, you also think about why there's not hot lifeguards like on tv so you wonder if it's feasible to write a complaint letter to the management and suggest that they hire cuter hotter guards, making a mental note to remind them that it's part of the privileges you should recieve for paying the club membership fee. And you get to hit the library and borrow all kinds of stupid books but never has the time to finish reading them, though you are reaalllllly free.

Or.

You have so much time pondering about how you want your bestie to be your maid of honour and how you want to be hers during your weddings. And while beaming happily at these lovely thoughts you realise it won't work out because if your bestie gets married first she can't be your maid of honour and if you get married first you can't be hers so you're determined to work a solution out. "SO HOW QIU? Let's brainstorm." , you want to tell her that.Before you even think of a solution for this you realised that your toenails look pretty awful because they're painted some turqouise greenish color when it's been on there since 3 days ago. The fact that it doesnt go well with any of your sandals, you are determined to paint a new colour on your toes and while deciding on a new color you're convinced that you'll find a way to pull this color off even if it means walking on the streets barefooted. YES YOU CAN DO IT IF THE KOREANS CAN.

Or.

You have all the time in the world to get excited because your friend is wondering if he should leave for aussie soon and the aussie embassy is giving him hell loads of problem. You open up your organiser and his then look at the free slots you guys have and try to find something to do on those days. Why not when you get free rides coffee and movies. Then continue with planning what days will you have school, what you're studying and how many sets of new clothes how many pairs of shoes will you need. Lastly think of all the people you'll meet in school and make a mental mindmap of the pros and cons of meeting bitter souls vs happy souls.

And.

Life is really good when you're laughing heartily while talking to your mom and she decides to go shopping together after she saw what you've bought from your shopping spree.
That's tomorrow for you!

Now you think life is good too right, unless you're feeling real bitter.
kekekeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex.

" That woman in oversized shades having a cappuccino has got one, plus about six zillion bags from Armani. She gesticuates to her friend and reaches inside one of them -- and pulls out a pot of jam, with an Armani label.
Armani jam? Armani does jam?
Maybe in Milan everything has a fashion label! Maybe Dolce & Gabbana does toothpaste. Maybe Prada does tomato ketchup!"



I have a feeling i'm gonna love school soooo much this coming sem.
it's gonna be schooling just like two years ago with miss chan and miss huang! well, provided i clear all my mods first. I want to join yoga and frisbee.I'm a MAJOR bitch when i start bitching i'm terrified of karma really.
- I was so overjoyed when man replied to my comment she has access to evth and anth in SH god i almost teared i miss her so much alrd.
i'm feeling dizzy and looking pale like shit i better coax myself to sleep because my lappy needs some rest too.

I have no idea what i'm typing, why do you even bother to read?

goodsleep!

i need to meet siew i need to meet siew i need to meet siew i need to meet siew.

omg really i need to meet siew to calm my nerves.

My nsc bills amounted to such a large amount thanks to, the new morning cream made in Ireland. So, kaz insisted that my dream about scotland is a premonition to the ireland cream, what crap seriously. Kazzzzy shingy and prata was loveee, only up to the part when the breadface debate came along and when they can't stop chiding me about how i'm not paying attention to what they're talking.... i like those arms! . seriously, i don't know what i'm saying or doing nowadays.
Mrtall is like some catalyst that totally pulls the strings i love himmm i wna give him a big thankyou hug.You just know it when you wake up smiling everyother day.


Tomorrow's back to the waters with Qiu! yay.

You say: "most chefs are guys!"
I say: "HAHAHA I KNOW HOW TO BAKE!higher level than cooking okayy hahaha"
You say: "but baking is easier!"

and because of that. I'm going to learn the toughest dish in the planet first!
FRIED RICE.

I dreamt of - melb, scotland, taking a plane without passport, landing up in jas's hostel room, rushing for flights, puny cute dogs, dogs fishing in icebergs and not having enough clothes with me.




[ v] phoon says:
I ALMOST SUFFOCATED JUST NOW
Hi Qiu says:
HAHAHAHAHA
heart stopped
[ v] phoon says:
FUCK WHY MY MSN NO SOUND ONE HUH
Hi Qiu says:
WHY NEED SOUND
[ v] phoon says:
THE TENG TENG TENG TENG
Hi Qiu says:
my msn is silent all the time so irritating la hahahha
[ v] phoon says:
I LIKE!
hahahaah
Hi Qiu says:
COZ U BUSY
[ v] phoon says:
RLLY MEH
Hi Qiu says:
YAH
[ v] phoon says:
BUSY THEN NO SOUND?
Hi Qiu says:
YA
HAHAHA
[ v] phoon says:
MUST AVAIL THEN GOT SOUND?
HOW U KNOW
I TRY
Hi Qiu says:
YA
TRY
[ v] phoon says:
OK TRY
Hi Qiu says:
HAHA
TRY
[ v] phoon says:
OMGGGGGG GENIUSSSSS!!!!
Hi Qiu says:
SHIT
I KNEW THAT LIKE ZILLION YRS AGO
[ v] phoon says:
OHHHHHHH MANNNNNNS!
Hi Qiu says:
[ v] phoon says:
I DIDN'T KNOW THAT
Hi Qiu says:
HAHAHA
VERY FUNNY
TOO TIRED TO LAUGH REALLY
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA


lol i'm just amazed by us.
and how we change topics.

i wanna have cuppies!!!

Actually, what i wanted to say was, sun-mon was a blast.

1. pretty parking lot, ahyat and oysters and diarrheoa ( i don't know how to spell it.)
2. car rides, check-ins, jumps and guilt.
3. singing, laughing, madness inclusive of a brownie, scout and sort-of-comatose-monkey face. and. diarrheoa.
4. fooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood.
5. American accents with nan val mon che - hysteria.
6. Attempts to squeeze 6 persons on double single beds and failing terribly.
7. Sleeptalking and sleep-like-you're-not-sleeping sleep.
8.Marvellous oatttttttssss buffet with nan and sy.
9. Swimming and tanning with mannnnn in the pool seung n hoon once were - GORGEOUS POOOOOOL.
10. HIBERNATION MODE.

Can we have these trips on a 3month basis?

We could keep talking like there's no tomorrow. We could.

Kaz is being a bitch right now. No one speaks like that seriously hahaha. I refuse to budge! no way no way no way!
Caught a frap in PAPER CUP after kaz said he was on the way home from sk, so he'll pass by hg so we drove back to sk for a nice talk. God i miss talking to him over coffee seriously this man can come up with one thousand crazy ideas for me to laugh at. He's freakin got everything planned out i can't help but be really amazed.

"fuck it's not working kazzzzzzzzz, i'll die before sat."
" you can only talk to me now. don't even think of fuckin clicking the mouse!"
" knssssssssss omg huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"
" WHY NOT U GO TO SLEEP NOW. JUST SLEEP YOUR TIME AWAY THEN SAT WILL COME! AND STOP YOUR VULGARITIES MS PHOON! "

i have such good friends really.

Someone dear just texted me her probs today. Really, it's not worth crying over friendships when the other party don't even give a damn. People come and go. It's always those that care less who wins. Let's all be nonchalent if the friendship's not in the least mutual. We'll still live without this or that person. " BUT NOT WITHOUT HOTTIES! -quotes joe" Raises both hands and agrees. Now you see, i'm not a good friend but i have a dozen good friends! HAHAHA. and for you my friend, as long as you have your baby with you. I'm sure you'll be fine. <3

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Ok anybody?
Go to ikea with me!!!
Korean bbq with ssssangchoooo at home!!
Bake my velvet red cupcakes!!
VOLUNTEER PLS?

hahaha
Oh nothing for me to click on alrd, i can go to sleep YAY!

" **tehteh** two chances left!!"

it's not even funny yet i'm grinning uncontrollably.

Begin your week with an energetic flourish! You're full of verve and vitality on Monday, and you can accomplish almost anything -- at work, at home or in your love life. Starting on Tuesday and into Thursday morning, your communication skills are without equal -- you can get your point across clearly and persuasively, and no argument is too subtle or complex. On Thursday afternoon and on into Saturday, you'll want to daydream and philosophize, but you'll have a hard time getting in deep. Don't get frustrated -- sometimes talking the talk is just as good as walking the walk. This Sunday, follow your mood and don't hold back.


mightymighty horoscope.
great. mr msn is not on msn.
fuck. i had a very bad day.
all started with my nap being interrupted.

ok it's fine now i guess. :)

Helllooo omg met up with babysie ytd and it was total dope. Now i know how to read a road directory hahahahaha skip the first part of the day swimming was well, a failure. Driving was of course, amazing. Met up with the two boys aft tt for braids, stores and movies hahahahah by the end of the day i was a happy girl.

Not that my day didn't start right. To be exact, it's been brilliant these few days. Even just coming online has been, uhumph, AWESOME ACTUALLY. hahahaha i was grinning to myself while walking on the streets ytd and smiling to sleep my bro thinks i'm mad. I've been looking superrr friendly these few days okayy!! Like, people have been smiling back at me too or maybe they think i'm mad or something. Oh by the way, my bro gets really cheap deals for me like omgggg. And i've been exceptionally hooked on to the book i'm reading now i can't stop turning pages and laughing at the characters in it. Really adds on to the already good mood i'm in.

Okayyy the upcoming week's gonna be great!

You're just like the lyrics to my songs.

Today's freakin happening like lalala happening. My ecp became sentosa and i lurbslurbslurbs the people and overload of calories yesyesyes dinner was dimsummmmmm with the bigbigfammm and hello i'm like hopping and skipping around the house now, and grinning to myself at the same time! hahahaha ohyes whoever i'm talking to now is nonsense and so funny tell me about it. The thought of next weekend is totally amazing hello. We can do everything under the sun!!! HAHAHAHA. And i am meeting my diva on monday we shall go majulah singapura together.

HAHAHAHA my yuhboh is damnnnn funny i am not going to blog about her because she is omega skinny looking like a model alr yet she says she's fat i am sososo jealous i am not talking about her until i see her again! HAHAHAH must be suppppeeer angry now right sharrr! HAHAHA you know i love u!!

Okayyy i think i'm in hysteria again.

hi. actually i'm laughing at the computer screen now.
NA. WATASHIWA. I.
Am really elated now.
Like superomegaultra happy.

msn is just great ok. awesome shit.
Ciaos!

Hi. I feel like making red colored cupcakes. They're gorgeous. Okayy one day when i'm free.

看起来傻傻的，什么都不太在乎的。。。 但却把那么小的细节都记住了，真让人觉得很意外，心头暖暖的。

Hello everybody, I fell down on the bus earlier like down the steps like bombombom.
Oh yes you're free to laugh!

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On a side note, i'm giggling to myself now and is extremely high aigrrrrr so cute you know!

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On a side note of the side note, 3 minutes ago, we were crazy enough to have conference call, eben and i didn't even get to speak at all.

" EH COME MY HSE SWIM LUHHH!!! We can go have ice cream after that! "
" Now uh now uh now uh? Ohmygod you guys steady?!!!"
" Ah ok nownow! I'll fetch aq first before gg to the two of yall!!"

time check: 11.15pm

I have mad friends. So now, i'm gonna get ready for my moonlight swim!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

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On a side note of the side note of the side note, i just found out this afternoon that mr.d looks like he hasnt got a haircut since exams ended. I saw him in town. Not very nice.

To be precise, it was three-day-starbucks buffet and food food and more food. :(
Other than that, it was a good getaway and i love my sleeping partner who's busy enjoying herself a great deal at some beach in langkawi right now.

The boy commented that my face is now ROUNDER. So I will wake up at 6 tmr to meet ebenzertoh for our run. I WILL I WILL I WILL! try.

Goodnight!

Bro says: " You don't need your vivi! and you don't need 24 of these tablets.... and one whole box of plasters?!!!"

And much more were thrown out. :(
It's never been my forte to pack light.
I've secretly sneaked the above items back in! HAHA

100 pages to finishing my book.

Adios!

EVEN THE SHADOW LOOKS FAT NOW.
I'm serious.

Okayyy blogger's kinda screwed i want to switch to lj alrd. (i know i've been harping on it for a zillion times now.)
Oh thursday, anqi kazzie and i met up for a quick lunch before dropping by to collect the tiff's necklace he's got for his mom. I promise i'm so gonna rob that shop someday and i will not get married unless i receive a specially made ring from there. And so after that, we HAD TO walk by WAREHOUSE and saw a BIG SALE so we casually strolled in, each making a mental note that we don't really need anything from there.....! We ended up with carriers and kazzie bought burberry weekend for men from Sephora and i was fighting back the urge not to get anything from there but failed terribly, i've said so earlier that everyone guy should use this fragrance ok not every single of them but nobody believes me now see what happens omg. hahahah

" You see, this is the reward for taking such a controlled approach to shopping. When you buy some-thing, you really feel as though you've earned it."

I just love this one. By the end of the day, i had to deal with my own trauma of crying monster and ignoring the boy for almost the whole of the lesson. I really hate kids who cry and think that everyone will be sympathetic towards that. Ignorance. HAHA.

And so friday, jas n i finally dragged our asses back into the pool and it's so not good i ended up with homecooked meals and subway-eatfat! , for dinner. I had this tinge of joy when i was picking cosmetics for holy, it's like satisfying my own addiction to buying blushers and mascaras. All and all, it was pretty scary seeing the amount to be paid flashing at the cashier. OH I STILL NEED MY HOT PINK TOWEL. So as you can see, i'm really trying hard to SAVE SOME MONEY.

Weekends are good. Mom's in better mood.



"PONCHO!!!!!!"

Two seconds later, you see a red poodle, nicely groomed and trotting on hot pink puppy shoes, running over to me.
My pooooooooodle!
<3

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Anyway, i also NEED to get a hot pink bath towel and maybe a turquoise greenish one too.
I JUST NEED THEM.


oh anyway, MY PONCHO will only exist after i successfully come to terms with extra responsibilities like cleaning dog poo and buying smoked salmon or caviar dog food which sounds yummy enough even for humans. That'll probably materialise like 5 years down the road. But it sounds really cute isn't that so?
Ok two poodles then. Male one shall be named GuJunPyo while the female's poncho. Okayyy 5 years. I'll remember that.

hi. look at the bassist's haircut. TOLD YALL IT'S IN TREND RIGHT. hahaha. awee i love redheds and happy songs.

anw, someone need to teach me what to say what to say what to say what to say booo.
jas n kazzzz and that person who flashes 11 teeth when smiling makes me happy! teeheee.

you know, i feel like digging a hole and burying myself now.
not yet not yet not yet please.
you and you are not impressing me and over the other side, you are not trying to impress me - which is making me want to die.
not fun anymore.

exciting. grinnnnns :))))))

now i totally look stupid.



then someone who was mocking at me secretly ended up looking stupid too.




another someone who came over before meeting her friends got persuaded to look stupid.

and the birthday girl, forced to look stupid.

I wanna say, man's sister is the SPLITTING IMAGE of her. omgosh. i bet the above was how lohmanying looked like when she was sec 1.
we ended up walking on the streets attracting a lil that bit of attention cuz we looked stupid.

whoa but i secretly think it's dammmmnn cool omg this is gonna be the next big trend promise.

liewanqi: " i secretly miss my bangs! but i can't do it now!!"

after her perf, i'm gg to make sure it happens!

okayyyy and in 15 mins i think yes, i ended up with two humongous taka bags with some stupid fringe rushing out of town and gg for tut the boy's gran must have thought i was mad.
now i can't stop giggling to myself.
and i don't want to go to sleep even though my head's hurting badly.
i reckon tmr morn's plans'll be destroyed for i'll prolly end up snugging in bed love my pillowsss.

and can someone tell me this is wrong omg so wrong to be laughing at the computer screen because everything this person says is so funny i want to die. it's so funny how we pause for twenty minutes and think about what to reply.
And i've been so busy these days i don't remember having a decent meal home for a long time and i missed that, so i had 3days worth of food for dinner this evening..
goodnight.

Met up with kazzie for a short lunch this afternoon before the fillial son collects his mom's birthday pres at tiff's. Some time left before i had to head to monster's and so we hung around and it was terribly wrong to have walked into sephora and warehouse, where we entered empty handed and left, well. carriers. Ok actually it's just me.

" You see, this is the reward for taking such a controlled approach to shopping. When you buy something, you really feel as though you've earned it."

It really feels this way you know!!! Not that i had intended to spend any today.
And i felt happier than kazzzie when he left the shop with burberry weekend for men i think everybody should use this fragance i've been saying it to all my boys for eons but nobody wanted to believe me seeee!

I was beeming brightly except the usual fits i get from those kids who thought that they can threaten me by crying no way i hate kids who cry, until i reached home when my mom roared at me like some alaska bomb. I was surprised at the preachings she gave me when i was practically...NOT HOME THE WHOLE DAY. yet every single shit has got to do with me. Well, we've been having pretty serious issues since the previous time and there's nothing i can do just that i rlly hate staying home now. If i can, i'll move out.

" That's the thing, just like how we can never understand the intimate friendships you girls have that sends you hugging and holding hands on the streets, you girls will never understand the more than superficial friendships that guys don't show."

When did we say that boys have superficial friendships? In fact, i adore the friendships that boys share. It's like, they have telepathy and they need not be always close in contact to stay the way they are ten years ago. lurrbbbbs my boyyyysssss you know. Even msn convos can be so fun.

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I'm still in a mental state of shock, this is almost, nonsensical.
What do you guys do when this kind of thing happens?
Is life that fragile and worthless that she has to do that?
Though we've not talked for ages, how is it possible to forgot that girl who aspires to be a housewife and live her life in the way she wants, as though nothing else matters except love and whatever that makes her happy.
Isn't that good? If in one's world, nothing else matters except love.
Right now, the way she used to smile and that laughter that belongs to her keeps coming back to me.
Yes, why is it that everyone is being concerned only when she's left?
No one took her seriously i guess.
Not even herself.




I feel like PLUCKING OUT my fringe now.

My feet are sore from all the standing but these three days've been really nice and good. well... in general with food leftover from teabreaks for our teabreaks and really cute african principals that pronounces your names as ZEEEEEEEEEEEE and YAHOO and asking you if you'd wanna visit south africa one fine day and persuades you into exchanging emails and meeting fun people and running about quite alot and flashing your smile almost everywhere the only imperfection is i wanna gorge that short hair woman's eyes out. aweeee throws in the theory of fuggism i seriously HATE HER. i've been pretty much sane for the past month until kazzie's back and i have so much to pour out i realised. he's secretly running away from quarantine so that we can have ice cream together now i sound like a primary school kid anyway i just realised that i can't stay too calm and serious for long i'll go mad that's why june was really bad in a sense. You know, it's like suppressing my emotions and wanting everything to be right and by the law and straight and yep " trying to act less stupid" ( anqi) and trying to talk less bluntly and showing less attitude is JUST NOT ME. yes. and being less hypocritical too.
i secretly miss school quite a bit and i'm secretly envious when one of them at the convention told me they're going back to sim next monday.

july's gonna be quite a packed month it's really zooming by but i just found out that it seems like i have nothing to look forward to already. well screw me why am i like that? but i really almost threw my hands up in exasperation yesterday? or is it today. whatsoever. it was just that instance when i saw my phone.

haizzzzzzzz anyway i want a RICH BOYFRIEND.
ok gooooooooodnight.



I've got my poop pants =)
and i want another pair of poop pants.

Monday's shopping with my pussys was good. Goodlaughter goodSHOPPING and goodfood (okayyy i love mos). I think shopping's heaven. When you have money, YOU SHOP. Totally flies you to the sky hahahaha. And i was telling my mom that she'll only get her first allowance from me in future when i get my second pay. Because my first pay's gonna go my PRADA! hahahahaah this aint being unfillial cuz she's fine with it. HAHAHAH zipia's still sucking the blood out of me especially when the brother's too hooked on it too.

sister: " ehhh... how many pieces have u chosen? "
brother: " they're not very pretty know.... topman's better. so i've chosen only 4"

ONLY 4.
ONLY's the crucial word.

on a lighter note, i cant wait for the last week of the month to come.
and next's week busybusy and omg chanjiayu let's go join frisbeeeeeee hahahah.
FRISBEE.

So, i just woke up from a dream with her crying so hard over their breakup and my heart aching a big deal. Like, 2 minutes after i switched on my mobile, i saw her text telling me the exact same thing and telling me how hard it was for her the past few days, bawling her eyes out.

I find myself scary. Dreams literally happen in real life. And well, all the bad dreams to be exact. Why not the good ones?

Gloomy weather and pouring rain spoiling my morning plans and i have to get stuck home till late afternoon i'm dying of boredom i better get my ass back to sleep and WHY IS KAZZIE STILL NOT BACK it feels like 3years already the bitching urge's piling up like mad and caffeine craving's making me suicidal argghhhhhh then comes the big news he's prob gna be QUARANTINED when he's back and he's gotta be stuck home with ash and glen because there's basically no one at home and that means NO POOLSIDE PARTY when my boys are on leave and when anqi's backkkk. great h1n1.



Since young, i was never taught how to say sorry. So, even if i know i'm in the wrong, even if i know i'm sorry, I DON'T APOLOGISE. (not casual sorries i'm talking about here.)
People can forget about hearing sorry from me.
But yesterday, so much happened that i said sorry to my parents for the first time in my life.
And i also wrote a letter for this woman who's always been there no matter what.
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And on a brighter note, i'm breathing the same air and stepping on the same ground as my hongki boy. gosh i can't believe it. It's tomorrow!

=D

Our one day tour.
It's inevitable that we're the noisest group around. But i heartttts 'em all although they can't stop mocking at me.

I want to say!
If i had one million dollars now, i'll take half of it. Bring a photo of hasegawa jun, fly to korea and tell the surgeon that " I WANT THIS FACE."
Anyway i think it's karma or something i think i look like a tranny
anyway, met up with muimui td and the sky totally hates us i promise promise promise, i think i love my girlfriends a lot and i dreamt of kaz and eben feeding kangaroos last night. And daddy says that i look better w my current skin color okayyyy all along i've been wanting to prove all these ppl wrong but know i'm think i'm kinda joining their league too. bahhhh and mom says that people become stupid if they don't have their meals regularly, is that even true?
and as you can infer, i'm kinda excited now good things have been happening these days and guanyinma gave me a GOOD when i consulted her yesterday. Omega happy and i can't believe it hongki boy is coming in what? 4 days? THIS IS LIKE MEETING THE KING HELLO?!! everyday and everyday i look at my organiser, then a smile follows. Every postive sign on the organiser signifies a negative sign on my bank book if you can even understand what i'm talking about. and i want a new phone.... for example the 3g iphone. chanjiayu we totally forgot abt toto ytd if not we might be millionaires now alrd.

I miss conniesie and sharlotyap and anqiliew so much I TOLD I LOVE MY GFS ALR RIGHT.

oh wells, goodnight!














On wednesday, i told myself that i should stop being THIS paranoid. I'm going crazy soon if keep scanning around like this.

Yesterday evening, i really had so much fun that i feel like going back to tell shin-g that " EH I THINK I WANT TO GO ALREADY." i bet he's reading it right now. and i want THAT DRESS FROM WAREHOUSE. hahahah. okayyy. nice cocktails nice food nice entertainment and nice people. I really do love socialising.

This evening was steamboat at jackson's. It's always these people who are a little too high, that i love hanging around with.

And at this time next week, i may jolly well be suffering from the aftermath of seeing my hongki boy, go to sleep dreaming of hongki boy and nothing else but hongki boy.

IGNORE THIS.

I AM TALKING TO KAZZZZIEEEE NOW. :)
AND MY DEAREST FAV GIRL IS NOW AN OFFICIAL STAFF OF OGILVY.
COOL SHIT.

i should celebrate now.

and cone's " drag me to hell" tag sounds as if she's really asking me to drag her to hell.
ok ignore me, i'm mad. I NEED MY LBD AND I NEED A HAIRCUT. I NEED TO COLOR MY HAIR AND I NEED TO SWIM MORE. I NEED TO MEET UP WITH SO MANY PEOPLE AND WHERE IS MY YUHBOH SHE'S TOTALLY MIA. POGOSHIPTA!

i'm laughing like shit now because kazzzie's telling me about the roadside junkies and well, judy maybe. i like listening to the judy stories because it goes to show how freakin perfect ahem ahem is. i think i have one thousand things to buy so i reckon i should save up a bit but being constantly hooked to zipia is not helping. AQ's telling me to eye on the right friends so i'm eyeing on her. Jas and i saw fireworks last night and i dreamt of fireworks at clarke quay later in the night. i still can't get over the fact that mom crawled on the kitchen floor because she was freaked out by a roach. i think that XXX is super pretty i can't keep my eyes off her. Ran is suggesting that we go for plastic surg because he wants to have leeminho's pinochio nose i'm totally in for it why not why not when plastic surg makes you prettier. and i think chris lau looks like joanne peh but kazzie doesnt agree with me.

i love lemon juice i drank like 3 litres of it yesterday. durian and floor cleaning det mixed together smells like peeee. i love raisin bread i think it should be sold at 1.45 instead of 2.90.
i just had a hearty dinner and i'm already missing yesterday morn's prata. someday i'm going to open my own cake shop and a salon that's a dream a dream, it won't happen until i marry Dd. I think i should go beautify my teeth or something, pull it a bit longer or something.

oh i swam with congcong today and imagine two congs soaking in the water instead of moving kinda hilarious anyway i think her laughter changes quite a bit when she's in the pool and icy cold water i've not experienced this ever since i stopped swimming at kazzie's. anyway, today's human weather so kudos! Oh i secretly think that zoe is very cute and i'm super tempted to talk to her but i was intimidated by sarah. i'm watching this crazy vid now it's totally mad.

some things are just not worth while bothering so i've decided not to, it just takes me sometime to get over it anyway i have 3 novels and 1 cookbook to read and i should finish watching my abalone show before my new found friend sends me bof in a couple of days and i should start looking for my sol missing disc or i'll have to get a new one aweee freakin sad. humans are all making use of one another this i really really think so. call me a sceptic. and some things, you're just born with it, BORN WITH IT. no use being a wannabe. awee hate this. i hope he dies.

okay tired already. lemonjuice and fw show!

To the airport for a meal before he flew off, though it's only a three weeks, I'm starting to miss kazzz after just one day.
Seriously, the fact that he's going overseas is a total abhorance to me. I hate it so much that i don't even want to talk to him about it. But seeing how excited he gets each time he mentions about his gorgeous apartment there, ( P.S: REALLY GORGEOUS.) or rather their gorgeous apartment, i can't help but feel excited for them too. It's really what they've been looking forward to for so long, i can't help but feel such strong happiness for them too, with a tinge of heartache. All along, i didn't say anything to hinder them despite the constant questions they pose me because i know that i don't see things as clearly as them. I'm always unable to make such rational decisions and i always regret my decisions. It's always the other way round, me getting advices from them.Then again, the toh's family's emigration's almost done too. I WANT TO CRY. What really makes me happy is that, eben can go look for his _____ when he reaches sydney, ok drama shit. And 5 years down the road, i can fly my poooooooooooodle to him for groooooooooooooming... hahahahahaha. and the secret to why i don't wanna make such a grand affair for my 21st is because these favs of mine won't be there to see it happen.

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and my mom woke the whole fam up this morn, at 5.30am to accompany her to macritchie. And we were really mocking at her incompetence towards everything the whole time we're walking.
and i sawwwww rannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnyyyy, in the mid of the trail funny shit.
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ok mangomangomangomango and cookbooks later.
thank god i still have jasmine qiu here. I think we can move in together.
HAHAHA.

Term 2 starts on 22 September.
^^

Is it because of the holidays?
That kids are everywhere.
Parents should try to keep them home in this warm weather.
Most importantly, keep them from being a nuisance.

And the pufferfish syndrome's back, i've been feeling damn bloated since monday, yeah 4 days.
argghhhh.

No amount of water helps in hydration in this kind of weather. And starting to save the environment now definitely doesn't help. I think it'll kill oneself faster.

Lol the boy's mom was damn funny. She was telling me,
"Use SPF160 next time you go swimming. You'll get skin cancer."
Well, she doesn't know my intentions yet.

Anyways, those people are coming to repair some metre box thing tomorrow, and guess what? Electricity's gonna get cut off for longer than working hours. I'll have to seek refuge at my darling's house then. grins**

top two bane of my life, no electricity and cats.

and i was warned against being indirect tomorrow. So, i'll have to speak up and be really direct to get what i want. blerhhhh. my forte.

love pumpkins totally.
and fellow pumpkin head.

For the first time in our lives, we swam till we saw stars, and till we couldn't walk. I'm pretty sure, things will be the complete opposite if we had decided to go tomorrow morning instead. You know, sometimes, it's the people that you SEE that makes the difference.




Last night was awesome, omega awesome.

On top of all the madness,
It's not coincidence i promise.
This is called fate.
Or is it the usual thoughts of mine that comes true once in a while?

Loved the music.
Loved the lights.
Loved the loved ones.

Again and again and again.
Can we turn back time please?
But there's really no one as perfect.
And someone who fits just so nicely.

I think i'm suffering from insomnia.
After meeting the usuals for supper last night, i couldn't go to sleep until 5am.
And waking up this morning at 8.30 is totally abnormal.
So i went...
swimming, came back to cook lunch, packed my room, cleaned the house
yet, i'm still not tired.
AT ALL.
howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww :(


and my bro thinks that i cook better than my mom, i'm going to make her jealous when she comes back in the evening.

evil grins***

I reaaaaaaaally love ebenzertoh sooooo much you know! he's damn addictive hahahaa









fel says:
HIS SMILE

fel says:
REALLY LIKE JIHOO SMILE LUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I want to cry. verysaduhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I wanna paint my nails sky blue pink and pale orange.
intrigued by someone.
Pretty know.

Got my haircut.
And spent almost half of my pay.
Ended up with blisters on my toes.

At this rate i'm going, i'll have to rob a bank soon.



Xuan's party on sat was good.
It was more like meeting up with people i've not met for ages.
and seeing a lot of familiar faces.
Loved the company and laughters.
And the food was.... surprisingly VERY NICE HAHAHAA.
I've really not been a fan of vegetarian food, but thumbs up this time round!



anyway, i thought i saw someone on the bus, from this busstop.
you know same watch, same hair same face same stares.
Though, it's not very justifiable for that person to be on the bus.
So maybe illusion illusion uh illusion i have to be make myself believe that it's only illusion.

Ok this coming week's gonna be pretty exciting!
And next week too I THINK.
And let me tell you, i thought that the most exciting over the past weekend was getting my powerful humongous hairdryer.
I'm totally in love with it already. HAHAHAHAHA.

Blender fruits and lemons ready. We're in for a healthy life :) and, maybe a bit of cheese cakes too.



This marks the start of the holidays before the worries come back to me in september.
I've decided to spend 3 hours stoning everyday hahahahaha.
Hello i went swimming today and it felt awesome moving in the waters, feels like i'm gliding totally gahhhhhhh i can just swim and do nothing else :)

And i really enjoy talking to my mom. Although for the past two weeks i've been the rudest person on the planet, she can totally understand it and put up with my nonsense. For that, i'm secretly feeling guilty because i always throw my temper to everyone in the house when i'm having exams. Now, i can sense that they're happier than i am, because i've finished the papers.
HAPPIER THAN I AM. Coming back to what i want to say, sometimes mommy and i engage in such nonsensical talks and the things she says are so senseless i feel like I AM HER MOTHER INSTEAD. But then again, there's no one else in the world that i can trust as much as her and eben, because people never fail to fail me, and i, never fail to fail people too, i reckon.


Time for videos and play!

the eyes the eyes the eyes.
THOSE EYES!!!
and which dentist does he go to?

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Is it true that a person can't live without coffee as he or she grows older.
I think so.

I met kazzzzz today too.
Ash's afriad of grooming.
I guess it's because the person aint goodlooking.
Who wants someone who looks like a different breed of dog to groom yourself?
That's why i say, let's go next door.
At least he looks more like a puppy.
And i saw my poooooooooodle again today.

I'll marry anyone who buys me one.
:)

Econs, gone.
For the first time in my entire life, i stoned like nobody's business.
Opened the paper, looked at every question, cannot answer any of them.
My international trade, no sight of it. My ppf, BECAME 4 PPFS, don't understand.
My slutsky and hicksian, asked me to talk about y. It has all along been x.
Macro, GONE.

So. I started crossing my legs on the chair. Playing with my ring. Reaching for my bottle. And scanning around. I PROMISE EVERYBODY WAS TEARING AT THEIR HAIR, EXCEPT THE GIRL BESIDE ME, WHO DIDN'T STOP WRITING SINCE SHE SAT DOWN.

A pass, will be lucky. A fail, is expected.
my money.... :(

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On a lighter note, after that depressing paper was towning with my qiu!
HAHAHAHA we got really really high gosh i love her lorrrr! she's like my family you know anot you know anot!!! and we totally communicate through shouting at each other!! =)

Ok i can feel the holidays coming soon. ONE MORE PAPER LET'S MUG. WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
anyway, i secretly think that cong is very pretty with her new hair. HAHAHAHA.
AURA YOU KNOW
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Ok now i can get some decent rest, for a while.
PhD in sleeping, i call it.


从前几天开始， 就有了种预感， 一种觉得躲也躲不开，再不想见到，也会没有办法的预感。
真的。。。还是那么的亮眼，还是那么的让我忐忑不安，就算故作若无其事，还是想多看几眼. 但却阻止了自己. 为什么每一次我说我喜欢一个人，总是无人愿意相信??
幸好的是，这一次见了，应该。。。会隔很久了吧?
最好一辈子都不要再见，就不会再有痛的感觉。
爱，是一种病。
之前是。
现在是。
将来也不会是例外的。

Today's Texts.

Eben:
1.02pm - " Are u studying??"
1.30pm - " I THINK YOU'RE SLEEPING, WAKE UP NOW."
2.20PM - " WAKE UP NOWWWWW."
2.45PM - PHONE RINGS**

Kazan:
6.30pm - " But i'm going for dinner with them now. U make your own coffee, study after that. "

Jacq:
6.40pm - " FOCUS MY DEAR. and ground yourself. We'll buy you cakes after our dinner."


I'm still waiting for my cakes.
:(((


STUDY LUHHH PZJ PLEASE PLEASE I BEG YOU.

I tell u, hongki's fav song is "don't love me".
That's my favourite favourite favourite song too.
I think i cried half the time i've listened to it.
it's just spine chilling.
and heart wrenching.

HEHEHEHEEE!!!

After a while you learn
The subtle difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
And company doesn’t always mean security.

And you begin to learn
That kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes ahead
With the grace of a woman
Not the grief of a child

And you learn
To build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow’s ground is
Too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way
Of falling down in mid flight

After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers

And you learn
That you really can endure
That you are really strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and you learn
With every goodbye you learn.





Two down. Three more to freedom.

Generally, i think that the first class is for all to get after looking at the soci paper. That applies only if, you've stu
died throughout the year and, you've got everything looked in that puny brain of yours. I promise, EVERY QUESTION I WISHED FOR CAME OUT. and EVERY QUESTION, I'VE SEEN IT AT LEAST TWICE BEFORE. the theories i all know, can be totally put to use. The only exception is, the words wouldn't flow. And i screwed my organisation essay- no time. I panicked so much i almost put my new self-invented theory to use. YOU KNOW HOW BAD IS IT WHEN YOU CAN'T DO A PAPER WHICH IS SO FREAKIN EASY.

Two - stats. I'll be the joke of the century if i freakin flunk this paper. I blanked out, again. Actually i was already being very nervous even before the paper started. I promise i only wish for 34/100 for this paper. PASS CAN ALREADY.

The best part about exams is, having your dad drive you to and fro. ( it's the expo hello.) And it totally dawned on me that all the first days of pri, sec, jc and even uni, my dad made it a point drive me to the gate. And for all the papers i've sat for all major exams, he's my chauffeur too. "He's at your beck and call." - as my mom said. It's really heartwarming you know, and it always makes me want to cry, especially for all the first days and first papers. So, i don't really care if your dad if freaking rich and drives a ferrari or what, i'm sure he can't do all the things mine have done for me :)

okayyy it's the first time i've really been this concerned about grades. First time ever, in my 19 years.

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Met a couple of people today, like thl on the train. Like kennnnnnnnnnn, who's forever that funny and cute. and.... actually no more. but that's enough! HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Right, not to mention, all the long convos over tha phone with kazzzz and fellowssss random msgs totally eased my exam stresss by a whole load.

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Yes, monster made my day.

Me: " Caterpillars grow into butterflies."
Her: " NO. BUTTERFLIES GROW FROM TREES!"

Promise! she's gna grow up to be a bimbo.

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gahhhh! i've been feeling like a fashion crime for the past few days.

langkawi, bali anyone? - sms me!!. I NEED COMPANY FOR THE TRIP.

DIEEEE!! :((((

Why am i so stupid why did i get the account number wrong why did i not get the order in??
I don't know man.

I don't even know what i'm doing anymore.

真的很辛苦。。。
过了那么久， 为什么还是会被影响?
不看不想不提不理，忍一忍就过去了。
对我而言不难，我也真的做到了， 但不开心的理由到底出在哪里?
真的，不看就不想就不提就不理。
但既然看到了，不由自主的就会想，既然有人提到，又怎么不去理?
早知道会那么惨，今天就不出现，在家里睡大觉会省下多少烦恼!


On a chirpier note,
meeting kazzzz and jacq for lunch was good hahahahaha we love coffee club.
I was really kidding about the last post, but actually i don't really care about a person's character that much. As long as he's presentable, i'm good. Yes superficial HAHAHA. ehhhhh but i really think he's so cute when he's having his meals. Who the hell holds the fork and spoon in that way??

I want to watch!
but i thought i saw some clips somewhere.

AQ came over to cafe and we're supposed to study. Just me actually, she has nothing to study, except oogling over almost everything in the mags and trying hard to read my notes, which she came up with multiple questions for me to answer.I think she's really very pretty you know? like very pretty pretty kind. Tell me about it. I couldn't stop staring at her!!

I'm terribly upset with my life now.
When was the last time i went out to play?
:(

I was right in not believing in you and believing in me.
I, proved myself right. And you, proved yourself wrong.
Well, nothing is ever easy. So don't make it sound like it is.

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Right now, i'm enjoying the peace where nobody's home in the afternoon.
To be able to do everything without obstruction.
And bloody exciting talks when the brother comes home in the evening.
On the other hand, i'm behaving like a housewife cuz i have to cook our meals.
and i made a dozen of egg tarts just now, so as to free myself from thinking about breakfast tmr.
But i have to clean up after that. :((( Though i rather opt for cooking because choosing the venues when eating out is the worst decision anyone has to make. Haiya i think i can't live without my mom.

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Oh i was having this convo with joe and god knows how we talked about chinese woman from china. and i insist that armpits are the ugliest thing on earth. I don't care if that person went for permanent hair removal or what, no matter what your gender is, no matter how goodlooking ( or flawless like ayu), even top models and top celebrities have ugly armpits. Armpits are ugly regardless of nationality, race, genders, wealth or looks.

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Gosh i was so depressed after getting my socio paper back. Not that badly done just that i didn't expect it to be the worst out of the papers i sat for. To think that i was still secretly mocking at the lecturers when they mentioned that students fear for this paper the most. Not quite, there's still econs, which'll kill me. And i realised, i STILL like econs lectures the most, for a different reason - it's the only lecture that i'll put my heart n soul into being attentive because i know absolutely nothing about it. Yet, it's still inevitable that i'll hope for time to pass by faster because i wanted to rush back home to sleep. Yes, RUSH.

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And what's with the weather i feel like i can literally melt away in the sun.
Although mr chauffeur came while i was waiting for transfer. But i noticed that the grass and trees look as if they're calling for help. I wanted to tell them that i needed help too.

Imagine that. You're walking on the street, then someone in front of you suddenly becomes shorter and shorter then becomes a puddle of water. and evaporates after a couple of hours.

Kind of scary. But i think it'll happen sooner or later.
Nothing's impossible anyway. LIFE IS FRAGILE.
HAHA.
crap.

lovelovelovelemonjuice.





Shopping online's like sweeping your credit cards without knowing how much you've actually spent. And when the email for top-ups arrive, it's like seeing the credit card bill sitting smugly in your mail box, asking you for payment. Then the next moment, you check your bank account balance and finds out that you're actually on the brink of bankruptcy. Deep shit.

but the joy that you experience when you wake up from your sleep and see the package lying on your dining table is beyond description. still... deep shit. That's the moment your mom starts interrogating you, and starts threatening not to pay your school fees cuz she thinks you're wealthy enough to settle it yourself.

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My parents are going away on monday and i can foresee myself ending up with instant noodles and bread, because i HATE spending money on food, i think it's a waste of money, but that doesn't mean i don't eat. It's just that I don't like paying for meals that are supposed to be paid for by my parents. I could have used those money to buy clothes. And having a brother whom you see for less than half an hour each day doesn't help much. In addition, nobody's going to be home to collect my package for me.

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I know i'm going to sound like some kid, but,
I was complaining to mommy about going to school TOO FREQUENTLY and how it totally bores me. and she just shot me a reply saying that i stayed in school until ten almost everyday when i was in jc, so what's the big deal.. That's different but she doesn't see that. I had motivation to go to school when i was in jc, but i NO LONGER have any of those now. Although i like going to school, but that applies when it's twice or thrice a week, when my weekends are not taken away from me. And the fact is, i DIDN'T STAY in school till ten. I was elsewhere.
I miss my jc life and the company, really.

---

On a lighter note, i'm meeting a very important person tomorrow after the lecture. I guess that cheers everything up.

Oyasumi!

OLD LAZY ASHHH!

OH it was grad day in school today.... and i think they looked gorgeous.
I want to work in a fashion magazine firm.
It's not empty talk.

ok i can see my weekends disappearing into thin air.
muchmuchmuchdreaded.

and who wants to watch 17 again with me??
please leave a message.
:(((((

You know. I only need like fifteen minutes to get myself tannned.
And after the swim this afternoon. I'm like 2 tones darker. Shocking alright.

Caught a horror flick this afternoon. No after effects like the past ones. Bad movie.

Oh my tutee was being all cute about the whole 60 earth hour thing. Is that even the right name they call it? HAHAHA. He was warning me about not going out, and was really worried that i'll trip and fall when the lights are all out. He made it sound so serious it got me so puzzled. Thing is, i didn't know about this whole "save the earth" thing until he told me about it. HAHAHA. I so wanted to tell him that it's kind of redundant. Not that switching off an hour of light will save the polar bears, or penguins. Well maybe if it's a daily thing. I've never been in the environmentalist league. So, i didn't take part.

Anyway, Russians are such pretty people.
Don't you agree?

At the moment, life's a total bitch.
Good things don't come easily, worse still, they don't last.
Looking at things from a new perspective would be good, but how many can actually do that?
You look at people and wonder how their opportunities come so easily, then you wonder where's yours.
People tell you that with patience comes better chances. You think that it's all bullshit but you've got no choice but to believe in it. You fool yourself. Opportunities are to be searched for, they're for working towards.. And that's what i've been racking my brains over the past few days.
It's just determining where to start.

There's this side of me who's a perfectionist.
Everything to be what i want. Everything to be what i dream of. Everything to be competitive enough. Probably, that's the reason why i'm nowhere near to where i aspire to be yet. Ten steps before reaching my goal, i'll push it a hundred steps further away. It's a very tiring way of living. And i hate myself for it. I don't settle for simplicity. I want things beyond my reach. I am always not contented. Once i get to a better stage in life, I don't allow myself to fall back anymore. Even if i know what i'm standing on is a temporary platform, there's no reason to return to anything inferior. Everything can only get better.

It's this trait of mine, that my parents can't really comprehend. It's so visibly clear, the way i handle my life, the way i handle things. I find myself wanting so much in life, things i don't need, people i don't need. It's similar to a city dweller, who is so determined in leading his life in the countryside, and upon moving down, he realised that he's so accustomed to the fast-paced lifestyle in the city, he can't stand the slow paced patterns of life in the countryside, no matter how beautiful is the scenery, no matter how peaceful and calm the place can get, it's just not him. Sometimes i spend so much time getting to what i've always wanted, yet i don't sense any satisfaction when i finally get it. Then i move on to wanting something more. and more and more and more. Many a times, it's almost immediate.

But at the end of the day, i always feel grateful for having such a lovely family, such caring parents that go all the way out in satisfying their children. Sometimes, i know that i'm being very wilful, i do things on purpose knowing that they'll dislike it so much. And sometimes it's the things that i do, that leads to so much unrest i hate staying at home. Yet, when i run into problems, it's always my mom who is on number 1 speed dial. And it's always dad who gives the most support, who knows how to make me so touched i can't stop myself from crying. It's times like that i always understand why some people can be so family oriented.

All in all, it's me, who's making life so difficult for myself.

On a sidenote, Fukui Mai's debut album's really good. Go, listen. ;)
And KAT-TUN's releasing albums and going on concert tours faster than i can catch up :(






I was browsing through fav girl siew's grad photos just now. Awwwwe. She's so pretty you know, someone with the loveliest character i've ever met. It's really a blessing for her parents to have her in the family.

Accompanied gran to TTSH today. Yay no more further appointments and no more wafarin. HAHAHA you people should have saw her face when the doctor told her that she can start drinking wine again. So cute!!

I was at the bustop after dinner with jy when i saw these two girls bickering. It's those kind of small fights you get into with your siblings when you guys get so heated up just because one shouted at another or spoke in such a rude tone. Impatience i guess. That happens so frequently to my bro and i too, almost everyday. BUT. Is there a need to get into a conflict with your friend just because of that? Without tolerance, there's no trust. Is there a need to screw up a friendship that people have painstakingly took so much effort and time to build up? Maybe in the two girls' case, they ain't friends for so long yet. They look like fourteen fifteen to me, awkward aged teens. I mean... friends are friends. They're not your boyfriend girlfriend, nor are they your family members. Friendships, i think, are the most fragile amongst all kinds of relationships. Lovers get into big big big big big fights and patch up rightaway, because they love each other. Not that friends don't love each other, but it's a totally different kind of love from those you that you share with your family or partner. Friends, are those that, once you get into a veryveryvery minor fight, even if you shake hands and become best friends again the next minute, that fight'll be deeply etched in your memory. It'll be there forever, and that, may spark off bigger fights in future. Forgiven but not forgotten. There'll be some degree of awkwardness no matter what. That's why i say, staying silent in any occasion is always the best way out. Let the other party say whatever they want in whatever tone they possess, do whatever they want, and show whatever faces they can show. By staying silent, your words won't spark off a conflict. People are friends because they enjoy each other's company, and there's no point ruining a friendship because of anybody's bad mood. But then again, the girl might have some right to be angry, sometimes, limits are exceeded. At the end of the day, everyone has no right to be angsty at anyone except himself. Even to your family or loved one, angsty behaviours turn everyone off, and there's always some limit for tolerating bad tempers. There'll surely be someone somewhere who thinks that " hey, that's being so fake. You don't show what you're feeling and you hide everything inside." Call me a hypocrite or call me fake. That's how i deal with things. I don't think there's any point in letting a moment of anger create some kind of imperfection in any friendships. You'll never know when you need them. Hahaha i sound like some selfish person who cares only about self interest. who doesn't? It's totally nonsense if someone says that they love their friend more than they love themselves. This kind of people, and those who think that emotions must be showed and understood by people at all costs are such straightforward beings that i'll never be able to understand. We won't be able to clique at all and they'll hate me if we're ever friends. That's what i've came to realise after trying so hard to make out what the two secondary girls were bickering about. And one more thing, this is always the issue between girls. Boys do have much simpler and less complicated friendships. Maybe it's the emotional thing that girls possess and boys don't. That's why! I want to be a male. and lead a simpler life. not that my life's too complicated to handle at the moment, AHAH.

Right, i must be wrong at a point or two.

NICE SONG PLS CLICK

Wahahahah ehhhh i'm so happy today. anyway, i've eaten like 6 meals today. damn hungry. Die.

So much has been happening the past few days i don't know what is what anymore. I do have a lot to write, but nothing's coming to my mind right now, or rather i can't put it into words. Everything's not i want actually. Let's play the waiting game.

School was horrible today, HORRIBLE seven hours, though i kinda like that greek lecturer. My saturday's gone like that. Though the family dinner was satisfying. and i'll be going for icceeee cream in a while. <3

and karma keeps coming back to me.

looks like everyone's so against me being a MAN. well, i don't really care. I think being a man is damnnnnnn cool okayyy. I'll be a better and more intelligent guy then all of you out there HAHAHA. but the postman came today, (ohFINALLY) and i have pretttttaayyyy clothes i'll postpone that thought for a lil while. ;D

TODAY WAS SO LOVELY.

early in the morn i met kazzzz for breakfast n coffeeeee after what seemed like one zillion years omg i xoxo him forever promise he's damn funny. and i freakin spat my cheesecake onto the floor, was totally embarassed. maybe someone should take a picture of it. we had soooo much to catch up i REFUSED TO leave even though he was late for his appt i love talking to him so much like sososososososososososo much.
then dearest cone called to tell me her good news. clever girl seriously i think i'll take one hundred attempts to pass the test!! hahahahah great. now i have another person to drive me around!! then aft hoursss of assignment was dinnerr (okayy supper) with eben, joe and anqi. full of nonsense as usual. i can't be bothered with them. it was just crazy! :)))))

YAY - 3 days of freedom was the pact with myself. Now, it's been five days i've been having so much fun and i reckon i won't do anything constructive tomorrow. That makes Six.

great. study pzj PLEASEEEE STUDY.

tired. goodnight.

I love vivi like i reallllllyyyyyy love vivi.
AND i have black hair now. ok not fully black. Yay-nesssssss.

The weekend was much love. so many people i think i love crowdddds and i met so many people and i saw my PA colleagues gossssshhhhh reminiscing okayyyyyy. I'm going for dinner, i love foodddd like omg i love foooooood.

mad.



hahaha. i was reading through the earliest entries ever. and i came across this one where jas n i had gone to kfc and couldn't stop lamenting about how bad their cheese fries were. well, there were quite a few entries about cheese fries i realised. and talking so much about hayato. That's like four years ago. HAHA.

hello i'm so happy now. a moment ago, i was damn traumatised with not studying.
i xoxo her forever i promise. whoa can't waittttt.


i can't wait for stupid prelims to enddddd. IT'S TAKING FOREVER.
greatgreat bigbigbigbig plans. not enoughhhhhhhhh.


DATE ME PLEASE PEOPLE.

I LOVE EVERYBODY.

So we started talking. Didn't last even five days. - my dad and i.
I don't like it when people tell me that " no matter what, you should not be rude to your parents.
You should not, throw your temper at them. "
Why not tell me that THEY should not throw their tempers at you. No this is not about being fillial or not. This is not how it should be, especially when it comes to a point where parents can be pretty unreasonable. This stubborn trait definitely runs in the family.
I hate explaining my actions. Not that it concerns anybody.

anyway, time to tighten my purse strings a little. excessive online shopping's making my money run dry. more assignments might be good.
and if you think that getting married to someone of well-mannered culture (like a jap), will make a person more civilised, you're wrong. Ok i'm wrong, i've always carried this thought with me. Until i saw how mr-ec-wannabe's mom ranted at her husband over the phone, right in front of a stranger's face like mine, i got absolutely turned off. not that she looked particularly friendly the first time i saw her, but i didn't expect this either. ( her husband only asked her to search for a contact- maybe it's menopause.)



i don't even give it a damn.
why should i put up with you?
i don't feel like talking to you for TEN DAYS.

now i think i sound like a bimbo.
i should start being more intelligent.

late night supper with kazzz was good, at least i had a little leisure amidst of everything. and i'm very upset with myself for not being able to wake up this morning.

Actually, my stress management skills' like 2 out of 10. I HATE TO TALK when i'm feeling tense, and people tend to get on my nerves easily.( actually i'll feel like the whole world's irritating.) So, if you realise i'm not exactly speaking much, don't talk to me, it'll kind of get on my nerves. I know i'm difficult. HAHA

but, am surprisingly in a good mood today heh.
and leehongki's soulful voice's absolute love.



Cancelled all plans tomorrow.... i'm going to the library.
I'm stressed.

it's good to wake up when you're the only one with lights turned on in your room,then going back to sleep when everyone's busy having breakfast. less distractions.
studying sessions with a couple of people the past two days have been rather futile, but better than before. well it's better than staying home where everyone's been very angsty recently and all we do is screaming at each other and slamming doors.
April's timetable denotes boredom. there'll be so much changes to make to my own plans unfortunately.

anw, i was giving tuition to monster yesterday, and she was asked to match the sentences to one another. I guess it wasn't mean to laugh out loud into her face. look at her answers:

" we've just got married." - " oh it must have been awful for you!"
"My pet frog died yesterday." - " congratulations!"


the 17th :)
today's a blast until bidding decides to be a bitch. great now. the most impt rev class clashes with my nsc appt.. okay, it's my fault too.


on a chirpier note, YAYYYY NO MORE HAY-LIKE HAIR!
snipped 'em off, it's at my shoulders now.


well.... it was impromptu, i've already decided to head home to read my notes, when calls came one after another and texts came one after another, now i have a relatively packed schedule which sent me smiling on the bus! when man called and i was told that i HAD TO get a haircut today, i was totally screaming over the phone, it was so exciting you know! my point is. WE, did my hair, did our nails, caught our movie all in half a day, and another date's coming up SOON!!
whoa!!! stress management!


AND. i realised i've been catching movies associated with marriage recently.
eaten FAR TOO MUCH today, still munching now, and thinking about popcorns make me laugh. and i'm actually spamming on the keys now i'm going into hysterical fits talking to people now. what's wrong with all the people today, HAHA. and favgirl is damn funny!


Siew says:
beijing is asking me for panadol.
phoon says:
maybe beijing can't take the heat.
bj is some guest from bj for info.

You're in top form, romantically, emotionally, spiritually and physically on the 17th. Whether you just met someone new or just got dumped, you still feel an overwhelming sense of happiness. Sometimes circumstances just don't have the power to interfere with your awesome moods! - proved itself right yet again.

AYE VERYVERYVERYVERY HAPPY. today's love.

omg im so tired. goodnight.

---
when my mind got so crammed up last night,
i realised that the last thing i should have done was to have anything associated with you.
i don't remember feeling anymore suffocated than this.
I'm happy with my life now, and i've decided that it can only get better.
so, bye.

AND eben finally had time for me today, over dinner.
it always feels right holding conversations with him.
ALWAYS.

---

my hair's like a stack of hay.
which even the horses might despise!

Get to the bottom of your recent bout of depression or just ennui -- this time, there's more to it than you had thought. Once you've narrowed it down, things should start to improve markedly.

Can it get worse? Sure -- it can and it will. And when it does, find a safe space and settle your mind. Remember: all this stuff is temporary -- nothing in life is static. When the shaking finally stops, you'll find yourself standing on truly solid ground.

damn. it's spot-on!

anyway, those driving, please drive with care. my life depends on YOUsss!
<3

well... it wasn't supposed to be like that!!

"like... it's not reality. it's gone all too soon"
"exactly."

anyway, vday was good hanging out yet avoiding the crowds.
oh! we almost got into an accident though - thrilling.
and i almost fainted this morning, you should have seen the shock on my bro's face haha!
totally can't wait for wed to come, i'm sick of reading and i don't feel like schooling.
now, back to those nasty notes and making myself feel totally jacked and stupid.


kazz!!! lurbschoo alright!

today's just not my day.
thanks to arrogant and excessively egoistic individuals popping out from almost everywhere,
plus all this bidding crap is aggravating my anger- total waste of time.

on a sidenote,
i THOUGHT, i saw a familiar face this morning.

today,
the fact that i dragged myself to school after having so much fun n laughter the previous night, with an ulterior motive of seeing that someone-in-peach-with-stressedinducedskincondition.

and eagerly trying to prove my dear lecturer right by heading downtown when he had just commented that i've got an orchard-road-face yesterday.
then further justifying his point that students nowadays only care about socialising by meeting my friends for dinner.
as you see, i'm not exactly pleased with this lecturer of mine.

i'm so tired i can hardly move right now.

at the same time, feeling a tinge of guilt that i'm still enjoying life as it is when prelims' barely two weeks away.

I need a haircut. and i mean, really CUT. It's definitely part of stress management programme i'm planning for myself.

Was out with man n cone ytd for"wedding game". I say! Fann wong is reallllyyyyy gorgeous, no objection is allowed though i know some of you think she's a monster, but No! can you find someone as pretty as her in sg media? NO. do you think anyone in sg media can pull over everything as nicely as she does? NO. NONONO. she's pretttyyyy luhhhh. We then went for a lil shopping and visiting my stylist's new work place very briefly. talking about that makes me depressed. oh someone bought an airticket and say that she doesnt wanna fly anymore! rollseyes**

anyway, i met joe and jacq for breakfast this morn, attempting to study at the same time but guess what, i was tricked into convincing myself that yes, i'm very superficial, and yes, i'm a hypocrite to a very large extent. (just because i was telling them i read this particular article and went HAHAHA, waiting for a show to begin in reality) Like who's not. Yes i am superficial. Yes i am a hypocrite to a veryveryvery large extent. but you still love me right! so that's not an issue. but, it was as usual nice company, like who sends me HAHAHA like they do! - esp joe tan!
RIGHT, i need to start trusting people i seriously have trust issues with some of them.

alright. school and kazzzzz's house party tmr!

this is a torture. it's all in chinese and i really don't like to read chinese words. YOU who tagged me, i'll get you for it! HAHA.


幸福套餐 NO。1♥
01 你的绰号 : phoon?
02 年龄 : 19
03 生日 : 171289
04 星座 : Sagittarius
05 兴趣 :头发!
06 专长 : Sleep

幸福套餐 NO。2♥
01 你有没有喜欢的人? : DD!!!
02 是否在交往? : no.
03 现在幸福吗? :yes
04 如果上天给你勇气，最想做什么事? : KILL ALL THE CATS.
05 如果有天，你爱的人跟你告白的话? : 我们结婚吧!!!!

幸福套餐 NO。3♥
01 点你的人是: THL
02 他是你的 : oldoldoldfriend.
03 他的个性? : uhm.
04 认识他多久? : 7yrs
05 你觉得他怎样? : greatbitchingpartner.
06 你想对他说什么 : I DON'T LIKE THIS THING!

幸福套餐 NO。4♥
01 最爱的节目 :antm
02 最爱的音乐 : rock ballads.
03 最爱的季节 : autum
04 最爱的卡通 : none.
05 最爱的人 : mommy. (anddd!)
07 最爱的国家 : jpn
08最爱的天气 : 刮大风!

幸福套餐 NO。5♥
01 如果上天给你三个愿望:
第一个愿望： to be rich.
第二个奢望： to be rich.
第三个梦想： to be rich.
02 你是很专一的人吗 : i suppose....?
03 最深刻的回忆? : ahhhh...
04 你是个很有信心的人吗? : NO!
05 你很爱微笑吗 : 看情形。
06 如果你要放弃你现在的生活，你愿意吗 : i don't mind if you give me dd AND monehh!
07 妄想什么样的生活 : 所有人都羡慕嫉妒的生活!
08 是否横刀夺爱才是爱 :如果是喜欢的， 就要赢。

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cone? man? jas? AIYA. 随便 luhhhh.



and moths crawl like snails. they don't really fly i realised.

Someone's gonna leave for aussie soon as long as everything gets settled. ( iseriouslythinkhe'sgonnatakemonthstodoit.) I saw that coming actually and i truely feel excited for him. At the same time, i'm rather upset about it. No more swimming sessions, no more coffee dates, no more gossips, no more chauffeur. and i'm not joking about the last one.
But as i said, still a few months to go.

I've been irrationally happy these few days so i'm not too bothered by this issue YET.
then when you're feeling really chatty, sometimes you get damn turned off talking to some rude people who don't even know how to entertain you superficially or feign some hyprocrisy(it's a must isnt it?) it's better to stay silent and indulge in your own little world of happiness.

i've lost track of the moth!

Seems like i'll never be able to sleep on monday nights.
this time round, was cuz of bday boy joe!
had dinner at dempsey with the rest before going for some drinks, i swear, really nice fooooooooooodddddd and lovable pals to top it all off.
tuesdays lectures are never unbearable.
they've been pretty bad recently due to serious stoning or tough attempts to stay awake.I've not really gotten used to jacking myself like nnlee said, so i was so embarassed during lecture today i wanted to vanish right away.

Never believe me when i criticise my dd. It's just bad hair days and pre-exams stress i guess. I get those rather often too. Lurbbbbsssss dd ok! HAHA.

oh am i supposed to be so high spirited?
DEFINITELY.









It's twenty odd days to prelims. I've got a choice, to take it or not. It's better to go for the paper, flunk it, and then start to panic, finally studying. That's what i'll land myself in. Am in deep shit.

I've been having plenty of fun these few days by the way.Weekend was awesome i met my PSFDs before heading to partaaaaaay and had the worst drink in the universe. now my friends know my friends. wait till i get the photos i'll show you how exciting it actually got.
Then usual visiting and gambling. and talking about that, the best thing about this cny was pzj going on a lucky streak. and today was school, lunched, and here i am at kazaaaaannnn's!
getting all ready before driving to the perfect restaurant to meet the bday boy and the others.

so soon tuesday's coming!

i hope these all get better and never ends.

" It was just for show. And you knew it won't last." -kazan

true.
true.
true.

happy new year :)

mine hasnt been good. i feel like draining all my blood out and replacing it with new blood.

met up with favgirl soonsiewhui. drove from school to the usual place, had our avocados, passed the usual streets and good shopping! i missed her so much and it feels good as ALWAYS talking to her. ( and now i know our stylist's add alr! - yeah 15scotts rd - TOWN) the best part was urging each other to spend like we're millionaires, even after divulging to each other how pathetic the figures in our bank accounts seemed. and i have this urge to go spending tomorrow before the family dinner!

the mindset now is.
SPEND ALREADY THEN SAY.

the germs are trying hard to make a comeback and i've got all weapons ready to combat them!

i am sticking to my resolution.
sometimes isolation is good to a certain extent.
it keeps one free from complicated matters.

great day ahead tomorrow!

PS: scroll down! it's awwwwwwwwwwwwwww <3












Good morning everybody!
Wahahahaha.

you know.... i caught my stylist on teeeeveeee last night and got really excited that he's left that ridiculous salon, moved on to a better one. gosh i love him promise but there's a problem, i don't know the new address! and i want to say! the past week have been packed with all-time-love shopping trips with man and tonight's yet another round with my qiu! spending's addictive i seriously need to control myself a bit. i'm going to be in debt soon. Drove to holland v for coffee this morn with kazzzz finally i miss his nonsense yay i'm gna be a happy girl today.

Am looking forward to cny quite abit and being excited about the week after cny where big plans are lined-up and when my online goodies are gonna all arrive so we can have a fashion party!

I'M STICKING TO MY PHONE TODAY! FAVGIRL'S GONNA BE BACK!



insomnia. monday nights insomnia's back.
it feels really bad to attend classes without sleeping at all the previous night.
no energy to even go high spirited about the things i should be excited about.
no amazement nor amusement.
no fascination nor adoration.

weird skin condition cleared up.
FOR NOW. (hopefully it wont come back!)
i've got no idea what happened to me, with patches of hives on every inch of my skin
and i have absolutely no idea why they're gone now.
so i'm fine FOR NOW, for all those who've been worrying about me! :))
i'm rather superstitious abt this so let's not talk about it alr.

Lecture today was more of a stoning session for me, my pals had to constantly remind me to note down whatever i had too. tell me about it. how exciting can sunday lectures be? especially when it's so crowded you feel like you're lacking from oxygen. no food. and... weird people all around you but your eyecandy is nowhere in sight.

alright, i'm totally anticipating this coming week. like...
HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN WAITING FOR IT?!!!
(veryveryveryveryveryverylong)

but at this moment, my eyes are battling to shut.

omg listen!!!!

and it's so bad i decided to give school a miss.

=((((

it's really not the time to be optimistic.

but i guess successful retail therapy helps a whole damn lot.
and reminiscing cafe sessions.

and a 30yr old beauty beyond description.



1. I played my own drama today. Didn't stop crying from the moment i woke up. close to wailing to be exact. it's damn exaggerating i know. my mom was so shocked when she saw me crying like someone've died she almost pulled me to A&E. it's so ugly ohmygod. and i tried to avoid the mirror today, it seemed like natural reflex that my tears will fall. my eyes are the size pufferfishes now. how am i going to school. but i want to go. Ok i'm just mad. and eben thinks that i'm just plain dramatic. damn it. useless doctors

2. I'm so excited about yet another schoolbag. it's so pretty i don't care if i'm going to spend yet another bomb on yet another bag.

3. No clothes for cny YET. depressing.

4. Not studying enough.

5. A little too obsessed.




Addictive
it's sending me page after page.
How long has it been that i've found a book that makes me smile at every other word, and imagine the whole scene playing.




do you know that,
i've had enough of those stupid rashes. since doctors med n jabs aint helping, i've came up with the ultimate alternative of drinking bittergourd juice.like my life's not bitter enough.

the past 48 hours has been really bad because of insomnia and i was so physically n mentally tired yesterday evening i could feel my face looking really f-ed up and i guess i was rolling eyes and making faces at everything and everybody i came across. i literally wanted to bomb everybody around me.
and i was really surprised at how upset i got.

on the other hand, it must have been karma that i missed seeing the highly anticipated haircut yesterday, just that i can't remember what bad things i've done. the thing is, sometimes my gut feeling is so strong that i can actually feel and anticipate what's gonna happen, good or bad. that's probably the reason why fate abandoned me ytd, i more or less guessed it.MAYBE i've got psychic powers or something. (if guessing the right colors every week counts too ;))

oh i started on the legendary book everyone's reading and know i can't stop too! yeah it's something like that...

then again, life's so simple just one message's enough to make one's day.
only she's worth it.



Instead of sticking my notes. I went out with mom n her sisters.
Now, i have....
new shoes new tops new undies for school.
Ignore the last item.
I can't remember what i bought actually.
I need cny clothes.

I never keep promises i realised.
Even to myself, i've only fufiled one or two.
Very bad. Uhn. It's time to start learning how to.

I finally thought of a new year resolution!

kaz: " so what's your ny resolution?"
jun: " to be indifferent to everything and everybody."
joe: " that's just acting cool!"

fuckyoujoe!

anyway. Being indifferent is a good thing isnt it.? You act as if you don't care about and don't know anything. and keep all the comments to yourself. In this way, i can assure myself that 2009 will be peaceful and free of troubles. so YAY. i finally have a new year resloution.

Getting ready and looking so forward to school!
Ultimate yay-nessssssss!
Hydration mask here i come!!!!

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Dinner at uncle jackson's last night, felt like a family gathering.
<3







Anqi n i were standing outside his gate for so long that his dog got tired of barking. The parents are on holiday, maids back to their countries and yet he refuses to answer our calls. So, we were practically left waiting for an hour. Kazzzz's the worst friend in the universe. And both of us forgot the swimsuits, the whole trip was wasted. What's worse was, change of plan to brunch and movies. And food again then coffee then back to kazzz's. HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW?!!!!!
and because it had to rain, we're now stuck here cannot run cannot cycle cannot swim, can only bitch.I swear we've bitched about the whole planet karma's gonna hit back at us soon. That probably explains why the damned rashes refuses to go away! bimbo's comments were oh-so-vicious.
Looking through pictures of people when kazzzz said that he knows dd lookalike !! As if i don't know dd lookalike, i'd be extremely gratified if he says he knows dd instead.

it's so cool to blog using a phone!

A friend is acting more thrifty and conservative than usual, and it's a trend you should follow! Take extra care to save more of your money and use your credit cards less. Instead of going on that shopping trip with a friend, why not stay in and bake cookies together instead? There are some unexpected tolls coming up on your road of life, and you'll need to be able to pay them painlessly. Everyone you know is in the same boat, so it should be easy to save without hurting your social life.

I said it's spot-on right!

The trip was awesome i swear. Now i'm stocked up with pretttaaaaaayyyy clothes for school, given how empty my wardrobe is after i cleared out half of it. i think... i've developed an allergy for chocolates?!! i was experimenting about my rashes and i realised they disappear if i don't touch chocolates?!! how sad. so much for eating almost every hour and having ice-cream like i've never tasted them in my life, i hereby declare that i'm in need of my swimming partner and she might be in need of me too, when she's back. ( oh i secretly missed jas and nn alotttt!!!) and nnleeeeeee i had one thousand cups of starbucks yknw it's like so much nicer than having it here in sg!!! HEHHHHHHHEEEEE. and hello?! the movie tickets were freakin cheap over there i caught movies like every night. IP MAN. IP MAN. IP MAN. all of you, go watch it! although it's a freakin cheeeeeena show it's worth the money. i missed talking to ______ and texting ______ so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. =(

then comes christmas. wahahahaha. i recieved so many christmas cards and a bday card bimbo secretly sent from jpn!!! sneaky jia and fel's xmas card made me smile like madddddd hello. yes omg seriously i am going to marry my wonderboy!!! HAHAHAHA. and not to mention sosososososo many texts from the long-lost people they're sweet and gawwwwddddd i miss GE so much. and fav girl soonsiewhui's BACK. my soju's party coming coming coming!!! xmas eve spent with ebenzertoh n joeeeeee n bimbo they're the funniest shit on earthhhhh. and out of everything they had to catch this cannibal show which freakin made me puke my intestines out. then again, the best christmas present this year is none other than that 1887. i wanted to crush that envelope and swallow those pieces of paper the moment i opened that mail.i'm reallly reallllly broke... to the extent it's no use even if money rains on me now! it's so bad i think i'm going to go into depression soon. my economic crisis has nothing to do with the global recession. I HAVE NO MONEY TO BUY CLOTHES AND I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR MAYBE I SHOULD STOP FANTASIZING ABOUT SHOPPING.

and so much for talking to so many people over the phone yesterday, i had one million dreaaammms. i dreamt of wonderboy in specs and felix in blue lens wtf i know. i dreamt of man n i going to my stylist and man bleaching her hair white! i dreamt of cedry going blind and bimbo getting pregnant( it's what i read in the novel!). and god knows why i dreamt of little nonya.

this coming week is gonna be busy busy busy and busy i'm going to meet the loveliest people on earth and my soju partyyyy!!

everyone's talking about twilight and comparing the novel and movie. i came home last night and found my brother reading it i feel that it's really inappropriate. but my point is, since he has the book, it's equivalent to me having the book, and it's really nice since everyone aroused my curosity about how good twilight is, i can read it for myself now.

right now, it's time to sit down and think of newyear resolutions ( not that i have ever fufilled any of them) but i seriously think i need to accomplish something big in 2009, and i want 2009 to be really good, since 2008 is one of the worst ever. and hell yeah, i'm going back to reading the horoscopes. it's really important to emphasize on how accurate horoscopes really are they're hit-on. everything it says... ok maybe 90% of what it says. i was telling someone i forgot who, that it gives you hope and something to look forward to. i guess it's better than putting one's faith in religion. i've been dilligently reading it everyday!?!

i should. go back to my notes since i came to terms with myself that i don't know anything about econs after attempting to do my assignments last night. i should. start packing my room if not rats are gonna emerge from various corners of my room. i should. stop bitching about how broke i am and stay at home more so that i can save enough to last myself through jan2009. i should. stop bickering with my parents like i have pms thirty days in a month. i should. feel obliged to start incurring good karma all over again since things have been really bad ever since i started bitching about people on the 16th.

actually, i really think that i'm the only person on the planet who wants school to start soon.

almost 3am on a saturday morn and i can't sleep.

Mad rush,earlier. Rushing to school, tuition, meet my dearie, back home, packing, tv, packing, packing and more packing. I swear i'll burn 10000 calories a day if everyday's like that. actually i secretly love being super busy to keep myself sane. Now, at this unearthly hour, i'm gonna sort things out before meeting gorgeous tomorrow.

was talking to eben over the phone just now and hello i am so happy?!!! All uncertainties cleared, i hate this thing i'm feeling every alternate week. maybe i should stop being paranoid. afterall it's just reassurance ( or maybe lies) that i need.

It really doesn't matter what's in it.
It's so pretty!! you three really know me well.
and it made me realise what these seven years meant.

for the lovely dinner and surprises.
cheers to this friendship!!
i love my girls.
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wow.
this time round, it's been incredible, meeting so many people though not all.
with so much cake enough to last me till xmas.
(secretly wanted to have logcakesss for bday and it freakin came true!)
one of the busiest birthday ever...
it felt like, one day's not enough!
i'm so drained of energy!
AND FEELING SO LOVEDDD!

"It really seems like fate that today, today only that my pay-as-you-roam started working! Happy happy 19th to my favourite person in the whole world :) i love you."
-soonsiewhui-
this was the message from japan that made me smile so widely.
can't wait for my soju party once she's back!

not to forget...

three of them turned
ONE.

still fit n healthy.
and growing.
thankgod.

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a trip and two weeks of xmas break.
definitely looking forward to 6th jan.

I HATE 2008
I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE SERIOUS.
i can't wait for it to be over.
if there was anything good that happened this year,
it'd be favgirlsoonsiewhui and school.

I woke up too early to have breakfast with somebody at somebody's.we had OATS for breakfast. i feel like going back to sleep now.
topman's tank's cheap n comfortable. i've thus decided to get a few and wear them to sleep.
the coming days are gonna be hell busy meeting loveliest people on earth having good dinners and getting outta this place for crazy shopping. all the way to xmas comes ny and then cny, tell me 5 weeks will breeze through it's only the 4th day now.

IT'S GONNA BE 5 WEEKS. 5 WEEKS. 5 WEEKS. 4.5 TO GO.

i gotta sleep more.
so i'm going to sleep.

bullshit. i don't know what i'm typing.

It's like. Scrubbing off the red varnish from your toenails in the morning after a dance. Takes a long time and there is always a little bit left at the end to remind you of the good times you had.

TOO MUCH TV.
to the extent i reckon there's no way i can finish my good essay. and there's little nonya later!

I'M QUITE SURE YOU'LL KNOW WHAT TO DO. :)

THAT

• RALPH LAUREN POLO CANVAS TOTE.
• AGNES B WALLET. (or burberry might do too)
• BURBERRY WATCH.
• CHARLESNKEITH TEARDROP SHADES.
• GRAPHITE SLIM.
• MANGO CLUTCH

• PRETTYFLATS. (cheap nvm, must looks expensive)
• CANVAS SHOES/SNEAKERS. ( i like basic colors - everlast lacoste for reference.)
• TEES ( no cheap ten bucks kind pleeease)
• KOREAN OVERSIZED TOPS ( http://tw.user.bid.yahoo.com/tw/user/usexpresstw?u=usexpresstw - anth that resembles ALL these)
• JACKETS/CARDIS (WITH ATTITUDE)
• ZARA TOPSHOP.
• STURDY N COOL BAG FOR SCHOOL.
• DKNY/CALVIN KLEIN HANDBAG
• ALDO CLUTCH
• GREYSKIIIINNIES.
• SHORTS.
• SCARFS/SHAWLS.
• MIJ ACCESSORIES. ( girls'talk at central or that shop in parco-bugis might help! i have enough clips!)
• PENCIL CASE ( you know i don't like cartoons or fancy designs)
• PRETTY ORGANISERS (kino-mij, artbox-mik, muji)

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Dylon's partaayyy last night provided me with a great deal of laughter and madness.
FUN. especially with my pussies around. i love these girls so much imma gonna see them for dinner again tmr! very excited heh heh heh. it's a private cook-in yo!

anqi called to say that she dyed her hair red too!!!!

jackychan's son is kinda cute cuz he looks very stupid but is actually very intelligent. whoa so cute!
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i tried cooking green bean soup this afternoon but i screwed it up i'm so lousy so i decided to give up making my cheesecake. NO MOOD. but i swear i can make cheeeeeeeeeeeesecake alright someone out there tasted it before but i can't remember who! own up yes???


ok eggmask now!

I think that.... horoscopes are pretty much amazing.
it's almost hit-on 90% of the time. for me luh.
no wonder some people like jacq shapes her life upon it.

Reach down into your wallet on the 1st. Skip the bills and make for the pennies. Okay! Take on between your forefinger and thumb and -- pinch! That's right, pinch as hard as you can, until your fingers get a little bit sore! Okay, now, every time you feel that unconquerable urge to buy something really expensive that you don't need, pick up that penny and -- pinch! Think of it as a little pneumonic device to remind you to save money. On the 5th, if you're feeling drowsy, get some more sleep (sounds simple? It is!). By the 10th, you really, really want to go swimming. If you really want to go swimming, then go! Same goes for running, walking, snowboarding and cross-country skiing -- and any other exercise that strikes your fancy! The more active you are, the better you'll feel. On the 15th and 16th, take a trip. Whether you're traveling near or far, it will help you get into the holiday spirit. On the 22nd, pay attention to your dreams. Enjoy the day on the 25th-- it's a good one! By the 30th, you're ready to talk to anybody about anything. On the 31st, take some time to reflect on the year past, and then celebrate the one to come!

the bolded part, i actually laughed at it. hahaha i really want to go swimming. but i can't! HAHAHA.

many things are coming along the next few weeks. so much things to do and people to meet. so many things to buy and so many places to go.and before i know it, christmas will come knocking on my door. i'll be back on christmas eve and there's no news of a single partaaayyy as yet. actually i secretly miss kazzzz' xmas parties.and after xmas comes a new year. 2008 is a quick-passing one. it doesn't even feel like one year has passed. i met so many new people and an angel i guess that's enough. ok maybe not. it deserves to be a much more happening year i guess.

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was at the salon yesterday. i wish my stylist'll quit his job. so that i need not go back there. then i can see him in town at lower charges. favgirl soonsiewhui thinks the same way too. her freakin temp-tranny voice and anna sui cheeks cheered me up so much and of cuz the awesome jap did his part too. at different phases of my life, i realised that i relate to totally different people. the chemistry might be here one moment and the other moment, it's gone. who i used to talk to a few months back may not be the one i'll want to talk to now. the thing is, there're always these few i'll never fail to seek solace in. and that's a good thing. anyway, i can only see my siew after she comes back from travelling and after i come back from travelling. that'll be after christmas, for the soju party and stayover. we're such different people i wonder how we freakin' communicate but no, she's like the only sane soul around, and the second day into knowing her, it feels like we've known each other for life. that's something i could never do with people given that horrendous social skills of mine. it's the chemistry babe!

after that was meeting man jia fel junyi the first two was totally mad and red. crazy people are much love really.

met kazzzz for breakfast and avocado ice cream i swear i've been dreaming about it and drooling in my sleep. the best part is i had this urge of asking him to drop me in school i think i like going to school but i freakin feel like skipping lecture tmr. i hate friday lectures. H.A.T.E.
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anyway my brother's home like once in a million years i get to see him home in the day, but i hope he'll just go out. not like he's pissing me off or anything but it's kind of dodgy seeing him at home.

1. i feel so sorry for him it seems like he has nothing to do other than sleeping or gaming.
2. he doesn't eat?!!! and because of that, no one's buying lunch i had nothing to eat either.
3. it's probable that we'll get into a fight soon if he refuses to get dinner later.

yes, i don't like to buy my own food too.

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i still think that my hair is too long.



愿意合上眼才能美梦无边
别让悔熏乌了从前
也许碎片才能让回忆展颜
何妨瓷花拼凑明天

谁带我寻获幸福的模
却自己谜中困锁
谁为我留下缱绻的天涯
信物是抹晚霞

思念如燕它飞舞舌尖
若是真爱配尝几分苦甜
意念婆娑时间里推磨追
随到何处才结果

燕如针线在青空缝编
几幅女红将以泪缀点
誓言斑驳情雾只是经过
风雨中且让我盈步婀娜

beautiful, it's on repeat mode already.

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Communication isn't always about words.
Watch for meaning in what's unsaid.



Because they miss me so much, because they're so eager to see me, and because i can't take the irritation and persuading.
I'm going to meet beloved kazzzzz and anqi for coffee later!
never mind the insomnia i get every monday night.
They're the only ones who make coffee dates addicting.
and just being around them is enough. y'knw, just the presence is love.













Day spent with my favourite girl i swear she's a gem. Ken was around the area and off for coffee we went, they're sucha cute couple i promise. And since stylist hunting failed terribly and salons wasnt convincing, let's hope our stylist can be as gracious as he is towards Ken.

and soonsiewhui is a soju addict! we're gonna have soju on my tanjoubi and xmas! =))

So, we're taking the gamble, actually i'm damn scared?!!!! Ok i'm officially broke my bank account's anaemic and what am i doing now?!!! Like commiting suicide. but no one else's as convincing as my stylist, for now. Maybe i can ask the parents to sponsor me since my big day's coming. and i have one thousand things on my list i haven't got?!!! DIE.

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i had a dream last night :)
obsession. damn.






hello. I can't stop smiling i think i'm going mad.

This morning was crazy. With the excitement i was already suffering from internally, nnlee who went high over caffeine made it freakin' worse i wanted to die!!! -cant stop smiling nowwww wth**
after so many close shaves,ok. now i believe that... maybe we have fate!

The presence was overwhelming and i was so scared i didn't dare to look OMG I'M SCARED. esp of felix but then but then omggggg. and throughout that ten odd minutes there, i felt my stomach cringe so badly and i was blushing like mad, if my buddies realise, i was incoherent already. ok i bet they didn't realise, but omggggggggg i am so happy.

HAHHAHAHAHA ok imma gonna incur good karma from today onwards. I'm going to help the old man who had difficulty crossing the bridge with two packs of washing powder in his hands if i see him again. but then again, two packs of washing powder is going to last a long time, NO TIME ALREADY. so, if i see any old folks, who has difficulty crossing the bridge, i MIGHT help them. Seriously i should stop talking bad about people so you people don't induce me into commenting about strangers! and i'll try to be more tolerant with people around me.
i'm currently engaged in a cold war w the father. i insist that i have no attitude problem. OKAY MAYBE I DO!

I WANT TO SAY!
I totally deserved everything that happened today ok! you know, I had such a tough time keeping my comments to myself over the weekend i'm gonna train myself to be oblivious to my surroundings! yaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh can't wait for next week.

everything was going fine soooooo good today i was skipping to the pool when it decided to rain halfway through the swim. i wasn't pissed off, i was so calm ammmm so surprised myself. so i was practically skipping with a smile too, on my way back.

AND TMR'S WED I CAN MEET MY FAV GIRL.

U TELL ME WHAT IS THIS?!!!! OMGGGGGG I AM SOOOO HAIRRRPEEEEEE!!!

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and i'm really so glad my friends' been asking for what i want for my bday presss already. maybe i might shamelessly post my wishlist here someday soon! muahahahaha i'm so happy people are remembering my tanjoubi, although i act like i don't care, i guess i'll be secretly sad if no one remembers and worse no one offers to spend my bday with me!

ok that's a hint alright.

those who are broke, I SWEAR I DON'T NEED LAVISH PRESENTS. i just need a little luck with wonderboy and maybe you can help me by incurring good karma.

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ok the aunts and coussies are here im so gonna talk to them and get high!!!
YUCKS PZJ IS SOOOOO HIGH AND EXCITED NOW SHE THINKS SHE'S GONNA FAINT ANYTIME AND THIS MIGHT PROBABLY LAST FOR A WEEK?!!!

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FINALLY,

"KAT-TUN Queen of Pirates 2008 Tour DVD is now up for pre-order at CDJapan.Release date is on 01-01-2009. New Year's gift to yourself, anyone? ;) "

RAISES HANDS EXCITEDLY AND JUMPING MADLYYY****
such good news!!!!

olright,
GOODNIGHT EVERYBODY I LURRRRBBBBS MY WONDERBOY SO MUCH!!!

I say, i love this expression of akanishi jin. and it kills me whenever i see this expression on him when he's singing. and i say, kamenashi kazuya is very very gudluhking.

Prettayyyy babes finished their last paper today! HAHAHA somehow i feel veryyy happy too. mad. lunched at THE CAFE , came up and left.

can you feel the joy?
YES.

omgiwantchristmastocomequick.

Oh last night, i saw some random guy wearing this tee which says:
" I AM NOT A LOSER."
and my instant reaction was:
" LOSERRRRRR"

i even tried making a face! hahahaha very mean i know!!!
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pzj should start studying because she feels very depressed after getting back her essay she's not gg to get full marks and marry wonderboy if this continues!

HOWWWW.

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christmas shopping anyone???
IT'S NOT TOO EARLY.
NO TIME ALREADY KNOW!!!

Cafe Bistro.
Grand Copthorne Waterfront.
serves one of the best desserts.
and the best oysters maybe

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eben called when i was reaching home.
such a long and fufilling talk.
it's always so easy to pour everything out to him.
all the unhappiness and feelings i've felt.
it feels like i want to tell him only.

of cuz ppl like favgirl fellow and man, when i meet her.

They listen.
They feel happy when i am.

I miss my favgirl so much i really want to cry.
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" 哇!! 每次都差一点点!!"
"uhmm..."
"don't be sad luhhh. 还有时间!!"

he's that same old ebenzertoh!
我们真的是心有灵犀的!!!

FELIX, WILL YOU GET LOST?

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Do slippers shrink after scrubbing them with soap and softener?!
I THINK MINE DID.
i want the graphite one =(((

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was at my cousin's last night.
Her schnauzers are the cutest things alive i swear!
LIKE OMGGGG SO SOFT.
omggggg i want a stayover!!
now.
dogs or kids.

i choose dogs!
I WANT A POODLE.

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Is it indigestion or what i'm feeling so miserable it's as if something inside my tummy has filled itself all the way up to my throat.Damn totally feel like puking. And it only gets worse when i eat my meals. Look, i can't even sleep peacefully it's dammmmn miserable shit. i feel like digging the intestines out now.

And when i whined about going to the waters, guess what was the reply i got from my bestie?
" ya swim in the fridge ah?"
tsk.

This is gonna be the last exciting thursday with juicy reports from jas. An extra perk every thursday. It's my favourite dirty green today! actually dirty green aint some colour i'll adore. i'm amazed.

You give me that funny feeling in my tummy.

Imagine my reaction when i saw THAT top on wonderboy. Far beyond excitement.
Imagine my reaction when i saw wonderboy at the opposite escalator. Far beyond loud.
I even hung up on jas instantly.

nn: "你们有缘无份啦~!!"

Most certainly.
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Off to east coast with the usuals for dinnnnnnnnnnerrr last night.
I swear i'll freakin' become a road hazard if i start driving, the police will be busy handling accidents and searching for my lost car and i. I hate lousy joe. Anqi is the worst shit in the planet stop playing with your bellbar whatever that is there's blood hello, and she puked in kazzzz's car. in the bags of course. I was all red going mad when i came home eben had to drag me off kazz's and gg online on the phone i thought i ll die of excitement. I was still laughing(out loud) to myself when i forced myself to sleep in the wee hours of the morn.It didn't go away until this morning i was smiling all the way to the station all the way to school and during lectures i was trying to curb my laughter. (not smiles) what's more the fact that today's tuesday made everything thrilling. so exciting i was trembling while texting zyz!


ahhh whatever.
i am not very happy today.

probably the fact that i survived sucha long day with barely two hours of sleep i'm cranky alr.
I'd have die long ago if it wasn't for KEN SIM.

UOLFT/AA-AUDIT HQ03.30PM -06.30PM LT4.24
UOLFT/AA-PBF HQ 03.30PM -06.30PM LT4.02
UOLFT/AA-QF HQ 03.30PM -06.30PM LT4.12
UOLFT/DD-ESAP HQ 03.30PM -06.30PM LT4.14
UOLFT/DD-ME HQ 03.30PM -06.30PM LT4.04

So it's neither the gym, nor the guitars. What's with thursday afternoon then?

goodnight.

I love my fellow so much i'm gonna melt you hear me?!!!

Shin-g's celebration last night was so good i want more!
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小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药



I love breakfast i love laughing i love talking i love mui.
I love dresses i love bags i love braaaaaaas i love shopping i love mom.

I reckon that when my chauffer comes later,
I'll love drinking i'll love bitching i'll love nonsense i'll love my people!

I'm having sucha good time today no one's gonna ruin it!





Sent the brother to the airport yesterday morning. and i secretly thinks that one of his friends is cool.
Anyway, there's this love-hate relationship with e airport and goddddddddd, it brought back so much of memories i totally wanted to tear. now i know why man wanted to tear that day.

Look, today's the 7th. And it's exactly a year since i last saw mrlee. guess what was the last conversation about?
" OPEN-AIR-TICKET."
laughss**

Going crazy over my wonderful driver doesn't mean that i've forgotten mr lee.
Fact is, i miss leetaehoon so much.

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But currently, i think chanting my birthday wish 1 and a half months in advance is much more important and practical.
For me, thinking and chanting effing works. It was freakin proven to be true again last night. (gosh how plastic can one look)
Maybe i've got some secret talent or power in me.

one two three four more days.
Shit time passes damn slow.
And it's four more days to my yuhboh's bday!
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I saw cong at the bustop today!! nice hair colorrrrr!!! ohmygawdddd.
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it's time for me to start thinking what i want from my parents this year.
And time for YOU to start thinking what yall are going to get me this year.

jas, my wonderboy's number will be just nice. i don't need any expensive gifts.

<3

Maybe i should write down my thoughtlines now.
But i'm so excited i can't stop laughing?!
and talking to my favourite girl makes me even more excited.
she's so funny my fingers are numb from typing.
What's more with bloody stalker wannabe jasmineqiu telling me about my wonderboy!!

Just leave me alone to die of excitement ok.
Now, i totally can't wait for tuesday to come.
five days' too long.

meanwhile i'll be dilligent i want to score fullmarks for my test too. ooh wonderful driver!

Just enough to explain yesterday.

I HAVE A NEW BIRTHDAY WISH.

Sometimes. I should start believing what comes from me.
And you people, should stop underestimating the power of my words.

When I crossed my fingers and shouted out yesterday.I was trying to be funny.OK I CHANGED MY MIND.I WAS VERY SERIOUS.

Hey.... it was magic!
Ohgawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwd.It was totally the same scenerio when i wished for hoon to appear before me.I was so damn shock i couldn't think straight.Then again, who would have thought of that??!It was absolutely impossible! yucks. so nervous just thinking about it!!

I LOVE THAT SMILE.
between those dimples.

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You know.... whoever marries kazzzzz will be so blessed. We're having breakfast this morning when this kid came to our table, attempted to grab my frapp (iwassecretlymadddd), but had to pretend to be gracious. Then the next moment, this little thing pointed to the sweets sprawled across our table. Kazzzzzz actually.... kept all the sweets back into the bag and gave the whole bag to him. Imagine my reaction. and that kid actually kissed kazzzzzzzzzzzz!!!
Aweeeeee i'm a sucker for guys who love kids. Trust me when i say guys who love kids won't be of a bad character. i absolutely adore kazzzzzzzzzzz now. You should have seen the sparkle in his eyes when he talked to the kid! You're so cute!!! But next time, leave one sweet for me!

Eben loves kids too.
My brother loves kids too.
Lth loves kids too.
d loves kids too??

They're all such great boys i promise.

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magic or fate, i'd love it to be fate absolutely.

Today, started out somewhat.. wrong.


First thing, the weather decided to be funny. Yes rainy days are my favourite, but not when i've decided to go for a morning swim with mui... =( Lousy us. Maybe not us. It's ALWAYS the weather or the cycles. ALWAYS. i'm amazed. Morning swim, the last one has been ages ago since i've always opted for the evenings. Aweee i swear, we're going to meet next week. Our dates've been some kind of empty promises the last few times. =((


Then, my mom's irritating friend. Whom i shall not comment on. I just hope i don't get such stupid friends. I can't really stand this kind of people.

And here comes my next point. During dinner and on my way home, had this texting session with jas. You know you know..... you're so gonna be my maid of honor! HAHA. This woman makes me feel like... she's more than a friend, more than just a bestie! The way we text and all, it makes me feel like we're in the same house and... just shouting across? " I want all the songs!" " Tell me when yoga appears!" HAHA very strange indeed! and it made me rmb how we used to text each other every evening, when we literally see each other everyday in school.

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Ooooh yesterday night was good with the usual people. Pikturrrreeees soon.

one two three more days.





hit play first.
HIT PLAY FIRST I SAY.


See, isn't it a happy song!! makes you smile right!
RIGHT. OHMYGOD I LOVE MY HONGKI BOY.

Now, love is...
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i slammed my file on the table, sat down and started....

"SHITTTTTTT i was running here kazzzz i have so much to tell you. I can't wait can't wait can't wait i swear this is becoming an obsession. DO PEOPLE DIE OF HAPPINESS?!! LIKE YOU'RE HAPPY YOU LITERALLY CAN'T BREATHE THEN YOU COLLAPSE AND DIE?!! this kind of feeling disappeared for so long, that's after leetaehoon left oh it's a year alrd omg coming 7th nov is one year omgomgomgomgomg.. omg do you know do you know, it's ELECTRIFYING, LIKE BLINGBLINGBLING THEN TSETSETSETSE THEN GOT BUTTERFLIES ONE!!! FLYFLYFLYFLYFLY!!!!! shit let me tell you i can feel bubblesssss, now got ALOTALOTALOT OF BUBBLES ALR!!!!! and the dream was absolutely deja vu i was so stunned i wanted to die i tried so hard to suppress my laughter or i was gonna get mocked. I swear this is really different so different omgggg. but i don't wanna dream anymore dreams don't work for me. can't wait can't wait can't wait. OHMYGOD. CANNOT BREATHE CANNOT BREATHE DO YOU KNOW WHAT CANNOT BREATHE MEANSSS?!! but i think this time round was too awkward but i heard XX said "dggoiuthfkdhfjh" to YY omggggg what does that mean tell me tell me!! HOWWWW I REALLY FEEL LIKE IM GG TO SUFFOCATE WHENEVER ALL THIS SHIT COMES TO MIND. BUT I AM SO HAPPY! HOWWWWWWWWWWW"



OMG fellow help! i'm so lost! WE NEED TO TALK.
omg lohmanying nth much to fill you in this time round, like really nothingggg!!! OMG ALOT ALOT TO TELL YOU I SPENT DAYS REFLECTING ON MYSELF AND SHIT DIE ALR. MRLEE'S GONNA GET KICKED OUT SOON.
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SHIT.
the above was whatever i blabbered while meeting up w kazan today.
first half of the day was spent at ttsh while the second half was out with kazan, i was supposed to study but we did nothing except bitching.
guess what kazan's reaction was after i related the stories.

" WHAT HOW?!! (LAUGHTER LAUGHTER LAUGHTER) ehhh. i think i can see bubbles too!! there's hope for you. y'knw, H-O-P-E HOPE!"
" really ahhhhhh. but horrrrrrrrrr.... what if... what if what if!! cnt be luh cnt be no lor no lor must be something else... ( there're so many what ifs i've been considering about!) "
" ehhhhh. but on the first day it's already like that right! telepathy?!!! on the first day you all alr i see you you see me alrd ma! "
" HUHHHHHHHHHHH REALLY MEH. BUT THIS TIME ROUND NTH LEH NTH LEH NTH I WAS SO SAD Y'KNW!!! not even i see you you see me, but i saw YY .................."


the conversation cotinued for hoursss. and then kazannnnn continued to assure me while i continued to come up with so much more what ifs. as long as there's nothing then i'll continue to come up with so much more what ifs.

but.....

真是种触电又幸福的感觉。

i love kazannnnnn omgggg he's a total himbo i lurrrbsshim. CAN'T WAIT.

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last night was crazy too i totally went mad.
dear XX, we need to start talking too.

monday was a blast.
shopping trips couldn't be more satisfying with holy around! omgggg i love my three girls you know!!! i want more of this!! i think i secretly love psycho-in people into buying things! even if they're broke. like... "omg i feel so happy everyone's spending! let's spend more together so that we can go home happily with so many bags to carry " kind of a feeling. ok i don't do these to everyone! i think the largest victims are my fav girl and holy. i really have very high persuasive power in this area!!! Don't say i'm a bad friend i'm not. If buying makes you happy, why not?!!! BUT I DEFINITELY WONT WASTE MY TIME ON JASMINEQIU. and crazy holy made me share the same personal msg as her now! lgd. gaaaawwwwd.

anyway, i was aching all over when i reached home yesterday and usually i'll fall asleep immediately, but no. i couldn't sleep until 4 in the morning and i ended up getting so pissed off i starting crying while reading my bimbo lurbslurbs novel, trying to get myself some sleep. stop wondering who the hell cries when they can't go to sleep, I DO. in the end, it's just two hours of sleep and i pulled through the lecture today! hahaha i probably wont if it's SOME OTHER LECTURES.

jas's in the same stat class w mr.d.
we'll be going home with mr.d next week :)

and if you don't look good in black , i'm telling you it's really bad.
everyone should, look good in black.
just like the one in black today!

omgggg one more week of anticipation... starts now!

交目。

第一次，烙印。
第二次，避开。
第三次，假装。
第四次，紧张。
第五次，尴尬。

很奇怪的感觉。
让人有点期待。

My mobile decided to screw itself again.
made me cringe in the stomach last evening when the keys decided to stop working.
i was so shocked it was unimaginable. and guess who served me at the service centre? The same old flat faced with wig-like bombastic long hair rude girl. So... i have to go out and play tmr, go to school on tuesday without it. effedup. Other than this, yesterday was mad rush to the immigration hall, salon, shopping (isawthisCHANELCHANELCHANELiwantittt), dinner,aunt's house, supper, home - with the mom.loved yesterday totally and the hanging keypad had to ruin it all. I am not happy.

I don't this part of myself, where i'll have to get something done immediately once the thought comes to me. it's not good. Cuz i am stubborn for the wrong reasons.

Case 1: I see this item somewhere mag,online anywhere, i decide that i want to get it. i decide that i like it so much i want to get it NOW. i call everyone on my contactlist, if no one's free. I'll change, spend two hours travelling, get the item and leave for home.

Case 2: Phone died. Everyone was having dinner. I decided that i lost my appetite. and everyone's supposed to eat faster faster faster so that i can send my phone for repair.

Case 3: I decide that i'm bored and i want to go somewhere. Someone is to accompany me NOWNOWNOW. lol and it happens that this person's always jas or kazan. haha.

if i don't get things done immediately, i'll feel so uneasy i can't sleep. I'll SULK. and nobody talks to me cuz i simply wont talk to anybody, too affected to talk. HAHA.

and my new passport looks like 1. sadako. 2. people from the 1920s. 3. Photo on people's ash urn.
it's BLACK AND WHITE LEH. why must they make it black and white, squeeze the dimensions and make a normal photo look like ghost. urgghhhh.

fellow!!! buy kate spade! it's simple and plain, but it's got "x-factor". i love kate spade as much as i love u!!!

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sometimes i can't help to think whether you're not in peace with all your friends or what. why must you criticise be sarcastic and make everyone around you unhappy. if you understand that, do understand that you say things that make people feel so irritated but because they don't want to fall out with you, they shutup. it's not like they can't argue.please, there's a limit.
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anyway, help my yz do survey again please!
link at the tag
tsankyuuuu.

it's sunday alr =)



I waited forty minutes for that damn bus today. and i was reminded of the time when my fav girl complained about waiting for the same bus for forty five minutes. then her message came when i was on the bus.

" 情爱的， 我好想你!! i'm trying to get in touch with my chinese roots!!! "

seems like she failed terribly, and i was holding back my laughter. aweeee soonsiewhui's damn cute alright! can't wait!

i like guys with dimples. and lucky me always find eyecandies with dimples.
from cg, to lai to driver.
i like my current driver now, cuz he's got dimples.



cheated into the sneakprev of coffin, more than half of the time i was hiding behind my shawl. watch it again when it's offout. 3010 omgsotheypaidmoretocheatmeintoit. lousy

this stupid change of photo on the new high tech passport with some chips inside (like i care) costs me freaking SEVENTY BUCKS.
that's seven months of vivi. and the old photo don't look like me meh don't look like meh! hahaha awkward smile. then that seventy bucks' exchanged for a new high tech, with ugly photo passport. shit.

iknowiknowthisisexcessivebloggingbutimveyyyyyyyyyyyhappynowwhattodo!! omg and tt xiaozhu is so funny i wanna dieeee.

I'm... tryingveryveryveryhardtostudysocio but.... igotdistracted.

If i've got a billionnnnnn.

I'll give one third to my parents and a little bit to my bro.
I'll buy houses for eben kazan and joe, to make sure they get their asses back here.
I'll give jas a million so that she can stop going depressed.
I'll fly nn to london and buy her a house there.
I'll buy zyz a house next to yuya's.
I'll give holy a sum i don't know what to give her.
I'll plan a great great marriage for my fav girl.
I'll fly cone and man to japan with me, so that we can go shopping for brandeddddddd!! and man can look for yuri there!
I'll open a dance school for anqi.
I'll make my yuhboh skinny w big boobs.
I'll make sure everyone listens to cong and mui's singing.
I'll open a childcare centre for jia.

I'll keep the remaining for myself i've not thought of what i wanted.
and.... i dunno what the others want. HAHAHAH.

How to get one billion?
I'll have to learn golf and yatching first.

I'M SURE U WON'T UNDERSTAND WHY, DON'T TRY TO UNDERSTAND EITHER.

okihavetogobacktokarlmarx.

Today's tuesday.


Series of funny and unimaginable events happened after lecture, Felix acting all retarded and weird it's not what he's supposed to be, he should be cool and cold. I was kind of pissed off by whatever happened because it's not how it's supposed to be! But i can't help but confess, i'm a little happy, confused and there's so much more of puzzlement. And this funny egoistic guy on the train whom i totally wanted to mock at right in his face. Then comes bimbo knocking on my door followed by a series of bitching and serious talks.. Going to the monsters' and oh how i love the little boy. Isn't it sweet when a kid wishes you "goodnight sweet dreams be safe see you tmr"? It came as a surprise to me, also to his mother. " you're the only tutor he talks to so much after having so many of them." You know, it makes me feel so appreciated. Meeting a familiar face on the bus when i was heading home, being in the same train cabin w joel at an unearthly hour. Such texts of assurance from fellow, And recieving my fav girl's message when i was tapping out. Everything flowed. Where all the good things were happening one after another and going your way, immense happiness!! At the end of the day, i was really so happy i couldn't stop smiling to myself (i gotta stop this problem, still can't stop smiling) and i feel like telling all those i want to, i love you all so much. I was so glad even the ground might sense my happiness, taking such light steps i thought i could fly. It felt like, this day was exclusively mine.

I said i like tuesdays.

Oh, yes. I've been eating so much these few days but i'm still constantly hungry. Kind of bad.
CAN THE SKY FALL SASHIMI ON ME RIGHT NOW.
I'M GONNA DIE CRAVING FOR IT.


Now, help my zyz do survey alright, (i dunno if she needs it but)
i like her the most!

It's at the tagboard.

WHAT A NICE DRAWING OF F-ELIX.
and dimpled-driver <3

I was struggling to stay awake in school today.
I don't like friday lectures...Pathetic people and pathetic lecturers.
Speaking of lectures, i was having a conversation with mommy.

mom: " ehhhh 17th of nov, we're gg for buffet w the aunts."
me: "i've got class"
mom: " can skip? copy notes from jasmine... not important one right?"

AND I DIDN'T MAKE THAT UP.
she said that ok. papa was rolling his eyes at her of course.
But i think i've decided to do just that, and i just realised, it's the 17th =)

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Very worrying, because gran's hospitalised. Mommy's worried. Papa's worried. The brother went to visit her last night, and came back looking worried. I haven't gone yet. So, i'm much more worried.

and now, mommy's on the phone with her sister, sounding more worried.
That makes me omega worried.
i want to cry

最近超迷素颜彩妆的。。。大概是因"长谷川润"的影响吧。所谓素颜彩妆并不是一点也不上妆，而是把脸上的彩妆减到最少。所以呢。。。粉底什么的，我都抛一旁了，因为不想拥有一张像死人一样无血色的脸孔。假睫毛更是连碰都不敢碰，因为不想睫毛摘下后眼睛无神。前阵子因为每天上妆，下妆后素颜的自己看了都有点被吓倒。可是素颜彩妆不容易。。。背后下了许多努力，上妆时更有一些小技巧，对于这点我有一点点的小骄傲。因为连上妆超厉害的妈咪，都很佩服我。啊。。。 总之超开心的，素颜彩妆出门很方便，更是能耐上一整天，给人健康的感觉。看卓竣汶还能不能说我有死人脸!!


ps:听说今天穿的是黄色!!!很想看很想看很想看!!!!

I'm so sorry, but sky blue fits tanned people. Totalleh. aweeee, that runway hair.

And.... i really wna go to the themed night safari lehhhhh!! Go with me lehhhhh! We need some excitement in life. And so i think i really like very busy schedules it feels good, because i need not think about what to do next. But if someone's gonna see me now, they'll die laughing cuz my eye's so swollen it's what, a line and i have these thickthickthick stickers on my eyelids to get them back. Whoa...miserable.
The past few days been really good i do miss these kind of I-AM-SO-HAPPY-I-KEEP-SMILING-TO-MYSELF emotions rushing through me.If i can meet a few more people and it'll definitely be a blast if zhengyinzhen agrees to meet me. =(( YOU YOU YOU!

Peace out people!

I'm so sorry i lost it. I struggled so hard to get to this i'm not turning backk.. what do you say?

This weekend saw pzj rushing abt like some nutcase. It's... pretty bad. Meeting my favourite people these all will be all gone in two years time alright. The thing is, i was the loser of last night's party seriously i'm so jacked. Lousy shit pzj. But i'm veryyyyyyy happy. Other than shopping for stuffs w them (absolutely heartttsss the ikea trip) and being crazy for two nights. i was dilligently helping the monster kids. You know, young girls like to lie. Lie. And lying through their teeth. I was so mad w the young girls i almost stranggled her to death. But the folks are rich, what to do? I'm gonna slap my Athena in future if she behaves like that. I'll probably be sued for domestic murder ten years down the road.

And because the monster was doing her work just now, i peeped at the calender and saw 28th of the month's Deepavali. Public Holiday leh! Means, NO SCHOOL RIGHT. But, to my horror, it's a tuesday!!! And it's a tuesday two weeks away. HOWWW AHH? =((( i'm gonna check it out online NOWWWW.

Oh! Seriously i was on the train (losertrain!) this afternoon and i saw this girl around my age, dressed in sky blue. You know..... sky blue teeeee, sky blue bag.... dark blue shoes. Jeans ( jeans are blue!) I can't fathom this. In the first place, sky blue is not a color to be worn (only lth gets it right). Imagine, a tanned person in sky blue, or a fair person in sky blue? DOESN'T FIT RIGHT!! sky blue's a perfect color for walls. that's my conclusion. and getting yourself covered with blue of almost all shades is definitely not a choice to be considered. it truly shows how bad is your fashion sense my dear. I was holding back my smirks and laughter alright i know i'm very mean but i'm superrrrr scared of karma, my life's pretty screwed already cuz i haven't learnt how to start a yatch.

ok i'm feeling super guilty for not being able to meet my fellow tomorrow i'm so horrible.

The next few days are gonna be equally packed, but i think i secretly like packed schedules. Best still, tuesday is less than 48 hours awayyy!!!

horrifying i promise.
=))

The thing is, i counted and i realised there're only FOURTEEN TUESDAYS ahead. in terms of the frequency of lectures. 5 empty slots. That's bad isn't it?


That private party later is making me die of anticipation.

This fascination with tuesdays and.... i don't know what's going on but it makes me feel so........ yeah, why not.

超喜欢 zhengyinzhen的， 真的真的非常非常非常的喜欢她呢!!!!!

Good job! for doing it dark red or whatever dark color, no more golden hair! But what if i can't recgnise you?!! WHEN IS TUESDAY COMING???????


Caught bimbo's ballet perf with kazan last evening. I'm gonna make my Athena learn ballet in future. It feels, magical. My bimbo is wonderfully awesome in her outfit, with her steps and all. goodness. Made me feel dammmmmnnnn proud for her. pretty alright!
Yuhboh, perform ballet for me too!! HAHAH.

Do you know yesterday wasn't exactly a good day? OK NO. All was good from 9.00-11.30.am.
I like tuesday mornings. OMG very happy to even think of it now!!! erppps ok i wasn't in the best mood ytd, and i'm really in a bad mood today. Besides all that, i was kind of touched by man's pink note. NO PROBLEMMM MANNNN!!! =) So, i've decided not to see the monsterous kid today. I'm gonna watch my bimbo do ballet later! I said i wanted this week to be good and i'm gonna do something about it.Things aside, listen to F.T Island.All their songs, i mean ALLLLLLLLLLLLL. are so capable of touching you it sends chills down your spine. eeew. I'm not being biased here, my KT and DBSK lose alr.imeem youtube them whatever it makes you happy!

Ohshit leehongki's msg is damn cute i think i like him!!! those eyessss!!
yay-ness she like hongki too!!! EHHH I LIKE LEEHONGKI

" Alright" has become my favourite word. It makes you happy makes me happy. You'll get what i mean in time to come.

and why doesn't she believe me when i say i miss her!

i want to learn yatching.





After what's like months, finally met my mui yesterday afternoon. Gah! Wonderful wonderful wonderful feeling. :) And cong too, I didn't know we were the " same kind of people". that makes me feel strange! Heheh.

And so, evening was off to the gran's again. Matt should stop talking nonsense yucks i hate you. Anyway!! The whole lot of us were watching tv over there and e mother was saying how ADORABLE xiaojingteng was. Not cute. As in... Adore - rable. and i was asking her why,
" don't you think he looks like a korean?"
rollllllseyeesss** No he doesnt i think he doesnt.. You'll see how much the mother like koreans. The best thing's that e parents' fine w my husband being a jap or krn. very happy alright! (but i only want my driver now HEEEEE)

My kames are all gonna die soon if my dad doesn't rmb to buy them food.

Currently overwhelmed by the number of shoutouts. :)) I'm currently thinking of a perfect plan to attack young girls. Like offering them wasabi chocos. I like to teach young boys. if you can read anything out of that three words that is.......
Went over to my aunt's after lecture today.(really looking forward to tue's lecture!!) I say... i love all my aunts ALL OF THEM they're damn cute ALL OF THEM omgggggg they're wonderful i promise. Came home telling my mum how nice aunt's curry was and i think mommy's jealous?!! I think it's kind of funny.
Anyway, it's probable that i may faint on the streets someday looking at the frequency of dizzy spells i've been experiencing recently. It's damn scary i swear. Maybe there's some tumour or something? What'd you think??

This year is not a very good year, or should i say it's a fuckedup year. Nothing good has happened so far. Nothing. It's utterly unfair. I'm going crazy.

如果说。。。真的有很喜欢很喜欢过。。。有人会相信吗?
因为喜欢得要命。。。所以痛得要死。

I DIDN'T KNOW ONE CAN HOLD CONVERSATIONS ON GMAIL!!! I WAS REJOICING WHILE READING MY FAV GIRL'S MAIL THEN THE NEXT MOMENT SHE'S TALKING TO ME GMAIL'S DAMN COOL I'M LAUGHING AND CRYING NOW. I'M GOING CRAZY!!!
THEN NOW HOLY IS TALKING TO ME TOO!!! HAHAHA MADNESS.

OMG LOW TECH SHIT I'M SO LOUSY!

ALL OF YOU, GO GET GMAIL THEN WE CAN BOYCOTT MSN. I TELL YOU A SECRET SHE'LL BE BACK BEFORE DEC. EH I'M SO HAIRPEEEEE LET'S PARTEH!



Last evening, kazan called for frappps. You people should have heard my hysterical screams seeing bimbo in the car. so hairpeeee.But i realised we weren't going the right direction.


" where are we going?!!"
" Naval Piercing!"
" !!!!....."


OMG LIEW ANQI IS SHIT I SWEARRRRR, AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY KAZZ HAS TO GO ALONG WITH HER! throughout the journey, i was nagging non-stop about how she'll bleed and faint and die, hoping to dismiss that idea. Futility.She was so excited while i was literally turning pale. I shouldn't be the one squeezing kazzzz's arms so hard when the piercing was being done. And she was totally in pain when we're in the cafe. And we spent hoursssss on the phone after reachin home cuz she needs someone to talk to to distract her from that pain.That's the birthday prez she's givin' herself this year. YUCKS. you people, don't ever do that to me again. i hate seeing people doing all these piercing and tattoo-ing. I'll cry.

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Oh i found it really embarassing when the brother asked me to study last night. Whateverrrr. So i should stop reading so much novels and turn to those notes instead. But i'm in love with reading!! MC Mong's Circus's making me LAUGHHHHHH. damn retarded song.a command. Go search it!



Today's one of the best days recently, despite that pms.
Went for the usual haircut swear i'm never gonna change hairdresser. Yohei's really wonderful ohmy lurbbbs him lurbbbs the hair now.
what's more, when his fellow jpn hairstylist complimented me for being a lovely japanese.( that's bigbig compliment for me!) yohei's rxn at that was ohsocute, smth like " [chigaimasu X3] oh nonono she's not hahaha". and i'm supposed to look like yohei's friend in his jpn hair academy! i was secretly eavesdropping at their convo before he told me what was happening actually so....HAHAHAHA.secretly happy. haiya i lurrrrbbbbs that salon luh promise not because of the mistaken identity issue, but the place and the people. jas u secretly love em too don't you!

anyway, i love my yuhboh's new hair too omg good job shar!

and off for sukiyaki w darling jas. nice food and bulging stomachs i'm so bloated now that tummy will explode. I miss GE and working!

alrighty pics up soon.
so dry i'm going blind soon.
goodnight. ohsohappy!

Mirotic - CLICK

JIN's Oxy - CLICK

[ v] phoon says:
ehhhh MAYBE THE PERSON DIDNT DIE!
bubbleboy says:
JUMP FROM WHICH FLOOR WONT DIE?
[ v] phoon says:
sixth?
[ v] phoon says:
maybe paralysed?
[ v] phoon says:
if so i can dun scared lehhh
bubbleboy says:
wa like that bu san bu si damn sian leh. paralysed
[ v] phoon says:
but he die even worse right!
[ v] phoon says:
ok lah. be paralysed, for my convenience
bubbleboy says:
wth haha

and in case you think i'm being mean, get the full story clear first ok. then again, it's always better to live than to die. met the man today i hope all goes well. No stress. And just in case, i promise i'll make them fulfill the marriage agreements. we'll get ourselves more "poles." -all my love. i'm still kind of angry over ytd's results. not watching the finals luh! no more talented boys. yucks i think i caught the flu bug from my brother.and the father's being superrr noisy now.

ps: no more lift phobias.

Let's go buy a million dresses??

I've thus developed this phobia of taking lifts.
Those thinking of attempting suicide should try to be more considerate.
Seriously.

Y'all know, i'm gonna die of heat very soon. I've been MONITORING THE WEATHER for days and it's sucha disappointment, because it's like 33 32 33 34 degrees every single day i'll call for a party when it turns 27 26 24 degrees ok? but that's completely bullshit cuz it will never happen. maybe yes??? on my birthday month? if that's the case, remember to bring presents my dear ones... and speaking of that, i just realised my birthday wish last year didn't come true and i'll probably make the same wish this year. i know it will not come true but i feel a need to wish for the same thing. ohwells. my brother's very agitated over whatever game he's playing he's talking nonsense and punching the walls! damn scary. the family went for this gathering with the maternal side earlier and i think i secretly like kids because i was so fascinated by the issues they were talking about, i was eavesdropping and i never knew kids were so naive and ignorant!! it's so stupid it's as if their brains were not working. i want to name my daughter athena and my son kyle. don't ask me why. Last night was the bimbo's birthday, this retard was bawling her eyes out. And because we drove to this boutique near GE to collect her pres i think i miss my colleagues. was playing with kazan's iphone zomg too high tech i didn't know how to work it don't understand why must he get sucha complicated gadget. seriously, i think it'll take me ages to make a call with that phone. really enjoyed the food the ambience the candles the company especially, they're dope. i couldn't have asked for more in a bunch of supporting friends like them and it feels like it's been forever since i walked home with ebenzertoh we really have everything in the planet to talk about even though we have our own lives now and he doesn't have so much time for me anymore I think we've grown up a alot. So we arranged for breakfast this morn but cudn wake up as usual i wanna say! I think my area's become very bustling because this new supermart has just opened i don't know why people from all over the place's coming over are the items so cheap that it offsets the busfares mrtfares fuel prices? i bet they can't do math. I had a dream last night and i remembered it so clearly they say dreams that are forgotten are more likely to come true. AWWE dammn sad. saranghae saranghae ne saranghae.

stupid socio.
i'm going study very hard from now.
PROMISE.

On the other hand, the flub and the chub came for a house visit ytd when i was rushing off..
and secretly hi-jacked my room when i left the house??? HAHA.
Love em.
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and this very irritating friend of my mum's been calling A FEW TIMES every single day, so i've been refusing to pick up the housephone on purpose for several times already. But, there's another problem, it keeps ringing nonstop. SO NOISY PLEASE. Seriously, i don't understand what's there to talk about? i mean.... just lead your own lives and you're not obliged to report to your friends what's happening right? (BOYFRIEND DIFFERENT. I'll call my driver everyday if my plan succeeds.) And these kind of calls are those which goes like that....?

" HEY MY FRIEND, A BIRD JUST FLEW PAST ME!!"

THEN. IN LESS THAN A FEW SECONDS, THEY HANG UP.
basically, there's nothing to say. do you have to miss your friends so much?
it's damn irritating i swear, so people, don't call me everyday ok! i won't pick up the calls mannnn. instead i'll get super irritated.

ok i shall shuddup, before people decided not to pick up my calls.
KARMA YOU KNOW?

ok i'm feeling very jumpy now i'll be meeting my people later!!!

i need to find smth substantial to do,
before becoming agoraphobic.

Kame's breakfast. So cute! for him to post this up. Looks like animal food though. and my kame won the best jeanist for the third year!! hail him please. although i personally don't think he looks that good in jeans. and dearest kame's been having bad complexion recently too! omggggg let's go for plastic surgery tgt baby!


dadada.
i just finished wiping off my tears thanks to someone's HELLO PHOONZHIJUN reply.
this is badbadbadbadbad.ahhhhhh.. i miss you alotttttt.reminiscing about the ge earthquake thing totally killed me. it was really so funny i turned out laughing and crying while reading that line! ayt.... i miss the old days.
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met up w anqi and joe for kooooooooheeee this evening. i love frappps and bitching they make me happy. kazzzz's comin' back next week and yay-ness big reunion dinner w the longlost clique. things hasn't been going on too smoothly recently i need to do more charity so that bad karma doesn't get to me. i see a few people nodding their heads fervently. i think changing the curtains and bedsheets to white helps cuz that creates an angelic environment for me to live in then my soul will get purified i'll stop bitching about everything under the sun and start being less arrogant, and those who said that i look too stuck-up ok i promise i'll try to look more friendly but then again i seldom keep my promises and if i've been behaving like this for years i don't see the need to change cuz i know you you you and you still loves me.... and if you haven''t realised i'm getting a little incoherent from all the running about today.

so oyasumi!

in the end, driver didnt turn up today and i was forced to shift my focus to felix.
terribly damned sad. i secretly think felix's kind of cool ( that's like aft i found out his bg) but too bad he looks like he's a slop. and too tall! was laughing to myself observing him doing eye exercises and falling asleep the following moment. eh i am not happy luh! i wanna see my driver.
that's like FIVE WEEKS AWAY.

omg dear driver, please get well soon =((
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told myself to reply to tags but turns out i'm forever lazy to do so but i hafta emphasis i do read them. and hello to all those hellos shoutouts! miss yall too to the miss me shoutouts. serious, promise!!
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you know you know! i'm so deprived i seriously wna roam about in town so that i can see hyun bin! i have secret info ok. they're comin' back from bintan on thu. and there's something gg on at ____ on ____. sorry i'll only share this w my dearest jasqiu. i want him for ourselves. HEHE.just imagine seeing hyunbin in town. geeeeeeeezzzz.faint and die!! just imagining is enough to put a smile on my face. aweeeee so cool!
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bimbo called! and i was telling her about my new fetish for collarbones and..... HAHA.. she drives me crazy mannnnns.loveeeeeehertotalleh!

i don't know why i can't go to sleep.
maybe i'm secretly too excited about seeing felix and the friend tmr.
omgggg obsession!

i think lectures are fun with nn.
cuz she makes me laugh uncontrollably.
to top it all off, when jas's around too.
the fun doubles because i have someone to talk to abt evth in the world!!

and and and!
i miss zyz so much she refuses to meet me!!!
=((

then... i was reading my favgirl's mail just a while ago i want her back in sg right now.

ps: sat date with my yuhbohs was crazy! cudn have asked for more! and it made me realise how timid the man is.

happily reading my mails.
happily watching my videos.
happily typing here.

all thanks to the qiu.
shall dilligently collect her hubby's clippings for her.

on the other hand.
no one has been calling me the past few days because bf's away to visit the brother at some distant country while bimbo's gone missing!
i almost died of boredom promise!

i'm very very very eggcited about tmr!
i wanna see felix and HIS FRIEND!

Struggled to get to this entry.
Stupid lappy's crashing and it took me ages to even bootup.
Gna send it to the qiu family for help soon.

Struggling to sleep at night.
i'm so depressed because this lappy's crashed and i can't do anth.
Can't come online, no blogging, no surfing, no watching. NO AKAME!!
this is seriously the bane of my life.
i've been feeling so depressed for 3 days no joke i'm serious.
cant check my mails cant reply my fav girl after waiting so long for her reply.
i have no leisure at all i can't even load songs nor vids into my ipod.
the best part is i can't watch my vids!
and i get so sad listening to my kt songs ok.
all i do now is go to sch read my notes or STONE.
cant even sleep.
So damn depressed i can't sleep for two nights alr ok!
And such horrible dreams last night.
terribly horrible.
haiya i'm so sad i can cry now ok.
like seriously very moody and emo.

seriously, can't live without a pc.

on a lighter note, the driver the driver omgggg the driver.
seriously, i get these terribly after effects after seeing him every tuesday.
OHMYGOD.

i guess i wont be here for days and so many hours after this.
=((


anyway.
i woke up thinking abt my dreams.
had so manymanymany dreams in one night!
including yohei and mr lee and mr kim, angry!

so i woke up thinking when shd i go to yohei's.
if i dun go to him by end of sept, then my happynewyear plan will be ruined!
but if i go to him by end of sept, it's like.... aiyer.

i need to find a new goal in life.
if not i'm like living aimlessly now. not interested nor enthu abt anth in the world.
but then again, bf says this is how cool people live their lives.
too cool to bother abt anth.
stupid shit seriously!!

not to mention, lunch tt day was omega awesome!

i was secretly touched.
and kind of surprised.
but i guess that doesn't mean anything.

on the other hand!
happy because i'll be meeting the bf kazan for lunch tmr.
also, godbless i didnt touch the notes today. NOT AT ALL.

ANDANDAND apparently hothothothothot Akanishi Jin is doing a full english interview with Jodie Foster next week on Cartoon KAT-TUN! can you see me smiling? if not please hear me screaming.

i don't even know details about what is the lunar eclipse.
lousy.

i've been eating so much the past week maybe it's the weather.
and i've thus been feeling very guilty although it's not really alot.
arn two meals? definitely not more.
i'm working towards ignoring the feeling of hunger.
which i'll probably fail.
give me one frapp per day is enough.
i can last.
promise.

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i've been terribly annoyed by people who want things their way recently. it's not wrong for people wanting things their way but these days, i've been pretty much doing things the other way round just so to spite them. yadahhhhhhh. i'm just not in peace with seeing some people too happy.i have a flawed character yeah.

but you people still love me alot right?

RIGHT.


am gonna sit down and decipher my notes tmr.
what a word.

and my eyes are closing while typing this someone tell me am i sick or what why do i feel so tired every single second of my life?







i hate waiting for calls.
in the end, i'll be the one calling back.
why am i so impatient?
urgh
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i opened that window and couldn't stop gasping and staring.
high class dining and that that that that very shirt.
the previous time i saw him in that, i thought he was wow.
but now, he's incredibly goodlooking.
i've never seen him so good looking before.

can't breathe man.
i should be feeling indifferent.

recently,
i wake up thinking of zajiangmian.
i dream of zajiangmian.
i crave for zajiangmian.

uhn. that's my favourite food now!

and the stupid korean drama's reaaalllly funny.
i love that woman pls.
i secretly think that her personality is like,
HOW COOL!!!
i laugh to myself every night watching her.
seriously!
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anyway, if i manage to get that assignment tmr morn.
let me tell you.
i'll be rich better off than now.
only then can i resume that socialising life i've been leading for the past seven months.

for all those who don't know, i'm on hiatus now.

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please no weird dreams tonight.
it's basically insomnia already.



Basically, i'm excited about tuesdays lectures more than anything else in the world.
And because of this, time seems to pass faster every week.

i'm gna watch phelps get his eighth medal tmr.

bimbo came over early aftnn and her first reaction.
" your room is so messy!!!"
for someone who's constantly in a mess to tell me this,i find it funny.
i declared this ages ago but no one believed me.

broke my toe nail while running in the rain.
my foot kissed the lampost.
that very same one.
and i cudn stop tearing thankgod it was raining so no one could differenciate between those tears and rain.
it wasn't that painful.
but the thought of not having that nail for a couple of months scared me.
and not being able to paint those nails.
OK LAH. i was sobbing, with anqi laughing.
there's no need to feel embarassed for me.
i think it's pretty cool to cry over a broken nail.
so shuddup.


am heading over to visit the gran with broken ankle before the parents come back to fetch me and the brother for dinner.
un. look at the time dear.

i am really very grouchy these days.
VERY!



NOT IN PEACE WITH EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD NOW.

stupid zyz's making me crazy.
literally laughing laughing laughing to myself while talking to her.
ohgoodness very funny.

i like her alot really i like zhengyinzhen yay.

------
Halta de manna, cinca de manna, horahoraho
Horto prier, blos'd'ita
Omna magni

Crietros, strientropo, horahoraho
Altinique, ortono, florq d' ermenita

------

i say, elvinng rit and leetaehoon are really those stupid stupid but actually very clever people.
I LIKE!!

yay.

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called to reserve my vivi , yeahyeah not as if it'll get sold out right?
just in case baby.

yahhhhhh~~~!!
very happy.
stupid zyz.

amen.

've been secretly oogling at michael phelps and the way he swims.
and the jpn/kr hotties.
ohmy.

I love tuesday lectures.

for the first time aft knowing nnlee for ages, she didn't criticise my EC!
if you people heard how badly she criticised is criticising ritxu.
you'll know she really has high standards and that, my current EC is really good!
next week, i'm gonna move three rows forward and take the stairs when we're dismissed.
eggciteddddd. =D

do you know about dimples, neat eyebrows, reaaaaaaallly nice hair and my fetish for 1.76?
OHMYGOD.

totally can't wait for a week.
i'm very sad there wont be tues lects for a month.
and! i spent alot of time figuring out the possible timetable.

omggggggg i am realllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyy happy.
---

thebfkazan says i'm too materialistic to be true.

Oh. Too bad then...

caught the dancing diva on teeeveee over at eben's and yeah.
goddess alr cone!!!
gorgeous!
love u so much.

dinner with ebenzertoh was totallehhhhh reminiscing.
seemed like ages before we sat down for a proper meal together, eversince march, i cudnt see him whenever i want to.
i say! i love eben the most in this world.
sosososososo happy i can't recover.
but telling him stories made me so upset.

don't wanna play anymore.
not fun anymore.
everything's not going according to my plan anymore.
anyway, i need peace.
someone anyone grant me peace.

someone updated his cyworld and i was really anticipating to see further GREAT pics, turned out, it was only a pair of effing heels. AND NOT VERY PRETTY AT THAT.
wth.

I went to see KAT-TUN's concert
It seems like she can't read their name I invited Masuda-san to the concert
It appears that right before I invited Masuda-san, Nakamaru-kun also invited him. *
After I arrived, everyone from HEY! SAY! JUMP was there, too Also, Koichi-kun was there Massu and I took part in Taguchi-kun's solo, the MC and the last encore Sorry we intruded Right in the middle of the KAT-TUN set was a ship that moved, but I really enjoyed the tall trees and the fake Titanic Ahh~ Even though I was just watching, I came and had fun I was glad to see that in the KAT-TUN concert, each member's personality was strongly shown　Aah~ We also want to do a concert.

-Koyama's jweb.

OMFG. massu?!! massu?!! do you people know how much i love massu.
he's totally like an angel!!! i bet he's the only one in johnny's whose not a jerk.

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towning with the man today.
spending half of the day at starbucks was totally pleasant.
and further childhood talks over dinner was extremely hilarious.

i need to keep my thoughts to myself.

" maybe we'll see _______ later???"

and bling he's there the next moment.
and it's not the first time it's happening.
this happens almost everytime.
each name i mention, APPEARS.

aja aja hwaiting babe! <333333

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the parents went to ikea this morn.
i came home finding extra shoe cabinets and many other items.
meaning, more shoes on the way =)
NO WARDROBE.
someday the wardrobe will collapse and dent the floor.
i promise.

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there's this weird shit thing in my eye and it's hurting badly i think i'm going blind.
i'm eggcited about meeting holy on fri and the mighty tohjunwen tmr!!
really!!!

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kinda miss mer and PZ.

hello it was really tough.
thinkin abt it still hurts.
so fucking much.
i swear it's gonna last forever.

i say...

insomnia stresses people out both mentally and physically.
people actually die from not sleeping ok!
i tried to use man's method and try to go to sleep.
and i almost died doing that.

method: focus on your breathing.
hurhur. i really tried to do that.
result: difficulty in breathing.

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and i was watching the opening ceremony for the Olym_ _ _s.
bleh.
i think the message cheeeeeeeeeeeeena was trying to convey is.

" LOOK. i have so much people and i have technology. don't try to provoke me."

=))

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i don't like my angmoh math lecturer cuz he mumbles to himself.
and i can't even use a freaking calculator wth.
i like my socio lecturer cuz her side view reminds me of mer.

---
i really don't like ou xuan.
can she speak properly?
why must she come out with sucha accent, which aint the least appealing to the ears.
ahh whatever. her face irks me.

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I AM KINDA HAPPY.
because ebenzertoh promised to meet me on sunday for mealsss.
cnt show that i'm elated.


bye!

i want seo ji seok or hyun bin as my boyfriend!!

and!! seo ji seok looks like sangjin oppa somehow!!
ok or maybe it's just my imagination.

anyway, i'm secretly looking forward to classes tomorrow.
to put it nicer, motivated to learn.
but actually, i've got a hidden agenda.


hiaks.**


and it better rain like this for dayssssssss.
since i can't go swimming for a couple of days.

been reading the ikea catalog for three days.
repeatedly. i want like one thousand items from there!!
and after this afternoon, i'm dead serious about a new wardrobe because,
mine is so full the doors can't even close properly anymore.
the problem is not with having too much clothes.
that's not the problem.
problem is... wardrobe's too small.
that's it.

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i like the way kame does up his jweb entries!!!
so many emos omg he has no artistic talent.
but still very cute!!
HAHAHA.

i'm trying to use the kino bookweb to search for the arrival dates.
but it's really damn irritating cause i really molla!
give up!

and!!
can someone volunteer to translate korean for me pleassssseee.






i can't stop thinking about how school is going to start tomorrow.
hello dear, it's almost 9 months after i last held a pen and wrote decently.
and i can't remember what i did the last nine months.
wasn't exactly great.
but doesn't even feel so long has passed.

ok i'm really very sad, i don't want to go back to school.

when the whole world (esp the mother) can't stop reminding i have to wake up early!!!
think about how my butt will hurt in the lecture hall please.

and i was reading those effing notices online OHMYGOSH i'm so freaking stressed now.
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anyway. i think yakault is one thousand times tastier than vitagen.
esp the green apple one.
it's really damn nice please.
DRINK IT GOGOGO!!!
better still, drink both and i bet you'll roll your eyes at vitagen.

AND. now i can bring akame around and watch them everywhere i go.
happiness totally.
adrenaline rush really.

---

孤芳自赏最心痛

i'm so hungry i better go to sleep now.

and..... eat more lemons... so that u can turn fairer! =)


FIRST. there's teppei.
then there's yui and PI.
omg piiiiii.

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dinner tonight was one of the worst ever.
hurhur.
i wanted to dieeee the two hours there.
it was so embarassing i wanted to use the plates to cover my face.
damn.

---

don't want sch to start.

Dinner w jt td was awesome. so was the drive home.
BUT. i wont want an alcohol addict as my husband.
bleh.
like..... they may die anytime?!!!

ohyeah, i was on the same train same cabin as mui.
i was so damn shocked when the train door opened.
coincidence!! HAHAHA.


i don't know smth suddenly came back into my mind on my way home.
that stupid twenty bucks for cab.
GO AWAY GO AWAY.
I'm bent on blocking out evil thoughts.

ANDDDDDDDDDDD. i'm so fed-up with all the weird people in the world.
like.... if you want to talk nonsense, all of you all of you all all all of you GET TGT IN SOME REMOTE CORNER don't come disturb my life.

jas, i forgot!! i find the translation then tell you.
eben, DRYYYYY HAIRRRR LAHHH!!! no more though!!! black soft hair back!

i realised i'm most happy whenever i'm doing my eye makeup really!!! =)))
papa is back!!! i have storiessss to tell him!!! yay.



1+1
2+2
5+5
6+6
7+7

-reccosyks
was contemplating, shd i try sending the mail. =((
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yep eben, it's frenchhhhhhhhhhh.

anw, i've taken a liking to COOKING recently. like seriously, i've been religiously sitting in front of the tv watching cooking programmes. madness. i'll become one mighty awesome wife!
but first , i'll grow fat and dieeeeee from all the food..

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hope chanjiayu's well. <3

Oui, viens avec moi, ne me quitte pastoi,
viens avec moi j'ai trop besoin de toilaisse-moi laisse-moi te serrer contre moi

jas nn

scamp!

mushhhhhhhhhhhhhhhrrrrrooooooooomssss. =))


sweet.

bro: whoa like korean beach! the drama u watched rmb!!
jump!! =D
our hosts - jas's aunt and coussie!
my girls, truckloads of loveeee. <3

i'm soooooo happy today.
totally.
one of the nicest talks since like forever.

and my mr lee is working in the office?!!!
i can't imagine.
ohwells.

anyway....
i'll be out of town with my girls.

pray that i'll be safe, won't get robbed or smth ok!!!

I've been good for the past week, staying at home and helping out my mom pretty much.
I guess.
truth is, i can't remember what exactly happened. other than jas and man and maybe bf?
i can't remember who i saw and who i went out with.

the problem with me now is..... i can't really differenciate between weekdays and weekends and weekdays itself. everyday just seems the same. i'm really happy staying home because.... i've been doing things i really enjoy. like... spending hours reading my magazines. that's the thing i love doing the most now! and... coming online quite alot. been reading alotalotalot on nails, make-up hair and proper grooming. yes... clothes and fashion too. now.... i feel like going for so many classes!! and trust me trust me! reading magazines make you learn so much so much so much!!!
and it makes you want to try so much so much so much. and there's just so many tips!!! best part is. it makes you want to spend equally much.
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imma gonna learn how to bake cakes from my fav girl tomorrow.
pray ok. pray that i don't burn her kitchen down.
i'm gonna work very hard to be a super good wife in future!!!! yay.

JASMINE QIU.
IT'S SIX YEARS.
4+2=6.
not fiveeeeee.

--

"July 20th, 2008. I may have just had the best experience of my young life. My secret fear about going to the KAT-TUN concert was that I would discover that they weren’t really as great as I thought they were. Rest assured any of you who might have that same fear. In person, if anything, they’re even better, and certainly more handsome. All of them. Kame is the cutest thing ever. Seriously. I never fully realized how adorable he is. Once in his solo he did a kiss at the audience and this cute little embarrassed shrug that was just about the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. I just wanted to put him in my pocket and take him home. Jin is absolutely beautiful. I always knew this, but it’s good to have it confirmed. Also, they are all really good dancers. Again, I knew this, but it’s good to have it confirmed."

i'm damn jealous.

and.......
i'm still very jealous.

dad: why is your room so messy?!!

me: i dunnooooooooo.

After listening to what mui said, i've been literally slapping myself for two full days.
like..... when i'm watching the parodies, when i'm watching tv and when i've nth to do.
I THINK IT HELPS.
or maybe it's just psychological.

YOU KNOW YOU KNOW!!!
it's been one million years since i laughed so hard for consecutive hours in front of the teeeeveee.
so it happens that i ransacked my mom's room for dramas and i started watching this hk drama after HALF AN HOUR OF CHOOSING. no joke.
it pays luhhh. it's really so damn funny i was chuckling to myself before laughing out loud.
damn retarded i swear.
and considering the fact that i'm not those kind who will laugh at the telly (akame aside), this one's really good.
and... i even dreamt of it when i was napping?!!
HAHAHA
addiction.

and and and.
i've been having weird dreams everynight!~
cone, smth similar to the one u emailed me.
and eben, smth similar to the one u told me about.
u people, don't tell me about your dreams!
hahaha.

1.i dreamt of cats becoming ghosts.

2. i went to the bird park and it was linked to the zoo?!!

3. i was at kt concert and i saw leah dizon dancing with jin.


even trivial matters like....

1. being happy because i found kimchi ramyeon in the kitchen!

2. water bombs.

3. seeing LAI.


EVERYDAY. i dream every night. like two three dreams every night and i can rmb them = no sleep.

and the worst thing of all.... the dreams are damn shallow. no substance.

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i want to dye my hair.
and i've been thinking about it for weeks.
i think i know what i want now.

now you see it now you don't.

but not now.
since the daily chlorine exposure will fade it.

anyway, don't ask me what color bleh.
i don't want to say!
i will only tell those i want to.
ok i know i'm damn selfish.

BESTO

And........ zero make-up accounts for the small eyes and bad skin.

no lashes like tt.
boo. i want flawless skin too!!! =((

and.... i realised jas has dimples!!!

i totally collapsed when this picture appeared on my screen. wth is this stupid jin doing!?!! damnnnn funny please.

anyway, went dating with dearest jasqiu today and pics will be up soon.
singing and swimming.
so half the day was spent at the club.

i have a secret accomplice now to help me steal photos!! hehheh.

ok homealone tmr!






i think........ haha nvm don't say better.

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anyway i think avocados are super nice so ran shut up.

and jia i have no idea what you're saying don't understand a single thing what flowers what man set u up I MOLLAAA!!! like totally catch no ball. HAHA.

is "who..." nice?
i want to force the whole world to listen to it.


bimbo, it's impossible for her to get over it i swear....
urggggggggh it's damn sad really.

and... i think the whole planet should live on avocados and mushrooms and water.
maybe not. i want it all for myself.

MY DIGESTIVE BISCUITS LOGIC

if you eat TWO digestive biscuits, the second one will digest the first one, then by the time u eat the third biscuit, the second one will be digested alr. SO. the list goes one. the previous digestive biscuit will be digested by the additional one you take in.

conclusion: no matter how may digestive biscuits one takes in, in the end, only one will remain. SO! if a person lives on digestive biscuits alone = anorexic. HAHA.

talking to man means crap.
talking to martin means crap and nonsense.

omg these two are the ultimate.



and if i'm going to die of depression one day, it's all because of kids.
damn scary.

my fav girl's comin' back from... vietnam tmr.

" dearest, vietnam has lots of prawns, and i'm comin' back tmr!"
-siew

anyway, lunched with dearest jas today.
short and sweet.heee.
and i freakin' took the wrong bus and alighted at the wrong stop.
hurhur. ok to me,
969=965
851=852=853=854=855=856=857=858=859
ALL THE SAME.
very stupid i know i know!
HAHA.

Cone and mui,
i found myself at that blog again and i telllsssssssss you.
before i can even read, i find myself tearing tearing, cried.
so in the end, i didn't even manage to read a word from the latest entry.

and mui. YESSSSSSSS i think lth slimmed down too!!
more perfect! hahaha. i want him as my yuhbbbooooh luhhhhh. =((
oh wells.
anw, i think lydiafly has a bf?!!! i've got evidence!
i'm secretly happy. it's the sister luhhhhh i tell u it's the sister!!




eh, i'm only halfway done i seriously suck at links and html and whatever shit.
low tech shit.

i'm happy and not happy today.

ok sleep.

http://minihp.cyworld.com/pims/board/image/img_pop3.asp?tid=46358587


Perfection, really.

Tell me i'm not supposed to feel this bad.
Please...

at least i wasn't bawling my eyes out.
at least i didn't feel sour.
i was just impressed. promise.
all in the past i say.

but i must say, capt's reaaaaaaaaally. perfect.







i just recieved mui's msg and i SMILED AT IT.
hurhurhur stupid seungjin seriously he's damn cute ohmy i think man's gonna melt big deal from this!!! MAAAANNNNNN!!! this motivation came just at the right time??? so aja aja hwaiting!! don't give up =D your namja chingu's askin you to study hard so study hard~~~

( i didnt study hard when my capt asked me to.)


and i was gonna announce to the world that i don't like lth anymore but then now i'm not too sure again!!! OKAYOKAY. i'll find a way to put everything into words ok. i find it a bit confusing too... so wait for meeeeeee yea =)

arrrrgh.
soboredsoboredsoboredveryboredreallyverysuperdamnbored.

i think the mother's mad.
first, she asked me not to wait up for them and go to sleep first.
SO i freakin went to sleep. (veryhappily)
but like half an hour later, she called and said she was bored so i was supposed to chat with her!
and now. i can't freakin go back to sleep.

but the conversation was pretty much funny.
like full of brainless shit talk.
and what we should do about our hairrrr.
it ended up pretty bad though cuz i was accused of being rude cuz i freakin' laughed at herrrr hurhur.

she should have called her son who's havin so much fun staying over at don't know which corner is this pathetically small sg. or talk to the father who might probably be three steps away from her......... or talk to her sisters and brothers who might be equally bored.
instead of disturbing memememe!!

bleh.
i think the worse's thing that can happen to me is not being able to sleeeeeep.

and.......... the gran's hospitalised...=((((

is offering strawberries to the god very funny??

why must everyone laugh at me luhhhhhhhh.
this is called innovation and creativity ok!!!
all should pray like tt.
so then your wishes will be answered.
LEARN FROM ME LUHHHH.

yep went praying with da mother before shoppin arn.
my secret plan to rip her off was found out and i had to pay like 3/4 of my purchases myself.
how sad hurhurrrrr.

and after that was the fab long awaited meet-up with mui.

" i haven seen u for so long your bangs grew so long alr!!"
-M

HAHAHAHA. yeahhhh. like how long ago was the last time i saw her.
heehee am still pretty much amused by how we introduce our cosmetics to one another.
made my poor girl cry reading the same blog omgosh it's awfully sad seriously.
talked and talked and talked we've got soso much to update us and now at least, i have an idea what's happening in her life now.
and dearest, thanks for the maaaaaaaaskkkks it's awfully gorgeous and the big box of sweets i'll eat it i need SUGAR!!!

i'm happy. really.
tanoshiiiiikata!!!!

can't wait for the stayover.
i miss stayovers!

and now, no one's home.
i have no freakin idea where that bro of mine's gone to.
i really see him like only 2.5 days per week and one week on averge per month.
geeeeeeeeez.
the parents've brought gran to the hospital i just realised.

it's damn worrying please.

oyasumi.

konbawa!!

i've been rising bright and early these few days!!
heh heh. like... 9? HAHAHA.

let's see. today, i had lunch with andy at kyoma smth smth restaurant.
ok i was really damn relunctant to go because i thought it was gonna feel mf awkward like dunno what.
but nopes. we really had alot to talk about and the sashimi was best. elaine and jt was supposed to join us but hurhur. conference call conference call conference call.
gahgah.

and after that, i was driven to town to visit SHARLOT!!!
i love my yuhbohhhh yay-ness. and we were bitching about like one milliooonnnns people.
it's amazing how she can handle the shop and ps: i think the thai really quite cute luhhh. provided he didnt go through any operation.
hahaha this woman never fails to make me happy really.
yuhboh, saranghaeyo!!!!

and after that was rushing to tpy to meet jacq before we decided to come home for dinner. damn spas really.can someone tell me why people can like kids so much?!!!! and she freakin ran to meet her baby after dinner.

so. i'm gonna meet cone in say.... one hour's time?!!!
EGGCITING OHKAY!!!

saysaysay tell me im good at squeezing mydates!! <3> i like talking to man.

i haven seen my dad for dayyys.

and i was reading that blog i teared like some loose tap please.
the music fuckin' made everythhing worse.
hurhurhur.
it was so bad i had to stop reading.
super heart wrenching. i think i'll die like really commit suicide if i was that girl.
six years lehh yuhboh!!










i'm seeing mui sometime tmr.


i was reading my new vivi when after happily seeing jun's pics i turned the page and flipped it close the next moment. JIN EH JIN EH JIN EH. there's this interview of jin.
bloody happy.







http://www.cyworld.com/lydiafly


like fairy like that. dammmmmn pretty please.
flawless. win alr.

---

i seriously love my life as it is now.
though, a bit more money will be better.
i have so many big plans ahead of me.
freakin' eggcited.


kazan~~ i'm going to learn how to bake cakes from my favourite girl.
so stop saying that i can't bake at all.
and i was talking to my bro yesterday i think our laughters almost blew the house down.
ohmygosh. it's damn funny.

you know... i think korean songs are those that it strikes me on the first time i listen to it, i'll be obsessed with it. if not, i won't really give it a second chance. erps. cuz they kind of sound similar.

anddddd.... what i'm trying to say is. i love cong's playlist!
the one ost and the lee seung gi song.
BUT. i can't find it anywhere, so dear cong, will u be kind soul and send it to me?
hahaha.


today's total happiness.
i like my fav girl alotalotalotalot.

and dear all, please don't waste your freakin money to catch THE STRANGER.
like wth. ok. the only thing good about it is, it's adrenaline rush from the 1st second to the last.
if someone were to film the two of us in the theatre, it'll hit the headlines.
like two retarded girls covering 8/10 of their faces and mumbling "omg" like nobody's business.
the thing is. the whole hall has only like less than 6 people, including us?!!!
it's damn rundown like some hk horror movie kind of cinema.
like scary! im never going back there.
worse than lido.
hurhur.

..........


i think. reading jas's blog is like inspiring. now i think michelle is freakin pretty too.and i like her dress. hurhur. like ANGEL like that.

......................


pzj stop counting it's not working what you're dreaming off's not fuckin comin' true and it only leads you to have more bad dreams and then u become more depressed then u dream again then the cycle goes on. fuck. thank yourself for discovering the cyworld so that you aint wishing that you'll find him back from the transfer window. it's ended fucking long ago and nothing's gonna repeat nor come back to you.so fuckin' get over it.

Your Extroversion Profile:

Sociability: High Cheerfulness: Medium Activity Level: Low Assertiveness: Low Excitement Seeking: Low Friendliness: Very Low

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know. From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up. And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

You Act Like You Are 19 Years Old

You are a teenager at heart. You don't quite feel like a grown up yet, but you don't feel like a kid. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. You're quite rebellious, and you don't like being told what to do. You like to do things your way. You have your own unique style, taste in music, and outlook on life.

surprisingly. i was intrigued by jasmine qiu's entry to do these quizzes. hurhur.


met up with dear xuan after millionsssss of years.
and this woman never fails to surprise me with whatever is happening to her.
hello. i was kind of shocked today seeing yr new haircut though.
but i still lurrrrrrrbsssschoo!! <3

anyway!!
after xuan was fishing with ebenzertoh!
ok. prawning to be exact.
bottletree's a good place i realised.

ok the story goes, we agreed to prawn prawns.
BUT. i found it very boring because u have to wait for the prawn to be prawned right!
(plus i think the jumping prawns are scary!!)
so i decided to go drain fishing.

then then then!!!
korean kid attempted to snatch the fish i was going after.
of cause i let her do it luhhhh. it's a KOREAN maaaaa.

and after some time, she pointed at me and told her mum.

" ip-po-yo..."

and i was dammmmmmnnnn happy please.

so, i decided to thank her and talk to the mother!!
and i realised.... that. her husband's training at the stadium.
now im thinking who's her husband.

ok. i think im afraid of fishes tooo!!!
hahahaha.

and because mr toh had to rush off to dunno where, and because i've eaten, our initial dinner plan backfired.
but am still happy.

ok tmr's siew day.

andddd.... dear fellow. i miss u bigbigmanymanymuchmuch =((

and the fact that i've not been sleeping much AT ALL.
and this cheeeeeena chinese pissed me off big deal on my way home.
blahhh!

i think the new drama on tv is niceeee.

stop it i say stop it.

it's getting so irritating can't you live your life as it is?
and stop being sneaky dodgy whatever term it is.
stop assuming that you're part of everything when you're not.

this is life.
you can't just get into any clique that you want to.
some things are just not meant to be helllo?!!
where and how did u get the cheeks to assume that you're included in everything we do?
when and how will you learn to be cleverer and stop acting like it's a must to please you?

stop giving me a fucked up attitude and sulky face whenever you're not happy.
please, not all things have to go your way so get this into your head.
i friggin sound like some lousy friend who deprives you of the right to get angry and rant at right?
but this is happening EVERY SINGLE time we don't get to choose when you're with us.
why must we listen to you?
and follow your choices?
just because you're parents dote on you like a gem?
then stay at home and not come out please.

i'm not your slave nor am i willing to please you like the other one is doing.

if you're worth it i have nothing to say.
but you're not.

Nakamaru : July 4th was Akanishi-kun's birthday~
Fans: Congratulations!!
Akanishi: Thank you!!
Nakamaru: So how does it feel to be 24?
Akanishi: huh?
Nakamaru: AGAIN, how does it feel to be 24?
Akanishi: Ohh...it's like..i'm the same as Nakamaru now...
Kamenashi: Wait isn't Nakamaru 32?
Nakamaru: WHAAAT
Akanishi: Guys guys! On my birthday, only 1 person sent me a happy birthday mail!
Kamenashi: Really?
Akanishi: really. so here's a pop quiz, who thinks it was ---- (each member's name) ??(Jin asks the crowd with each name & the majority raised their hands for kame)
Akanishi: Everyone got about the same votes.The answer is Kamenashi - kun!!!
Nakamaru: whaaaat? not true~
Kamenashi: huh? You guys didn't send one? who usually doesn't~it's so normal.
Ueda & Koki: No that's not true! The address~~it didn't work
Kamenashi: All right all right. Ueda go first.
Ueda: So, I made a happy birthday mail around 11:55 and sent it but it came back saying "this address is no longer valid."
Kamenashi: I sent mine using short mail!
Akanishi: right. (jin was smiling :D )





i said i want to go to the concert already right.


tooth gem.
i think all people should stop piercing whatever parts of their body they feel like piercing and go for tooth gems.

1. it doesn't hurt.
2. u have 24 teeth i assume, so it'll definitely satisfy one's hunger for countless piercing.
3. it'd be so bling you have the brightest smile on earth.

despite all that, im not a big fan of tooth gems.
erps. in fact i find it kind of gross.
u can't even brush your teeth properly?!!!




spent my day with jacq at kazan's.
and half of the day at starbucks.
and another half at spinelli.
(idon'tknowhowtospellSPINELLI)

yep two coffee places and i like the second one so much better.

i tells u. first day of mybreak and i'm kind of bored.
not that i have nothing to do but i have no mails to check!
so i've been signing in and out of my personal mail but there's freakin far too little to reply as compared to at work.
and i rlly like to use outlook.
damn crazy please.
my point is, i want to reply to office mails.

tmr's with xuan and wed's with my fav girl.
plus, monstrous tuition sessions.
but then again, after using 45 minutes to drill my girl into spelling ELEPHANT AND ANIMALS
correctly, she scored full marks for her spelling.
what does this mean?!

" how are u going to reward me?"

that was the question i was posed over the phone today.
and i felt like asking her the same question.
i think im in a better position to ask her this.

kids.

are still kind of irritating.

anyway, i'm super happy i finally have time to get down to watch my one thousand overdue videos.

i thik hyun bin is still damn cool.
fullstop.

8 months alr. damn fast hur! fuckin' felt likeytd.

http://store.shopping.yahoo.co.jp/ramsfrank/jc-47sgr.html

uhm.
not very impressive.

but the price's 3,832,500YEN.

WHICH MEANS.

SGD53,655

hurhur.

http://jacobandco.com/jc_47sgr.htm

but then again, look at the description.
quite reasonable though.

but. it's a men's watch.
hurhur.

I'm gonna start my plan S.

that is.

sleeping.
swimming.
shopping.
saving.

i know i know the last two contradict each other but i dun care.
i'll find a way to do it.

ohmygosh. i'm super excited now because i can sleep all i want.

anyway, there was this health check at my company the other day.
so i went and i was imagining some kind of high glucose level in me because i've been eating 5096809346906 sweets every day.

but the results were unbelievable.

Low glucose level.
Low blood pressure.
Low protein level.

like wth? and yes, i need to drink more water.

so i forgot who but someone commented that i was on the verge of dying.
i think so too.
everything's freakin low?!
scam. there's no way my glucose level's low please.

butanyway, i think i have high fats!
hohoho. no doubt abt this.

damn crazy.

next week's nicely packed.
N.I.C.E.L.Y P.A.C.K.E.D

geeez i was having dinner with bimbo earlier when she commented that she had no time to care about others besides herself now.
maybe it may sound very selfish but i think so too.
why should i care in the first place?
ehhh, not to everybody.
but just some people.
HAHA.

recently, i've been very very engaged into growing my brows.
i'm trying my best not to trim them like i usually do so that those thick brows will grow back and i can do something new to them.
apparently, it's not working.
i can't keep my hands off them.
geees.

and recently, kame jin and hoon.
erps the three turtles in my house are on a vegetarian diet because my dad commented that i'm feeding them too much and they're growing too fast.
i think so too.
so i've been feeding them with this particular kind of veggie which i don't know the name too.
HAHAHAHAH.

lastly, my new obsessions are avocados and mushrooms.
i think i can live with eating these two items for the rest of my life.

Bimbo bimbo hello bimbo!!!

I saw Dan at Amara Hotel yestrday!

and he still looks very stupid.
i think i like people who look very stupid but yet, they're actually very intelligent.
it was always like this!
understand???

something like... greenbag.

GEEEEEEEEEz.

anyway, Korean dinner at Amara yesterday was fab.
and the company was best. like......party. HEH HEH.
i think i fed myself with 10million calories of kimchi omgosh it was damn nice and people speaking in a beautiful but non-comprehensive language.

yay-ness and i was super happy to see dan really.
like.... very cute.
stupid stupid like that!!!
but actually very intelligent.


shoppin' with da mom.

i think....at least for now...
it's not a matter of really liking somebody.
it's just a matter of winning.
and a matter of getting what i want.
and a matter of seeing you miserable.
i reaaaaaaaaaaaally reaaaaaaaally hate to lose.


ok i'm suppppeeer suppppeeeer contradictory.



AND I WANT TO GO TO SPAIN!!


eh. i know why jin likes america so much.
cuz he's born on America's independence day.

4th july.
salvation =)




lovely jun.

like... how can someone be so pretty with round face and high forehead.

anw, mom's screaming like mad i'm seeking refuge in my bro's room.
woman really have MOODSWINGS.

and i can sense mine fuckin' comin too.

i need to swear less really. fuck.

NO bf don't cheat me into going clubbing.
pubbing yes =)

CALL MY MOBILE CALL ME CALL ME!!!

OR MSG ME MSG ME MSG ME!!!!

omgosh.

i'm freakin' in love with my ringtone and msgtone.
like OHMYGOSHHHHHHH.

the whole of today i was like...

" can someone msg me? or call me?"

then when msgs come i pretend not to know until the tone sounds for further three four times.

it's normal to act like this when u have that reff from un- and that reff from distance as your tones.

and yoyo jasqiu accompanied me home today YAY-ness.

3 more days!! i'll miss the toilet with the big big big nice mirror.

dear yuhboh. are u back in sg? some spy of mine spotted u eatin chippy's a ps today?!!
HAHAHA

dear cone yes u can be my bridesmaid you'll be prettier than the bride! and chanjiajia. ideally, can you be the one to look after babies? i think i'll kill them before i know it.
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe.

dear jas hohoho i know she wears wigs!! nice wigs lehhhh like really nice lorrrr!!!our bags are heeeeeeeeeeeeeee.re.

dear bf, but he's a jap. and just so, everything's alright.

my xuan my xuan my xuan, are u BACK!!??!!! we should meet. i miss u sooooo!

and dear yz, aitai desu. can?? HAHA

i thought we were of the same frequency.
not anymore.
i think we grew up.

it's too dear to me.
so let's not let go?

yes?

i'm sure we'll be fine.








i'm both happy and sad.
happy because....
sad because i felt so many barriers between us.
i thought i understood you and you understood me.
i thought i felt really special.
but no longer so.
actually my fav girl comes number two.
and you're my fav fav fav fav fav fav fav number one.



now i know why mui mui felt so sad at that time.
i thought i wasn't one to feel fuckin' sad over friendships.
how wrong.
i'm feeling fuckin' miserable now.
like damn fuckin' bad.

ironically, we still talk don't we?
but it just doesn't feel right anymore.


pzj stop stop stop stop stop!!

i think jin's a jerk.
although i ADORE akanishi jin.
i think he's a jerk.
but i still love jin.

and kame more.

Actually.
I don't really like yohei's cut this time round but ohwell.
It's still good.

then again.
i spent the whole aftnn finish one pound gospel dvd and the whole time i was just laughing like crazy.
kame's damn crazy please omgosh.
i want to go to DA CONCERT.

and next will be jin's yuukan club yes just imagine.

eh i love kame.















Yay-ness i love my fav girl. gah.

sukiyaki.
sales.
siew.
gold watch.
Y.O.H.E.I.
egypt bar.

i had to be stopped from being too noisy.
i loved the company.

i'm scared of barney.
maybe they walk at night?
and they'll strangle me in my sleep.
then i'll die and become some barney slave.

the gold license.
you get a gold license in japan if you don't meet with accidents or get into some shit complications for 5 years.
then the government will regard you as a good driver.
my case: i moved to tokyo, and i took the train. so. i didnt drive for quite some time, no accidents and all, i'm considered a good driver. at least the govt thought so.


MIGHTY MIGHTY Y.O.H.E.I.

heeeeeeeeeeh.

ottoke?!!!! ottoke?!!! ottoke?!!!!!

dearest fellow,

i read your mail and it's traumatising me now.
i think i have difficulty sleeping already.
haiz..

love always,
ME.

the reason for being here.
is because.
i'm waiting for my nails to dry.

my favourite color now is GOLD!

i love hasegawa jun absolutely.
and i think she's super mf pretty.
and do you know she actually replied to her tags like OHMYGOSH.
in english.
i've been fangirling over her these few days.
like SERIOUSLY.
fullstop.

and i was reading this article on ayumi.
now i think she's the prettiest woman that ever existed.
i swear she didn't go for plastic surgery please. I SWEAR.
it's just cosmetics.
and fake lashes.
and blonde like hair color.
and a freakin nice personality.

i just finished watchin antm on tv.
i want tyra's hair color.
she's too pretty.
like barbie alive.

work these few days has been good.
especially when it's the LAST FEW DAYS.
and invitation emails have been comin' in.
no time alr no time no time.
it's really good to know that people actually appreciates you.
yay-ness.
politics aside though.
tmr's the dinner with my goodlookin girls and boys from sales and then to yohei's.
TO YOHEI's. this i can't wait.
siew's comin' too.

eh now i want this gold watch.
like antique gold watch.

ohhhh.
ok. today. amidst my work, mom called.

" your friends came!"

i stoned. stoned. and stoned.
HAHAHA.

didn't understand a single thing.
and the next thing i said was...

" jia jia?"

HAHHAHA. i knew she missed the baby.
crazy woman.

" yah yah yah. and the small sized one( lohmanying!). anw, you're havin' pizza for dinner today!"

yep. these two freaks actually WENT TO MY HOUSE ON THEIR OWN.
damn crazy.
i really dunnoo what happened.
except the fact that the baby lurves jia totally and man was just sitting there having the usual evil thoughts about kids, like what i do everyday.
hmmm i don't really understand what's so great about kids.
and my weiwei is just freakin afraid of me.
because i actually stare and get pissed of at every little thing he does once i get home.
furthermore, i hit him too =)

ok but these two girls of mine sent me smiling in the office like some idiot.





husband has some blood disorder may god bless him i think it's too much alcohol so all my dear guys, drink less luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh. you won't die without booze.

reachin' home and gettin' out within 5 mins.
went to gran's cuz she freakin fell down and hurt her ankle she's in a cast she can't get out of the house for 3 weeks.
and i was so fuckin' furious over her saying that she won't even survive two weeks.
i love my gran alotalotalotalotalot seriously.
i love talkin' to her.
and when i saw her almost crying when we left, i fuckin' teared once i stepped out of the house.
she's so damn freakin weak by the day it's like some phenomenon or smth.
shit seriously.
kame has to bless her please.
and dad has to comfort me who was busy crying when nothing freakin happened.

and there, matt and i freakin started askin gran how she did meet gong.
HAHAHA
i tells you. really damn drama.
you know my ahma is like some rich man's daughter with maids following her to school when she was young.
that was in chhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeena.
old china.
super rich.
then she came to sg with the BROTHER and dunno what happened she met my gonggong.
then dunno what happened they decided to get married and the freakin brother actually asked her leave and never come back.
so she left and never went back.
and this couple lived happily ever after.
yay-ness and the photos of them were stunning.
i swear my gonggong is so damn goodlooking please.like really goodlooking lor.
and when we were commenting on the photos my aunts all said,

" you all dunno how many woman like yr grandpa luh!"

hurhur.
what happened to the goodlooking genes?
genes mutation.

anw, HEH HEH HEH. i think i can abandon my BROTHER for captain too.
kame or jin's fine too. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

aiyo. i'm gg over on sat or sun again. i promised her.
and damn you matt. COME WITH ME LUUHHHH!

hello man!!! send me regards to your mama!!

sorry cone, i haven't been online i swear i'll send you the pics soon.
jacq, ran, jy.... the songs are comin' soon i swear.

and for all that've heard ayu's who.... loved it.
so listen to who... now!!
LIKE NOW.

i've not freakin' caught a glimpse of kame nor jin for the past week and ohdamn i miss them completely.
and i'm absolutely losing touch with people like....

shin-g
bimbo
ZYZ.

and especially you muriel ang i have no freakin idea what you're doing now and i don't understand any of your activities written in your entries.
please report to me soon. =)



my nails dried. so im gg to sleep now
oyasumi minah!

i was fuckin' pissed off by everything this morn at work.
over what? i don't know too. like just freakin damn pissed off at everything.
seriously. i hate to talk when i really am irritated.

and i thought i was pretty weird.

until nnlee told me she was feeling the same way late evening.
like not happy with all the things in the world.

geees.
she's super funny i dunno why but i find everything she says funny.

and i'm starting to miss jasqiu a lil since i've not seen her for like... 2 weeks? i dunno.










eben ah eben.... =(










anyway. I LIKE HASEGAWA JUN.
although i think lena fuji is dammmmn pretty.
i was so attracted by juuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuun i thought i was a les.

anw, 8 more days.
i shall endure.

i realised i have the tendency to like a person alot initially then suddenly become irritated.
not guys luh but just people.
i'll slowly observe the person's character and then decide that hey i dun like him or her.
then i become irritated. this has happened so many times i really hate myself for that.
but sometimes, some people are just not worth it.
like someone in the damn office in the dammmmmmn hr room.

8 more dayyyyyyyyyys.

and tons of farewell lunches and dinners comin'.
what's the most expected one?
the one with husband and another with korean nam luuuuuuuuuuuh!

i had a funny dream abt hoon ytd.

my weekend has been especially supppppppperrrrr fufilling like dunno what.
i guess it's one of the best weekends i've had so far.

i've been crazily smiling to myself these two days.

hoho.
let me tell you, meeting up w my fav girl was just madness.
we literally ran and jumped onto each other at the station people must have thought we were freaks!!!
i miss her luhhhhhhh.

and we went to this ramen shop opened by japppps!!
it's like jap lor.
like some ramen shop in jap.
those that you'll never thought you'll see it in sing.
siew's one big miracle i tell you.
and we went for sake at this supppper exclusively jap bar.
hahahahahhaha.

yuhboh, we'll have our ramen there once you're back!!!
it's dammmmmmmmn nice i swear!

oh yes!!!
i think i brought like one week's supply of food for my house from marks and spencer.
super aunty i swear. that was before we went to john little every thing was so mf cheap things only got worse after we came out from john lil. i thought i'll die carrying the bags.

HAHAHAHHA.
AND MY FAV GIRL AND I BOUGHT THE SAME PAIR OF SANDALS.
like the ones in VIVI.

piktures up soon i swear. i seriously love it like hell loads.
it's the best sandals to wear with shorts.
and hello it's the best thing to replace boots since they're more of a no-no in sg.
gahhhhh!!!

i lurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrve my fav girl really really really!!!

and townin' td with the mom and the bro was fabulous serious.
i think we spent the whole of my mom's pay not my fault i swear.
aiyyaaaaa. i love mommy. and i love shoppin' with her more.

my DKNY =))))
after one week of thinking.
i abandoned the one i wanted and got the other one instead.
cuz it has swaroski crystals.
blingblingblingbling.

and if even my didi says it's nice.
and if even my dad says it's worth it.
i have no doubts for it.

dinner tgt with the father was totally like some alaska bomb.

i really love my family prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrris.

AND.
I DROPPED MY PHONE IN THE DRAIN JUST NOW.
i happily alighted from my dad's and was strolling to get sweets when i cudnt find my keitai in my bag.
so i sat down and started digging.
CANNOT FIND = DIE.
so i rannnnnnnnnnnnnn like nobody's business back home and shouted for my mum.

" MUMMY I LOST MY PHONE AGAIN!!! CALL DADDY!!!!"

and my dad had to stop the car to look for my phone.
but cannot find i swear i almost died on the spot.
but the mighty geniuuuuuus brother called my phone as he walked down the block to look for it.
since no one's answering the phone meant that it wasn't found by anybody yet.
so he searched at where we alighted and freakin' found my phone!!!

by the time i reached level one, he was alrd holding to my keitai YAY-ness.

me:" where and how did u freakin' find it?!!!"
bro: " called your phone?!! and i heard kame singing."

HAHAHAH I SAID KAME's DA GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
ok. i swear i almost died of shock.

back to work tmr fuck.

goodnight. jaa.

I am. SUPPPPPPEEEEEERRRRRR HAPPY. today.

my favourite girl's back and i just put down the phone with her!
hahahaha. i totally can't wait for tomorrow's dinnnnneeerrrr!!!
madness.
i was smiling all the way in the office today ever since i recieved her msg when she touched down.

and. i'm freakin amazed by the timetable i planned and successfully bid.
I only have to freakin' go to school for THREE days per week throughout the whole year.
and it's just A FEW hours per day trust me.
thennnnnn. before i realised. like half of the time, i only have sch one or two days per week. plus long long long long holidays for christmas new year and cny. u tell me how great is that!

thennnn. meeting cone up earlier was totally madness.
i can't get enough of her damn crazy pleaaaasssse.
hohoho.
really super mad.
please get well soon.
love u much.






































Dear Cone and I.
Completely Spasssssutiku.
Pleasssssssssssssse. GET WELL SOON.
<3



Man and I. Esplanade <3





my girls and Popeyes =)

I secretly logged into my didi's friendster acct.
and i'm fascinated.
so proud.

i want to eat raisin bread.
like... NOW.

geeeees.
i saw LLLLL on my way home. i was like... " i know him i really do!!! but i don't rmb...." then after some time, i realised who he is. very cute leh very cute. like retarded. and the hair was just bombastic.and the short friend was super cute toooooooo.

i found a new pic of taka.

and why is everybody bullying me today huuuuuurrrrrrrr.

miss liewwwwww. i am not yellow please.
mr tan. stop saying that i look like SSSS. i dun like.
mr ong. i am not a cow. thank you.



TVTVTV GOT JAPAN GOT JAPAN GOT JAPAN GOT JAPAN GOT JAPAN GOT JAPANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

ANYWAY. I REALLY DON'T LIKE LEAH DIZON.
I'M DAMMMMN DISGUSTED BY HER.

I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
I don't like Leah Dizon. I am veryveryvery serious about this.
bitch.

The decaying bodies of the 18-month-old twins were found by a sibling who smelled something unusual in their house in the east coast city of Brisbane, the local magistrates court was told.

A 28-year-old man and the 30-year-old mother appeared in the court on charges of failing to provide necessities of life after police discovered the deaths on Monday evening, the national AAP news agency reported.

Police found the bodies in a "state of decay," and the children appeared to be malnourished, prosecutor Michelle Clarke said.

The mother allegedly told police she had noticed the twins were dead on either June 8 or 9, adding that she had been suffering from a cold and rarely fed or changed them. She suspected that they may have starved to death.
When asked by police how they died, the mother allegedly said: "I don't think I fed them enough."

One of the children weighed 3.6 kilogrammes (7.9 pounds) and the other 4.0 kilogrammes.
The couple's other four children said they had rarely seen the twins, who had been kept in the front room of the house for most of their lives.

The prosecutor said that when the corpses were found by an 11-year-old sibling, the child went to the mother and said: "I know why you have been crying now."





=((





i've informed my manager of my last day.
geeeeeeeeez.

so we sat down at talked.

me: " amanda..... errrrm i think i'm going to work until.... 23rd june."
her: " ohhhh ok.... EH. ISNT THAT NEXT WEEK?!!!!"
me: " uhm."
her: " shocked beyond words** why so fast?!!!"
me: " haha! bluff you one luhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.!!"

hahaha.

work today was good.
because all those people are like.... mad?
they kept laughing non-stop at every single thing to the extent we had to close our room door to laugh.
damn crazy.

and meeting rone in the train was the funniest thing ever.
SO. i was SLEEPING all the way till bishan.
then when i woke up. i turned to look at whoever was sitting beside me.
so there sat that idiot who was sleeping also.
BUT, i couldnt recognise him.
so i was like....

" is that rone is that rone?"

to myself.
and finally he woke.

we were like " omg it's really you."

it turned out he was figuring if it was me until he was too tired and fell asleep.
super crap.


anyway what's most important now is.
i need to be punctual for work tomorrow.
and that's a huge problem.

it means that i need to sleep fifteen minutes earlier so that i can wake up fifteen minutes earlier so that i will reach my workplace fifteen minutes earlier. than usual.
that means... i'll be punctual.
hopefully.

why?
cuz that eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeein-d-yearn is on leave again tmr.
i cant stop ranting about this to every one i met today.

on a lighter note, i recieved merci chocolates today.
and i'm supeeeerrrrrrrrrrrr happy.
yay-ness.

hello dear you coneeeee.
smile~~~~~~



eeeyerrrr. empty talk. irritating. yes.

ohmygosh.

i'm effing happy for prf cuz i just realised she freakin got into nus fass.

although i bully her alot but for once i'm freaking happy for her, YAY-ness lehhhhhhh.

omg.

was out with the mannnnnnnn ytd.

it's been like a COUPLE OF MONTHS. since i last stepped into esplanade lib and yes, it still felt rather good!
and this woman is just spasutiku.
she kind of.... laugh at the weirdest things possible?!!
hahaha it's sucha nice time catching up with her please.
like.... i haven really sat down to talk to her since forever ago.
STUDY HARRRDDDDD!!!!

now. i'm laughing like crazy talking to yuhboh.
i don't understand how can someone's life be so ridiculously funny and happening.
damn funny please!! HAHAHA.

and i caught my fav girl online!
=))

i really don't feel like going to work tomorrow.
and the stupid recept is gg on leave on tues again?
kill her please.
bth.

fellow hasnt replied my msg

OH anw, i'm watching tv now and this no2 guy is just supppppeeeeer spastic.
i can't stand him. like wearing some chicken little suit and doing some funny dance?!
go and die luhhhh.
but no.4 is different.
although he's mic but oh well.
this whole competition is just crap.



and and and.
last year this day this time.
i felt soooooo damn blissful i thought i'd have died.
hurhur. one year already, like time flies.
and the piakpiak from sang was like one yr three days ago.

GRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENNN bean soup <3

today's sucha long, but enriching day.
enriching? i dunno if that's the word.
ohwell, minus like half the day before... 2pm?

saw cong after one thousand yrs =)
and jas and nn totally made my day.
i've got PIKTURES to show but then i need to edit it a lil first.
hello my girls, i think we looked drunk.
etc, nn with a bald spot, jas looking at some distant object and me being all red and eyeliner all smudged.
and OH we met holy for lunch and she's stepping on my favourite slippers " SINCE MONTHS AGO" she said.
holy's the last person i hugged for the day.

i don't care if i'm top three on their chart lists.
but they're definitely the top three girls i'll ever love.

POPEYE's TASTED EVEN BETTER THAN A GOOD HALF YEAR AGO.
IN NOV THAT IS.

vivi's out. OH BUT SHAR! i think it's not even the 25th ann one. i think that'll be like next month?!!! very wth i know.

OK. me. yes. me. i visited the pc or it or what show you call that for the first time in my life and i swear i'm not going back again.
it's like... world war 4? three being the big A's.
and i swear i almost died of shock opening the item i bought.
ok i was just paranoid.

hello thl, thank you love! for all. we need to talk. SOON.

erps. tomorrow's another busy day!

and damn, sg is just so freakin small HOW CAN THERE EVEN BE A JAM IN FRONT OF HMV.
i dun like it here. serious.

ok. if i had 100 billion dollars ( 1 billion is definitely not enough)
i'll fly my girls one to europe, one to uk, build holy mediacorp number two, and get my ass in hokkaido, build IGLOOS, and wait for the invited ones to come for holidays.
next, buy three plots of lands in aussie for my three boys!
and i'll use the money to threaten lth to marry me.
i'll build him one thousand churches.
alternatively, i'll make riiiiiiiiittttt play his flute during breakfast, lunch and dinner and maybe supper.

goodnight.

ps: nnlee! i saw the cleo photo. no. yohei looks 35784647836848 times cooler in person. TRUST ME.

reply to tags:

-joe: i forgot why i'm angry alr!! HAHAHAHA. **brushes off yr hand!

-anqi: crazy bimbo. come back faster!!! i think rit is super cute!!

-jy: erps. yes.

-sharlot: YA I RMB THE ONE I'M GETTING THIS WEEK IS WITH AKANISHI INSIDE. HE'S DAMN EFFING HOT PLS. and taka. omg. he really looks like pi! i should send you the super duper big pic. 201cm. just nice for you?! ok what volleyball player. i think baseball player's cooler. i miss you and yr nonsense luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh.

-bf: i'm gonna smash yr face in pumpkins. RITXU IS SUUUUUUUUUUPER CUTE. better than u at least.

-cones: we share the same thinking and do similar SNEAKY activities. bandits. HAHAH i lubbbbbs chuuu! and i hope you're fine at the camp.

-ran: no. eh shangri-la is in cheeeeena. and i chose a cheeeeena state you shd be happy. ok. HOKKAIDO. or somewhere closer to roppongi so i can hunt jin down. HAHA.

-mui: i think it's been MILLIONSSSSS of minutes since i last sensed yr presence. and w yr blog constantly ruled by junsu or taeyeon i have no idea whatcha doin. HAHAH. meetup before u fly please. AND. i think smoking makes jin hotter. end of story. this is 30000000 degree biasness.




i think i need 3000 pieces of neutrogena masks.
given the damn complexion i'm having now.

alternatively, skin centre.

ANYWAY.
i really dun want to spend hundredssss of dollars on a freaking batt.
with that i can buy thousandssss of vivi.
like supply myself with vivi until i'm 70 years old.

but then again. aiya irritating.

there's this love and hate feeling of gg to sim tmr.
ACTUALLY RIGHT.
i'm just a bit excited about gg out aft tt.
because. i want to eat popeye's and i wanna go to kino.
end of story.
i have no freakin idea how i'm gonna survive the talk.
four hours. wth?


and my pretty kid called me today..

" jiejie, when are u coming again?"
" next wed? errrr. seven days away!"
" ohhh......... daddy says you call him gorgor!"
" yes i called him gorgor when i was yr age."
" why gorgor? daddy is so old."
" no.... yr daddy is older than me only by seven yrs old. so gorgor lor"
" seven again!!! ** laughs like dunno what."
" huh?!"
" seven days until you come again and daddy is seven years old older than you and i am seven yrs old now"
" orh."
" buy sweets again when you come!"
" orh."
" ok ash is barking, byebye!"
" orh byebye."

i really can't communicate w kids because they say the weirdest things.
and i can't imagine i had sucha long convo with her.
ash is the dog. the huge dog.
and i figured out that maybe... her ultimate aim is to... ask me to buy sweets?!

ok but i like her so nvm.
she's damn cute and talented because she learns ballet and violin and... hiphop?


goodnight.

I've decided to get my ass out of GE soon.
in three weeks that is.

met jacq for frap.
i think jacq's verysuperreally pretty.
and hysterical.
she slapped me four times today.
stupid clubber.
HAHA.

i think i like my tuition kid.
cuz she's very crazy also.

go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming go swimming.

at kazan's at kazan's at kazan's at kazan's at kazan's at kazan's at kazan's at kazan's at kazan's

eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi eat kiwi

dun like dogs dun like dogs dun like dogs dun like dogs dun like dogs dun like dogs dun like dogs.

love akame love akame love akame love akame love akame love akame love akame love akame
love akame love akame love akame love akame love akame love akame love akame love akame

queen of pirates queen of pirates queen of pirates queen of pirates queen of pirates queen of pirates queen of pirates queen of pirates queen of pirates queen of pirates queen of pirates

fake lash vivi curls fake lash vivi curls fake lash vivi curls fake lash vivi curls fake lash vivi curls

don't like kids don't like kids don't like kids don't like kids don't like kids don't like kids.

stop thinking stop thinking stop thinking stop thinking stop thinking stop thinking stop thinking

STILL VERY IRRITATED.

i'm feeling extremely happy for my bimbo.
take it seriously this time round please.
shiawase desu ka?

and as discussed w fellow ytd.
overtime, it really becomes so apparent, the true personalities of everyone.
what they're really like and all.
and if you think back, everything becomes so mf disturbing.
sometimes it's much better to keep a distance from some people.
you don't necessary need to feel happy because you're so close with the person in such a short time.
erps. most of the time, it's not a very good thing anymore.

Or maybe it's just my problem.

haiya ok i'm not exactly in a good mood today.
or rather i'm in a freakin bad mood.
very very very very very very very irritated...
i think i'm very weird because i'm not answering a single call today.

and i've been drinking so much water recently i think i'm going to bloat and die.
i just feel super thristy every moment and very tired.

seriously. i need to quit the job soon.
not that i don't like working there.
but i'm feeling very lethargic.

and where are there no countrysides in sg?
like you can't even find a place for a nice getaway.
i reaaaaaaaaaaaaallly hate living here please.
based on what mf standards?! why can they even be ranked _______ for the most conducive place to live in or aiya dunno what luh.
like forever striving to be world best.
cannot understand.
i think the standards are damn superficial.

i think i'll be much happier living in some ulu country like.... shangri-la?

i want to live in HOKKAIDO.
i think it's really freakin' heaven.

i want to get married soon.




Full of love bitching session with fellow sie and whoo~
i love her completely now please.
we seriously share similar thoughts and HOHOHO.
i need more of this woman.

HELLO MAN.

" NEH NEH NI POO POO!!!"

lazy luh!!!

omgomgomg.
green bag is just damn hot as usual.
cheekbones and i think he's got... dimples?

ok yes. Homies! i saw greenbag after one year!
he's one of the two eyecandies i had in year one ok.



YAY-ness.
look at the time now?
given my character, will i go to work tmr?

NO.

jaa mata!

VERY BORED.

April 2008, Wink up.

Jin's message to Ryo:
"You're such a monkey!"

...And Ryo's reply?

May 2008, Wink up.

Ryo's reply to Jin's message:
"You should slim down."

… And Jin replies back to Ryo again!

June 2008, Wink up.

Jin’s reply to Ryo:
“Hey, skinny monkey,
you better train your body further more until it looks more like a man’s”

July 2008, Wink up.

Ryo's reply to Jin:
"You should still slim down some more"


i think ryo's been pretty kind alr seriously.

YAMAPI!!!

Yamapi's message to Jin:
"Hey Akanishi. Stop saying stuff like skinny monkey.You should just go and slim down more."


totalleh mad!!
so cute luh.

beautiful plans weaved up on friday.

cammies ready!

the meaning of the PEACE handsign:

1. to revive the energy in an individual when you're sad or fearful.

2. to mean success when you show it to someone you want to support.

now i know.

hello all.
i am secretly at home!!

HAHAHAHA.

i was instigated not to go to work.

so i was on the phone with bf ytd night.
then after chatting and chatting.

me:" I WANNA EAT PUMPKINS~~~"
bf: " go lor!!!"
me: " hello it's 12 plus alr!"
bf: " but they open until 2!"
me: " cannot cannot i got work tmr."
bf: " don't go to work?"
me: " eh?!! OK!!!"
bf: " you are just waiting for me to say that right!"

so we drove out to eat pumpkins.
hahahahah.

actually i was waiting for someone to tell me not to go to work!
HAHAHAHAHA.
so tt i'll feel less guilty.
i'm superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr tired.
AND PLUS THE FACT THAT.
I AM NOT HAPPY I HAVE TO GO TO WORK EARLIER TOMORROW.
because the stupid courier from swiss is coming in at eight.
and the stupid, but goodlooking austrialian expects the freakin documents to be on his desk ASAP.
wtf seriously.

PLUS. plans tomorrow night.

SO I NEED SLEEP TODAY.
heh heh.
ok luh i'm just lazy.

so i sneaked out of the house and called jacq on the way down, but that idiot was sound asleep.
so i tried to call shin-g, his phone was off!!!
i tried to call joe but i realised he wasn't out in town.

blame it on their luck. yayness pumpkins. hee hee hee.
i swear the waiter was JAP.
and half the restaurant was JAP.
can you imagine how excited i was!!!
very happy leh very happy leh really very happy!!

and i sneaked back home at 4!

i like to talk to kazan.
totemo totemo daisuki!!!

and i've been holding on to my phone ever since june started.
im waiting for my fav girl to call please.
i'll have no more time to entertain others once she touches down.

jas nn holy are exceptions!

HAHAHAHAHA.

did i say!!
i LAUGHED OUT LOUD on the train ytd, it was damn embarassing.
esp when a korean was with me.

" the aunty rejected the uncle so he stabbed her lor"

that was the msg jasqiu sent!
so crazy.
very funny please.
erps. it was supposed to be a murder.
but somehow it turned out funny.
OK AT LEAST I FOUND IT FUNNY!!!
heeheehee!!!!


i dreamt of kame and jin hello.
in cwp library.
i dunno why.

funny.

OK I KNOW CANNOT SEE THE FACE LUHHHHH.

but MY TAKA looks like yamapi!
yes yamashita tomohisa. yes. NEWS- PI.

omgoodness.
i think he's damn hot please YUHBOH i think taka is super freakin' hot!!!
taka taka taka taka taka taka taka

and the tall guy beside the beside of taka. is, doi.
ryota doi.
he's 1987 baby.

i think i want to marry him.

i think i've got the cutest and most kakkoi hairstylist in the whole wide world.

because he's yohei sugakawa.

i quarrelled with my eben again.
i swear it's not my fault.
even if it's my fault.
i'm not going to say sorry.

dear all, i've replied to three tags.

i read all the tags so don't worry.
although i reply them like once in 95893689046 days.

but i appreciate the tags.

ok i'm still very happy from my trip home.

same accent.

you're so sneaky hmmph!!

very sneaky.
damn sneaky.

why're you so sneaky.
yucks.
i hate sneaky people.

eew. disgusting.
omg damn irritating.

argghhhh.

YOU KNOW YOU KNOW!!!!!



i think the contestant with dimple is damn cute please.

hello jasqiu u agree right.

although he's M_ _



but then nvm luh nvm nvm!!!



dimples =)



ritxu is the cutest.

Basically.

i had such good company on my way home today.
and i think the train ride was only 5 mins.

hahahahahahahahah.

damn mad i need to share this with my favgirl!!

and basically, on my way home......

ok whatever i'm just damn freakin happy on my way home today.
YAY-ness.

reminisce.

i got myself an lj account 30000 years ago for the sake of going through KAT-TUN communities.
just to get myself enough downloads of their performances and oogle at their magazine scans.
get my collection of their shop photos and request for songs or perfs whenever i can't find them anywhere else.

and my lj friends, i add them because.... they've got downloads that are friends-locked.
so if i don't add them i can't get my downloads.

i don't even comment.
i think i do that once in 10000 years.

so i've only commented thrice.

hee hee.

here goes my 800th post.

i've been listening to songs that make me feel at peace with myself and everything.
and the top of the list, ayumi's WHO..

ACTUALLY, it's just because i want to see yohei.

hee.

i want to cut my hair!

but i'm gonna wait for my siew to come back first, uhmmm hopefully.

i think ritxu is very cute.
i think ritxu is really very cute.

cuter than bing-ma-yong.
it's damn funny!

so nina lee. stop criticising ritxu.

HAHAHA.

and no, king peter is just to self-centered.
EGO.

prince edmund is better.

i love rainy days.
just so i can sleep in. =)

i saw yz's mom today.
i think.

and i saw williams ytd!!!
HAHAH it was damn funny.

OK I'm very glad!!!

i am still very happy i can study with jas and nn.
i think it's the best thing that can happen.
so. jasmineqiu you better don't make funny decisions.

hee hee hee.

bf drove us out for breakfast this morning before i went to the clinic with my gran!!
so ytd night before i was going to sleep, dearest dearest dearest eben called and said we'll be going for breakfast this morn!!


me: " orh. what time? TEN?"
eben: " TEN YR HEAD LUH! seven thirty."

seven thirty... mad.
it was already 2 when he called.

but then but then the dim sum was dammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmn nice.
yay-ness!!! jacq and joe can just be some kind of comedian i think i almost died laughing!!!
and i was so glad i caught w eben.
i think it has been millions of years since i last saw this most impt person of mine.

I WANT TO SAY.

NARNIA IS DAMN FREAKIN NICE.

me: " i think it makes you dread coming back to reality."
nn: " hmmmm. yar. i think it's something like that too!"

HAHAHAHAHA. i think ninalee is just supppppper funny i dunno why!!!
and her comments are like.... funny.
HAIYA EVTH IS FUNNY ABOUT HER!!!

very crazy.

narnia is damn nice.
actually i secretly like edmund more than caspian.

initially, i like peter.
then CHANGE! to caspian.
then to edmund.
then back to caspian.

but now i think i like edmund more!!
AHAHAHAHAH.

i like the lion.
and i dont like susanne.
i think she's damn weird.

ok whatever whatever it's just damn nice...
WATCH IT.
and clear blue water actually exists.

very amazing.

i feel like... eating PUMPKINS.
pumpkins pumpkins pumpkins.

and stupid jasmineqiu. now i'm very excited over MM!!
new products leh new products!!!

vivi is gonna be published again next week!!!

AHAHAHHA.

and i cried on the train ytd. secretly. because the story was too sad!!!
i think i want the book for myself alr.

DEAR MURIEL.
i swear you'll faint.


PLEASE LOOK AT THIS.

http://maishampoo.livejournal.com/12934.html

I LOVE JIN SO MUCH NOW!
sucksssssbackair*** even the caps are damn goodlooking!!!!

and the way he reacts.

i think i can die.
omg!!!
i'm damn crazy now.

look. how can the girls be so calm?! they're to jin lehhhh!!!!
unbelieveable.

and next, i saw ______'s shadow in jin wtf right.

next. i think jin is absolutely goodlooking. whoever thinks he's not hot or goodlooking,
COME TALK TO ME.
i shall make u understand.

next, i'm going to watch the making of DUES now.
i think i'll faint and die.


but i think only 20% of what he says is true.

i haven been fangirling for so long AHHHHH BIMBO BIMBO's IN HK NOW.
i need my bimbo.

dear all,

kame and jin.

daisuki dayo~~~~~~~~~~~~~



i'm going to watch narnia with spastic nina tmr.
i think she's just damn funny.

and i'm going to burn sam_ung down.

i miss my bandit.

i dreamt of uhm... 17. last night.

yaluh. until now.

nb i'm damn angry with myself.

dinner with kazan was absolutely love.

because, i can tell him whatever whatever in the world and he's ranked number two for me to talk to when eben is not around.
at least i can tell him about what i feel about things and people.
at least i can vent my frustrations on him.
and i know i can call him when i'm damn depressed.
and he's so spastic and crazy i love him so much!!!

mybfbfbfbfbfb lehhhh.

and when the whole world was condemning ______, he's the only one who listened to what i had to say and look at things from the same perspective as me. i appreciate that so much. he's the one that told me it's not silly to spend so much time on _______. and he was the number one person who bothered to ask after everytime i see..... uhm 17.

that's why, please don't go to aussie luhhhh.

and sorry for the long wait today.
i owe you one bf!!!

HAHAHA I LIKE TO CALL KAZAN BF!

i think whoever marries him in the future will be so blessed.

listen to [ who...] by ayumi.

it's soooo..... i dunno how to say.

you know it's sad, but you feel so at peace listening to it.

soothing. must be.

i think the doctor's blind.
I LOOK MORE SICK THAN HER LAH I THINK.

i hate to say this.

but stupid recept.
i dun like to categorise.
but she's taking mc again tomorrow?

fuck seriously.

eh. MY PHONE. =((



doko doko doko?!!!
arggggggggggggggggggggggh

i am freakin happy cuz i talked to my zyz.

believe me, she's sosososososo important to me!

i dunno why but she's very important.

and i really dun want us to grow apart.

AT LEAST, i sensed that she didnt like yuya no more.
happy.
because i dun like yuya too.

i like Massssssssssuuuuuu

actually i have alot of pictures to blog.

like.... 359849064768???


but i'm too lazy!

HELLO JOE.
whoever said that?!!! - ureshiiiiii!
i miss you though!!!

AND I THINK MY FELLOW BANDIT IS DAMN SWEET.

cuz she tags on every blog she visits.

yes, I'M WATCHING YOU!!!

like..... some camera.

ok i'm damn spastic HAHA.

One of those who sends me laughing on msn.
She's my fav luhhh!


(9:22 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
OMG stupid koreans
(9:22 PM) Siew:
yes!!!? THE WHOLE DAMN LIBRARY MAN
(9:22 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
i think i'm going to Die of nam's nonsense everyday!

9:23 PM) Siew:
HAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(9:23 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
now i even find his face funny!
(9:23 PM) Siew:
I CAN IMAGINE!!!!!!!!!!!!! i found him funny the other time when i was in the office!!!
(9:23 PM) Siew:
all these koreans....
(9:23 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
and he salutes, as a form of hello!
(9:23 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
that is enough!
(9:23 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
aiyo.
(9:23 PM) Siew:
OMG!?!??!?!?! AHHAHAHAHA!!!
(9:23 PM) Siew:
he's doing a military style

(9:23 PM) Siew:
in the office!!!!!!dearest damn funny la!!!!!!
(9:23 PM) Siew:
wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(9:24 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
and i just realised why he keeps gg toilet
(9:24 PM) Siew:
omg why!

(9:24 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
CUZ HE's COLD?
(9:24 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
and he goes there to use the hand dryer?
(9:24 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
I THINK SO!
(9:24 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
cuz each time he comes out, he sticks his palms to his cheeks!

(9:25 PM) Siew:
HAHAHAH OMG DAMN FUNNY OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(9:25 PM) Siew:
so he doesn't use the toilet but the handdryer!?!?!??!!??!???!?!?
(9:25 PM) Siew:
it's like us drinking green tea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(9:26 PM) Siew:
my junior who visited melb said it was too cold she put her hand INTO her HOT CHOC!!!!!!!!!!??

(9:29 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
YTD I SAW HIM WALKING OUT WITH PALMS ON HIS CHEEKS
(9:29 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
SO I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS COLD
(9:29 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
AND HE JUST GAVE ME A VERY BOYISH LOOK AND NODDED.
(9:29 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
DAMN FUNNY!


(9:29 PM) Siew:
HAHAHAHA OMG WTH HE'S DAMN FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(9:30 PM) Siew:
cause her friend was like "guess what she did in the toilet yesterday to keep warm"
(9:30 PM) Siew:
i was like what
(9:30 PM) Siew:
she was like
(9:30 PM) Siew:
she used the hairdryer as a heater
(9:30 PM) Siew:
and put her hand INTO her HOT CHOC at a carnival!?!??!?!?! WTH!???!

(9:31 PM) Siew:
damn funny right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(9:31 PM) Siew:
i know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(9:31 PM) Siew:
i'm like laughing to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



she's absolutely mad luhhhh please.


(9:08 PM) Siew:
i'll be okay i don't care i'm coming back already!!!
(9:08 PM) Siew:
HAHAHAHAHA!!!SECRET!!!!!!!!I DON'T TELL YOU!!!!!!
(9:08 PM) Siew:
i sms you when i come back k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(9:08 PM) Siew:
i'm damn excited la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(9:08 PM) Siew:
(to sms you!!!)
(9:08 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
but you're leaking everything out!!!!
(9:08 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
INITIALLY U TOLD ME U LL SMS ME WHEN U TOUCH DOWN!
(9:08 PM) Siew:
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(9:08 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
then u gave me hints!
(9:09 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
now i roughly know!
(9:09 PM) Siew:
okay shh don't remind me k!!!!
(9:09 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
HAHAHAHAHA
(9:09 PM) Siew:
i'm alwayS damn blur!!!
(9:09 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
you're damn cute lah!
(9:09 PM) [ プン] phoon an:
HAHA
(9:09 PM) Siew:
like i'll tell you and i won't know it!!!so from now on i'll put a filter k!!!
(9:09 PM) Siew:
let me read everything TWICE FIRST LEH!
(9:09 PM) Siew:
AAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


OK I'M LAUGHING TO MYSELF LIKE NOW.

i love my favourite girl so much.
hmmmmm. i even gave up bf's invitation to go to country AAA.

" cannot... my favourite girl's coming back and i need to spend all my time with her."

of all places, and of all people.

why must i face _______'s table during lunch.

fate should have ended 8584y694706347607457397 minutes ago.

i am happy because i'm going to tutor my nanny's grand-daughter.
i am happy because i think she's a very very very pretty girl with very pretty eyes.

but i am not happy because they have a dog at home.

i think i was damn rude to each and every person who called today.
i was irritated because there were simply TOO MANY CALLS.

when my phone batt was dying like soon.

i was very pissed off this morning because i was standing beside ________ in the train.
i don't know why i'm pissed off too when i should be happy.

i think i was just very angry with myself because if i were earlier, i wont see _______.

then there was this hideous plus short plus EGO guy walking damn slowly in front of me on my way to work.
ego because he was looking into his MIRROR.
which guy brings a mirror everywhere you tell me.
and because he doesn't look good.
it's no use spending so much time looking into the mirror when nothing's gonna change.
i still didn't understand what gave him the right to block my way.

so i was tsk-ing all the way behind him.
he ignored me.

boo.

i think i'm very attitude. ohwell.
i think i was just angsty.

because i was late for work.
and because i didn't wanna take the same lift as ______.

if i see that freak again, i'll crush his mirror and plaster his face on the escalator.

why haven't samsung called me about my phone? =((

i am kind of happy today because the korean in my office said,

" you more and more pretty."

geeeeeeeeeeeeeez. he's so spastic i think he's cute.

and......

why should i even make time for you each time you want me to?
can't it be the other way round?

i know that your weekends are very precious.
but that doesn't mean that mine aren't.

if you really don't have time, then let's not meet.

i've said before, you are not even serious.
why didn't you believe me?
i'm as equally fed-up and irritated as you are.
i don't need to please you like how other girls swarming around you do.

i decide. not you.

Reading koizora on the train these few days made me utterly depressed.
it's true lehhhh the story, of cuz... i didn't know it was!

the movie left out so many parts.
mika being betrayed by her friends and all.
it was so impactful because it shows the reality of both true and superficial friends.
such superficial friends whom she really trusted.
such superficial friends who ignored her because of trivial matters?!
such superficial friends who pretended to be so nice to her but turned around and confessed to hiro?!
damn, i'll never forgive that stupid friend of hers if i was mika.
aiya but these people do exist.

the thing is.
hiro really died!
and. hiro's diary was completely devastating.



i dreamt of qiu, nn and i visiting holy at her school!!!
and holy being her spastic self, fell down on her way out to meet us.
HAHAHA.

it felt like the old days.

HAHA.

in life, a few good friends are enough!
<3

i think i'm kind of irritated by my mom today because she's relatively noisy i dunno why she's so happy because i'm not so no one in the family should be happy because i'm not happy. very crazy i know. but then again, i am not happy because ebenzertoh says that he can't have breakfast with me tomorrow because he's going to climb bukit timah hill?! like wth?! and because i haven seen him for two weeks. i assume.my dad's still not back i think i'm going to sleep alr. i think the canmake mascara is totally gorgeous and very cheap leh. i don't like people who does things sneakily behind my back because if i find out, i'll be really nasty and i'll make sure you suffer BADLY, not to say, i'll do it very very very sneakily. and hello there, stop effing ranting and nagging over the fact that you ____ into _____ because no one's effing interested. you jollywell know that you're happy so why make it sound as if you're depressed? 90% of the people who heard that know that you're happy luh please. you don't need to emphasize. please think back. how effing mean you were with your words i wish i can throw them back at you. very irritating.

and how come one dozen people are coming to tell me weird things i dun even wish to understand. ALL OF A SUDDEN.

haiyer, we're just all damn hypocritical.




go buy the gardinia raisin loaf.

ok i dunno how to spell gardinia.

BUT. it's really freaking nice.
and 2 slices can last you for a day.

it's the best food one can ever have when they're sick.

or the banana walnut loaf.
ehhhh. have not tried.
looks nice though.

i think my brother is seriously spastic.
and with bimbo on the phone.
i think i'm dying from too much laughing.

anqi: " what is your latest fetish?"
me: " the look on a guy's face when he cooks."
anqi: " i like butts!"

us: " BURSTS OUT LAUGHING!!**"
us: " YOU WATCHED KT CARTOON~~~!!!"

i say....

sometimes when i look at jin, i still think of ________.

so, whenever i think of _______, i'll just have to look at jin.

somehowsomehowsomehow, the presence is just there.

anyway, it was all because he looked like jin.
because i saw jin in him.

=)

Nina~~ heeheehee
I FOUND MORE~~!!!!

i want this.
And this.
And this.


and i thought i'll die on way to work.
or drop dead at work.
my legs were too freakin' wobbly to carry me please.
i think i am like 300 degrees celcius now.
boo.

thanks to the stupid
_____.
mc leave mc leave mc leave.
still complain?!!
you might as well quit.

AKANISHI JIN.
SINGAPORE AIRLINES.
25th MAY
FROM LA.

whoever the airstewardess from sg is.
i think she must be smiling till she's mad or idiotic alr.
JIN LEHHHH!!! =((

i just counted. i have 26pieces of clothes unwashed.
so i think i should wash my clothes now right?

and i'm damn effing irritated by the phone.
repaired yet not ok.
oh wae?!!!!

WASTE MY TIME.
AND BUSFARE. AND MRTFARE.
it's not 45cents anymore ok.

and i've layed my hands on koizora's book.

and im too busy now. i need to talk to my favourite girl.

i stepped into the office today.
and one by one..

" HOW WAS FRIDAY??!!!!"

i think the whole office knows alr.
and the whole office's talking about it alr.

Then comes my queries.
then comes the answers.

errrps. why am i always the last one to notice things?
wtf.

monday's match.
i think i should skip everything!!
and move on to what i deem important.

breadshop aunty.
recall... the most hated breadshop aunty who stared at us whenever we talked to the koreans.

EH. SHE TALKED TO ME LEHHHH.

bread: " were u the ones who teached the koreans english last year?"
me: " shocked.** errrr. No~~~~ ( if it's seungjin, then YESYES!)

but i think she didn't hear my reply and continued with her own questions!!

bread: " Oh... se min and all. u all teached them right! u all teached them english right!!"
me: " ahhh. yesyesyes."

HEHEHE. SHE INSISTS THEN YES LORRRR!!!!
mannnnnn muiiiiiiiiiiii. i think it's the 3 girls who hang out with jarang and byungwoo!!!!

anyhow, DUN CARE.
then then then! omg exciting!!!

bread: " cuz some of them really wants to learn english... so i was thinking if you all can teach them?"

man and i " CAN CAN CAN CAN CAN!!!"


ok then somethings happened and we found out that this woman whom lohmanying has been cursing for ages turns out to be her mom's friend. and the husband whom she claims is damn pitiful because the breadshop aunty hangs out with the koreans everyday, is her dad's friend.

damn freakin small world.

and please hold your breath people.
after some chatting.

bread: " i sent them christmas cards last year..."

HELLO. SHE HAS THEIR ADDRESSES IN KOREA?!!!!!!!
EH WTH. PLEASSSSSE.OHMYGOD.
and she has agreed to give the addresses to us!!!

ok im freaking excited now.
we are going to teach the koreans english.
and i'm going to move house soon!!!
to korea,yes. once i get hold of their addresses.

but then again, i'll have to contact KIM DONG WOO first.

HA-HA-HA-HA-HA

this afternoon, i was with the mother.
then WE SAW THIS CAT.

mom: " aiyo... like very poor thing. very skinny leh."
me: " very good. skinny means it'll die faster! all cats should die."
mom: " how can you talk like that?!!"
me: " it's not like you dunno i hate cats, look at it, it's just damn gross luhhhh how can you even pity it?!!"

and we didn't talk for freakin hourssssss. until dinnertime.
CATS ARE EVIL I SAID ALR!!!
they're even freakin' capable of creating tension within families.

AND just now, we're watching the szechuan charity show and busy wiping our tears away.
OK. for once, the cheenah chinese are really really worth our sympathy. it's damn sad ok.

and my idiot brother was just munching away on snacks as though he hasn't eaten for days.
i was damn irritated.
it just looked wrong.

sunday, 10.16pm

" hi miss, your phone is ready for collection anytime tomorrow."

" eh?!!!! really?!!! OK!!! thankyou!!"

seeeee. i said lying helps.
it improves efficiency.

in either ways, they still have to meet their KPIs.

three things for a girl's homewear.

1. Headbands/scrunchies
2. fbts or levi's boxers.
3. pale colored oversized tees

sudden realization.
it makes you feel so 300% more at home.

Officially sent my phone for repair.
damn.

but i bluffed the poor guy to return me my phone by tuesday.

hiaks. hiaks.
hiaks.

i like it when bf drives.
i like it when i'm out w my bimbo bf and dearest eben.
half an hour more!!!!!

so i better be quick.
you know what. jin went on some rollercoaster ride with pi and ryo.
jin confesses that he's got girlfriendSSSSSS before.
i think jin is weird but i think he's hot.
i think jin's perfect for a boyfriend.
and you know what.
taboo is sucha nice song im so friggin looking forward to the " Queen of Pirates" album.
like. really looking forward to it,
"our story" seriously brings out kame's voice and it's sucha rock song.
i'm sorry because other than akame i don't really care about the others though i think these six guys of mine are really talented.
i've just came to a conclusion three seconds ago that i don't make a good promoter.

i'm very sorry but i just screwed up some promoter this evening cause she was showing me attitude when i wasn't in the best of mood.
bleh.

i'm so damn addicted to VIVI and EVERLAST i can't stop staring at my everlast footwear!
and this kid actually STEPPED onto it i just glared at him.
didn't his mum teach him not to run about in a mall?!!!
now it has this tiny black spot it's not perfect anymore.
i think i wanna get one thousand pairs of it and hoho everlast makes me think of ueda cuz it's boxing and ueda makes me think of akame!
HEHEHE.
and i think VIVI should be published every three days instead of once per month.

huh... i miss my phone badly alr because i'm currently using some very lockok phone.

ninalee i think i just drank coffee i'm kind of high and crazy again.

and i'm listening to some banana song my favourite siew sent me.
it's korean and i'm freaking laughing at it i can't take cute and jumpy songs.

and yes, i saw one hundred koreans. GIRLS. in the club ytd.
i thought i was practically watching a drama they were just damn crazy and funny.
spastic yet normal.

i fell in love with husband's vocals anyway i think he's amazing.

i haven bought my bank draft.

i'm so glad i still have my secondary school girls.
i think i pretty have nothing to hide in front of them.

ok enough i'm crazy.

Friday

<3 <3 <3
HAHAHA.
marvellous dinner.
sang.
scandalous.
cheated into supper.
being plotted against.
being shoved onto steve's car.
kidnapped to mos.
my girls ranaway.
stranded with husband's and sales team.
clubbed.
danced.
drank.
played.
drank.
laughed.
drank.
drunk.
mad.

and by 5am i was home safely.
thanks to steve.

and not to say, i was pretty confused i dunno what was going on.
i reaaaaally love working life.
and not to say, i hadn't been so happy for very long YAY-NESS.
although i don't know why my girls had to run off.
not as if anth will happen if they ran off.
i friggin hafta confront them.
OK I WAS PRANKED I THINK.
BUT. i loved the company.
and thanks to elaine who kept me company apart from the guys.
and i don't mind having a few more of these trips.

though i still don't like clubbing

ps: he's a good catch!



i sms-ed my brother today.

me: " are we going swimming later?"
bro: " huh? what you talking about?"
me: " DO YOU WANNA GO SWIMMING LATER!"
bro: " when i'm in malaysia?!!!"
me: " what you talking about?!!"
bro: " I'M IN MALAYSIA NOW!"
me: " can't you even find a better excuse if you dun wanna go?"
bro: " are you stupid? i'm camping in malaysia with my school now."
me:" OH YA HOR. i forgot luhhh. heh heh"
bro: " what the hell..."
me:" enjoy yourself then."
bro:" ya. u don't eat too much."


HAHAHAHAHA that's how we talk and flare at each other.
but i do love him!!!

Disturbance is just a result of being too explicit.
please stop it, i beg of you.

I'm excited about going singing with husband and all tomorrow.
hehhehheh.
im even more excited about monday.
hehhehheh.

right now, i friggin need sleep.
Don't doubt the importance of sleep in my life.

and. just when i've decided to drop everything to what it originally was a year ago.
LEETAEHOON JANGSEUNGJIN AND UJARANG ( i dunno why the last one) had to appear in my dreams last night.
and appear to be so goodlooking yet nasty.

anyway, i think that's the reason why i was having terrible moodswings the whole day today.

ok bath AND sleep.

i say...

hangout with CONNIE

read VIVI

wear HOODIES

and walk on EVERLAST

before you talk to your FAVOURITE GIRL - SIEW



i'm supppppeeerrr hairrrrpeeee today!

this weather is really not fit for living.

fans don't help.
swimming don't help.
aircon don't help.

someone help!!

anyway, I MUST BE PUNCTUAL FOR WORK TMR.
i'm getting kind of irritated over this whole fate thing.
why do i see him everywhere everytime.
it's not even fun anymore.
fate? god got the whole idea wrong i guess.
what's this shit??
errr. irritated due to some reason.
errr yes i have a reason behind this sudden resolution.

anyway, i think without money, dreams don't really come true.
think deeper ok!
like... how do you go to kindergarden without money?
and so, how do you live your dreams without even starting kindergarden?
comecomecome, i'll draw you a flow chart and make you understand.
just tell me your aspiration and i'll explain things to you.
HAHAHA..

i think i'm freakin' materialistic.

heeheee. i think i'm thinking of weird things recently.

kimtaeyeon.
nonono, not abt the taesu thing mui's mentioned.
but. her "if" is really damn nice. like supppppeeeer nice i think i've listened to it a million times.
so listen please.

i'm pretty high over talking to siew!
gahhhhh. it's a blissful 7 degrees in melbourne and i think it's gonna reach 37 degrees by tmr here in singapore!!
now i know.. yui reminds me of her.

i totally can't wait to meet my fellow tmr!!!
=) i interupted your movie!! sorry i love you.

and what's freakin happening recently is freakin' weird.
so many things happening i dunno what's happening and what's not.
should i even feel happy or not.
where's all these people getting at and what am i supposed to do?
aiya. SOMEONE, ANYBODY. COME TALK TO ME.
I NEED TO TALK.
i think i'm suffocating.

and jas and i.
we're on some stringent control programme which i shall not disclose.
ANYWAY. QIUXIUJING!!!
you really inspired me and i'm all wobbly now.
HAHAHA

oh wae?

Siew says:
and you made my day :):):):)

Siew says:
i love you so!*

i say,

SAME HERE. =)

i feel the need to move on.
and to leave things behind.
because i'm pretty sick of drifting in and out of being ok and not ok.

afterall, it's been a freakin long time.
and there's no reason to be missing him when he's not coming back.

last december, i really wasn't that sad when leetaehoon's gone.
it was pretty easy, i really thought that i'd see him after a month or so.

my mindset that time was,

" he's the captain. so he'll come back."

so, someday in january, after much anticipation.
i rmb i was walking arnd with eben, when i heard korean behind me.

my heart fluttered.
i was really happy, even though i couldn't see familiar faces.
the next thing i did was to check on updates.

until i saw one article, about how only 5 of them remained.
and scrolling down seeing the names made my heart sank.
no more captain.

and the next few days that followed, seeing updates on his cyworld and seeing 28 appear on his jersey, i was so depressed i cried myself to sleep every night.
because i had to come to terms that i wont be seeing my taehoon anymore.

it's really hurts, to miss someone so much.
to appear fine when you're actually not.
to think that you're fine when you're not.
to imagine that you'll be fine after a while when you're not sure about it yourself.

i really liked him.

and he's the first person whom i didnt delete everything, msgs and all from my phone after everything's over.

all along, i did think that deleting msgs really helps.
and it did.
but deleting his msgs, i think i'll only regret it.

so, until some other person appear, i really still like leetaehoon alot alot alot alot alot.



and anqi was saying, that i've gotten the answers i wanted from the respective people.
especially Gabriel.
but somehow it doesnt feel right.
i'm just satisfied with the answers.
and i definitely didnt give anybody the wrong idea.
i wasn't even playing along.
i know he reads this.
so sorry.

honto gomen.

YOU said smth wrong about me, how can it be my fault?
when you didnt make things clear in the first place?

so here goes,
actually, i'm pretty sure i don't like you.
cuz i'm pretty sure i still like captain.

how will it feel if i spend half of my life sleeping?

i think i'll be so happy i'll want to spend my whole life sleeping.

HAHA

for all those who haven't watched.
please. WATCH!!!!

like it never fails to bring tears to my eyes each time i watch it. ( after like...4times?)
errrrmmmm. more of sobbing.
like, really sobbing.

RIGHT CONG? HAHAHA.




is it MY PROBLEM. or is it MY PHONE'S PROBLEM.

or is it YOUR PROBLEM?

tsk, like nobody is replying my msgs or calls.

esp EBENZERTOH.

hello, i'm talking to my yuhboh whose in nippon.

so eggciting!!!

what freakin' happens when you can't stop shopping online?

bimbo: " you'll lose your lappy!"
me:" huh why?!!"
bimbo: " you get so fed-up with yourself you smash it up!!!!"

i was like... left speechless.
HAHAHAHAH.

i love my anqi luhhhh.
anw, i think my account balance will be $0.17 relatively SOON.

http://cyworld.com/


/skysoccer


yo! pogoshipoyo.
manymanymany.

the last i've seen of you, was on 7th Nov.

time really flies.

I THINK JIN IS. DAMN HOT.

do you know. that my freakin phone batt. fully charged. can only. last me. for. 2 hours?!!!!
then the next moment. it blacks out. then it comes back. and blacks out. and the bars keep jumping. like wtf?!!

i think. i'm so shocked and pissed. i'm incoherent.

stupid phone.

EBENZER TOH IS EFFING PICKIN' UP HIS PHONE WHEN I'M NOT PRANK CALLING HIM.

OMG THIS IS SO IRRITATING.

HELLO PLEASE PICK UP YOUR PHONE!!!

yay i love qiu's company.

and i love the food.

and i feel like shitting now.


HAHAHAHAHA.

i think i'm pretty stupid. to a large extent.

geez.
some things just don't turn out right, right?
when things become so effing dramatic.
it might not so be a good thing everytime.

so god damn depressed.
ANYWAY.

my resolution for the next two months will be to


BE PUNCTUAL FOR WORK.

believe me,i haven been punctual for once since day three.
day three because i was freaking early once cuz i cant go to sleep.
so in actual fact, i haven been punctual since DAY TWO.

my schedule for today will be to watch everything that's unwatched.
and bask in the moonlight with qiu.
and before that, i need to go to eben's for lunch first.

i don't have time to do everything luhhhh!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

anyway, the reason i wanna be punctual for work is because i don't feel like seeing my mrt ______ anymore.

http://smellofrainmovie.com/

for now.
i'm gonna smell the rain and go back to sleep.

how nice.

i will help my future husband trim his eyebrows.
i think it's very important for a guy to have neat eyebrows.

like... JIN.
and... NATHO.

why must i even bother?
when you fuckin' don't give a damn.

ANYWAY.
wednesday's for hibernating.
my head's splitting for excessive fatigue.
so, rest is very important.
much more important than money.
sleep is number one on my list now.

i miss myfav girl so much and i smile at the photos taken like... four months ago.
and i was freakin happy when i read her mail today.

" dearest! i carry our photo everywhere and i smile at it everyday."

i promise to take 35794764969...... photos with her when she comes back in june.
so that she can bring it to aussie.

siew... aitai desu. =(

and mui... it pains me to see you like that. =(

i haven seen husband for TWO DAYS.

he's MISSING.

and thanks to someone's CURSE.

rrrrraaaahhh!!

but then, _____ and i equates to fate.


说了都没人信

and if you're me.

you'll know why i'll never set foot in INDIA.

as amazing and legendary the place is.
as much as i'd love to see the elephants.
as much as...

ok besides the elephants.

to me. india = elephants.

HAHAHA BIMBOTIC I KNOW!!!

try understanding me?

take trains.
take trains.
take trains.

i've learnt enough.
to know that.

1. when posed a question - just smile.
2. when asked for opinions - just smile.
3. when asked to give solutions - just smile.
4. when asked to side anybody - just smile.
5. when anybody asks me anything - just smile.

so that i won't get into any UNECESSARY trouble.

so from today onwards, i shall act like an idiot and just - SMILE.



this promotional video... is.... like....

OH MY GOD.

how freaking hot and each and every single one of them get.

ps: i've never rmbed commenting about how hot EACH AND EVERY of them looks, other than koki jin and KAME.

so, i beg of you to watch this.
the dance left me gasping at the screen.

and so, please watch this.

although they danced with girls, but it's still such a nice pv.
like....

" hey, we're filming this pv as though we're clubbing"

HAHA.

bottomline.
PLEASE WATCH.


A BIG HUG TO QIU!!!!
you know i love you <3

hello.

i wear some doraemon oversized singlet to sleep.

hello.

i think i'm secretly in love with my brother.
although we bark at each other 8392757903759 times a day.

hello.

i love today's weather.

talking to G______ makes me wanna die.
cuz he's like freakin' funny.
i think i've got cramps from laughing.

hahaha.
goodnight.

for having such parents.
i'm really grateful.
now i finally know how much one's parents can actually support their child's every decision.
and for that, i've really not been a good daughter.
because i'm very very very selfish.


anyway, something for me to think about.

ytd in the office, the 40yr old stinking colleague was analysing our personalities.
and she's really spot-on.
i think i better beware of her from today onwards.
she sees through my personality so thoroughly, even things that my manager doesn't know.
SCARY.

but smth she said made me really happy.

" you ahhh. from your looks (as in how my eyes ears nose evth looks luh!!), your future husband may be well-to-do. and you won't have to worry about financial problems."

of cuz luhhh. NOT RICH U THINK I'LL MARRY MEHHH!

actually, since young, those uncles and aunties have been saying the same things to my parents and to me.
even my grandparents say so.
things like i'll marry into a well-to-do family.
may not necessary be superrich, but good enough for me to live without worries.

and i'm really hoping this will happen.

if you see how much i'm fretting over money from last time to now.
and if you really understand the situation i've always been in.
and people who think i am rich or i look rich or whatever.
BULLSHIT LUHHH.
IF YOU'RE IN MY SHOES, YOU'LL KNOW HOW I REALLY FEEL.

seriously. i need to marry a rich guy.

and what goes round comes round, can i insult you this time round??
can i ask you to look back and see what you did to me?
and what you're doing now is sufficient for me to gush back at you?
damn.

i think i have fuckin' serious mood swings luh.

why is my head filled with...

LEE TAE HOON.
LEE TAE HOON.
LEE TAE HOON.
LEE TAE HOON.
LEE TAE HOON.
LEE TAE HOON.

AND HIM AND HIM AND HIM ONLY.

i need to get rid of these thoughts.
evil thoughts.

i need to try hard and harder to keep my mind thinking about how much more fated can the fated one and i get.

but why is it always LEE TAE HOON!!!

Today is just BLISSFUL.

first thing, my nails are bimbo pink.
yay.

ok. i didn't see ______ the whole day today, and was DEPRESSED.

YAY-ness.

xiang said : " you two sound as if you're in a movie!!"

true enough. ____ is my motivation for gg to work nowadays.
my motivation for taking trains.

_______ because i dunno his name yet.

BUT. i think we're pretty much familiar with each other since we really share some kind of fate.

LIKE REALLY I SWEAR, I NEVER STALK HIM.
NEVER.

this time round, it's just plain fate.
like.... hello!!
_______'s everywhere anytime.
like EVERYWHERE ANYTIME.


how scary is that.

anw, i'm happy because i've found someone to entertain me amidst the long hours at work.

i'm pretty much drained of energy i need to sleep.
and eben said he lost 4kg?!!!!!
BLUFFFFF LUHHHH.
i think i'm gonna join the police force!

and the song my fav girl sent me via mail is..... SO CUTE!!
anw, like, really twenty odd days to seeing her!!
i'm going to spend all my time with her.

About the people since six years ago.

and holy called.
and we talked for two hours.

i guess we pretty much feel the same way, about the people around us and how we've been living for the past two years.
we've lost ourselves and i found myself back from talking to her.
we've not been acting like what we originally were.
i miss this crazy sister of mine.
as much as i miss going back to the days where i'll just sit down beside her in class, doodling or sleeping, laughing or gossiping, acting crazy or being funny.
i can see this pretty much coming true.

and i'm pretty very much excited about meeting qiu and nn tmr.
really excited.

it's these few days, that i miss these sec sch buddies so much.

did i say? that i find holy more like a family member than a friend?
that i've never really ever quarrelled with qiu although we've got very different characters? and even if we did exchange harsh or blunt words, we don't really remember it.
that just the thought of nnlee laughing and her dimples make me smile to myself, or rather, laugh, and this happened though i really DISLIKED her for like almost two years.
that as much as i feared zyz in my first two years in sec sch, she became so damn important the next two years, three to be exact. someway or another, she made me feel so special than others around her.
that it's so easy to talk to hl, for we share almost the same thoughts and same thinking and ohwells, i think we're really pretty similar.
that although i may look as if i dun give a damn to phuarenfeng, she's indispensible. i think she's really one of those saints you can never ever find in the society anymore, i really like her alot luh I DO!


and i really need to thank fellow for being there for me when things are down.
for being there and just there.
for being so assuring.
i love her so i really do.
i should have realised this since i was 11.

for now, things are really taking a turn for the better.

i can see my future is no longer as dark.
and i know i have my companions with me.

i can sense something.
for G____ is the next person that makes me smile at my phone after leetaehoon.
and i really like him for who he is.
just that there's no dokidoki feeling.
but i see this very different side of him, from what i used to know and what i see from the surf